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“Mm, maybe… I don’t really know what they’d look like.” Melissa admitted, looking up and studying his face. “But like you said, they’d probably look more like me. But we could be surprised.”
“Mm, maybe… I don’t really know what they’d look like.” Melissa admitted, looking up and studying his face. “But like you said, they’d probably look more like me. But we could be surprised.”
Lucas nodded and huddled up against Melissa's side. "Well, I would love them regardless of what they look like. I want to be a better father than my dad was."
“And I want to be a better mother than mine is…” Melissa whispered, starting to gently play with his hair. “Maybe we should promise to tell the other if we think we’re starting to act like them.”
"Alright. I don't think we will, though… I'd never try and hurt our children, physically or emotionally."
"Mm, that's true… I wouldn't either. I don't understand how anyone could ever want to…" Melissa mumbled, starting to nuzzle up close.
"Mm… I think I remind him of Claus and my mother. He doesn't want to think of them, so he drinks to forget and tries to destroy me." Lucas said simply.
“I know, but still. I really just can’t understand how anyone could be so cruel…” Melissa whispered, reaching out for his hand. “I can’t comprehend it.”
"Yeah… I mean, he never beat me when he was sober. He was just… very rarely sober…" Lucas sighed softly.
Melissa nodded just a bit, lacing their fingers together. “I- I guess that’s true…”
Lucas nodded as well and huddled close. "And obviously he was always on his best behavior around my mom…"
Melissa sighed softly, and nodded once again. "Right… isn't that how it always is, though? They always keep up a good appearance around the one person who would stand up to them…"
"Mhmm… Claus tried to protect me once. It only got both of us badly hurt… and dad rarely hurt Claus. He was always his favorite."
Melissa shut her eyes, trying to push the images out of her head before starting to reply. "I honestly don't know what I would have done if he had hurt you more, when I was there. I know it was bad, but I'm sure there had been worse before… I don't think I could be able to help you…"
Lucas smiled weakly as he looked over at Melissa. "Don't blame yourself, Mel. It hasn't been as bad recently. Well… it got worse, actually, but I'm bigger now. It felt a lot worse when I was younger. He could toss me around without much effort."
Melissa wasn't looking at him, wincing a bit when he mentioned the last little bit. It only put more realism to the already vivid scenes playing in her head. "I- I'm sure it was… you weren't ever very strong…" She mumbled a little, starring out of the branches to distract herself.
"Mm…" Lucas huddled close to Melissa's and rested his head on her shoulder. "Yeah… and I was pretty small back then. At least I've grown some now. Baseball has helped."
"Yeah… that's true…" Melissa mumbled, resting her head against his with a soft sigh. "I really wish I could have done more… I know you've got to be tired of hearing me say that- but I just feel so guilty about it…"
"It's not your fault, Melissa. It's my own. I should've told you." Lucas kissed Melissa softly and huddled closer.
"I know that, Lucas. I know it's not my fault. But I have no other way to explain this guilty conscious I have." Melissa whispered weakly, trying to just relax.
"I know…" Lucas sighed softly and pulled Melissa close. "I wish I'd told you sooner, love. Then we could've done all this years ago."
"How I'm handling it now, is not a good sign how I would have handled it a few years ago…" Melissa mumbled weakly, scooting closer. "Even with a better hold on the whole 'being a teenager' thing, I still have a terrible hold on my emotional range. I'm not sure I could have handled it."
"Well, I'm not handling it all that great either, am I? I can hardly sleep through the night most of the time. Random things trigger me and make me panic. I'm seventeen… I should be able to handle this, right…?"
Melissa sighed weakly, knowing how dumb she sounded compared to him. She needed to get over herself. "I- sorry… I shouldn't even be saying anything. I have no right to be."
"W-Wait, I was trying to make you feel better… that clearly backfired. Um… I'm sorry, Melissa." Lucas fidgeted nervously.
Melissa glanced down to him, giving him a soft smile. "No- I'm sorry. I seriously need to get out of my own head space and listen to you. I'm being stupid."
Lucas nodded hesitantly. "I'm sorry… is now a good time for you to ask questions? I really don't want to be hiding anything from you."
"I- probably not… I didn't even mean to start, but here we are." Melissa sighed weakly, dropping her face in her hands.
"Well, I'm alright with it either way. You can ask me whatever you want to, Mel." Lucas kissed Melissa's cheek softly.
"Whatever I want?" Melissa asked softly, letting a little smirk pull up when he kissed her. "I'd suggest limiting that. I might take my power too far."
Lucas flushed and looked away. "Um… I… I'm not going to limit you, Melissa. Ask away, and I'll be as honest as possible."
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