forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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lmao yes show cat pls kat-

my chonky baby

CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT
:DDDDDDD

I have to plan out 3 different Halloween costumes this year. (Not that I'm complaining). I need to finish one by the 17th, one by the 28th, and one for actual Halloween. And I could re-wear one of the other costumes, but I already bought the jewelry and carry-on's for my Halloween costume where I am a hunter from Supernatural, and for the other two, I am in one trunk-or-treat where our theme is pirates and me and my friend are going to a park where they have a dress up night every Saturday with a theme and the night we are going in "Adventure" so we are going as weird versions of Hobbits (Weird because we are both really tall). Needless to say, instead of working on other things, I am trying to see what I could wear in two costumes. It is a mess.

I told myself I wasn't going to come back to this fucking website but here we are

it's Leo (M)

I'm sorry

But I've cried for at least an hour everyday for the past week and I just really need some love right now

Leo!
We missed you!
I was thinking about you todaythat comes off a little creepy but you know what I mean

<3

hey ash

how've you been?

Decent, I guess

Worse since school started, but I'm still vibin' and crying over fictional characters and other dumb crap like parents yelling at me about homework

fuck parents and homework
at least it's spooky szn now, right?

Indeed
We went pumpkin picking today, gonna carve one into a mask and wear it
Also wearing spooky socks for spooky season

lit

So I was living my life you know, doing homework, having a mental breakdown.
And I was like, you know what I'm gonna watch that one new show on Netflix it gives off Disney channel vibes.
One song just tapped into a bunch of worries and fears I didn't know I had so I'm kinda freaking out a bit. And I'm crying, and people are like "Bro, why are you crying."
So spoilers for Julie and the Phantoms

I told myself I wasn't going to come back to this fucking website but here we are

it's Leo (M)

I'm sorry

But I've cried for at least an hour everyday for the past week and I just really need some love right now

ohno, i'm sorry to hear that ;-;
but yes, we love you v much and miss you
and that's a very valid reason to come back, leo <3

big hugs @ fren
sending good vibes your way !!

Today my brother and I were talking about One Piece on the way to school, and my mom was getting annoyed so she was like 'I'll let you pick the music if you stop talking about One Piece' so we shut up and I picked this playlist

And she just sighed

I can feel my current obsessions waning and I'm not excited for me to be bored with them. It's probably going to coincide with the last stuff for marching band and then I'll have nothing

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Are you me

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Are you me

Are you me?

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Are you me

Are you me?

Who is this me
Because everyone might be me

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Are you me

Are you me?

Who is this me
Because everyone might be me

Something I can relate to 100%. It's damned if you do and damned if you don't but at least lying has a better chance of me not getting into trouble.

Me being a pathological liar becuase of my parents always telling me to tell the truth but then punishing me when I do: -_-
My parents: supprised pikachu meme

Are you me

Are you me?

Who is this me
Because everyone might be me

Something I can relate to 100%. It's damned if you do and damned if you don't but at least lying has a better chance of me not getting into trouble.

Exactly!

alright, here’s the big question
do I tell my therapist everything I’ve hid, confuse the fuck out of her trying to figure out a way to explain the whatever-the-heck that’s been plaguing me all year, making me sound like a vague delusional vent generator
but then go home and beat myself up for allowing one of them to know about me, risking my very own safety in multiple ways

Or do I go the much, much safer route, only tell her the depression-related things that haven’t actually been affecting me much, and then still beat myself up for not saying anything?

oh god we’re here
shit

alright, here’s the big question
do I tell my therapist everything I’ve hid, confuse the fuck out of her trying to figure out a way to explain the whatever-the-heck that’s been plaguing me all year, making me sound like a vague delusional vent generator
but then go home and beat myself up for allowing one of them to know about me, risking my very own safety in multiple ways

Or do I go the much, much safer route, only tell her the depression-related things that haven’t actually been affecting me much, and then still beat myself up for not saying anything?

Tell her the things that bother you even if they don't make sense
Its her job, she'll figure it out

Me, shuffling a deck of cards and pulling a few: Oh look, we've got depersonalization, an episode of time where if you get near something sharp someone will get hurt, a maniac episode, and a depressive nap on the table today.

Hnnn… Trigger warning for… Idk, abuse? Getting hurt?

Swim,,, dude,,, that sounds like really bad… please be careful, not a whole lot I can say other than that. Please.

It'll be fine, I think…
but if anyone knows what's up with my jaw it'd be nice to know how to fix it. I can't close it all the way (can't touch my lower teeth to the other side) without pain on the right side of my head/jaw, and can't open it as wide as normal

Probably dislocated is my guess? That's the only thing I can assume, and if he hit you that hard… yikes.

Eh… I'm the one who got him that mad anyway, I know he was trying to not do something like this
I'll be looking into ways to get my jaw back to normal, thanks <3

Eh… I'm the one who got him that mad anyway, I know he was trying to not do something like this
I'll be looking into ways to get my jaw back to normal, thanks <3

Bb do NOT blame yourself for a grown ass man hitting a child. His own child. That. Is. Not. Your. Fault. As a parent, it's his responsibility to love you and raise you to be a good person, not to hold himself back from dislocating your jaw. You shouldn't have to hold yourself back from hitting your kid. That should never be something that crosses a parent's mind. Honestly even sPaNkInG as a form of punishment and it really doesn't sound like that's what happened.
I'm your dad now, sorry not sorry