forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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I am tearing up and I'm on the verge of crying- I just watched a Documentary- A sad- Sad one… Lot's of death-

I'm here. Do you want to talk about it?

Sure-

PM me, love.

One of my teachers, he makes me wanna cry, but like. A happy cry. I'm really glad that I got to be this guy's student. (Though how much he called me lady bothered me greatly.)

bro I dropped my phone in the hall today while walking towards my band teacher and when I caught it he complimented my reflexes which made me want to jump off a cliff for some reason

Ah, I see. I mean, at least your phone didn't hit the ground, so that's a plus.

yes but it made me want to die

my ex boyfriend just told me that he is homophobic. fucking great. and he said we used to be friends before he found out i was pansexual.

i've trying to study for so long but my head hurts so much and i can't focus on anything

i've trying to study for so long but my head hurts so much and i can't focus on anything

Take a break for a little bit then come back to it. Listen to some classical music or movie/video game soundtracks.

Water and maybe a snack, too.

yall my test is tomorrow and ive barely studied :((((((((((

i physically can not concentrate

Then maybe it's time for you to stop now.
Sounds like your brain is telling you it's studied enough for now.

haha it's really sinking in
myzl's account got wrongfully suspended and now he's back on six's account…

seeing that notification gave me hope
that somehow
somewhere
she was alive

but shes not
shes never coming back, is she?

(discord stuff)

i-
i just want her to be alive again
to be able to enjoy life
was that why she was so inactive?
because she was in pain?
because her body was slowly degrading?
because of her illness?

i just want her to come back to life
please

but she never will
and i think im still in shock
but its starting to sink in
hahhahaha this is fun,,,,,,,

Hey. Izzy.
Grief fucking sucks. I know it.
When dad died in August I spent hours just screaming into my pillow at the top of my lungs that I'd do anything for him to come back.
It isn't fair that you lost your friend and darling, if I could take this pain away from you, I would in a heartbeat.
It's okay to be sad. It's healthy and normal to be sad. Your friend passed away. That's a damn good reason to be upset.
It's going to get easier over time (easier– it will always hurt). But Six is with us, okay? Think about all the good memories you have with her. She wasn't in pain, baby. And if she was it was over quickly. Okay?
We're gonna be okay.

okay,,,,, <3

Love ya, Iz.
You kids always make me go soft.

Guess what fuckers
I got officially diagnosed with inattentive ADHD
Life really do be making sense

Hey, congratulations!

Then maybe it's time for you to stop now.
Sounds like your brain is telling you it's studied enough for now.

haha i haven't studied at all

<3 love you too leo

and nice, beans !

also salami, that's a big oof
like they say, the hardest part is always starting-

Guess what fuckers
I got officially diagnosed with inattentive ADHD
Life really do be making sense

just think, being diagnosed makes absolutely no difference other than people will know how to help!

That's a pretty big difference imo

That's a pretty big difference imo

true, but it doesnt change who you are?

Well of course not.

kinda does though

I say the diagnosis itself does change who you are so much as it helps some things about yourself make more sense and can lead to who you are changing.

nO WHY DID MY PFP BEND LIKE THAT

I-

👁️👄👁️

That's a pretty big difference imo

true, but it doesnt change who you are?

There is a cause and there is a treatment. It's validating. It means that there is a reason I am like this and there are ways to fix this if I want to. When My Brother got Diagnosed it made a really big difference not just for him but for the whole family. He's not trying to act up, he's not trying to misbehave, there is a disconnect in his brain. It's not something we can just teach out of him, it's not something he can control, He's still responsible for his actions, but now we are able to understand him and he understands himself.
It means that his teachers are able to teach him in a more engaging way and understand why he's not sitting still or behaving perfectly. Now he doesn't feel like he's the problem, he isn't beating himself up over the things he does because now he understands that it's not some dark part of him that wants to be bad. Getting a diagnosis doesn't change who you are but it does change how you perceive yourself.
So I didn't know I had asthma until a month or two ago, I just thought I was a bad athlete, I just thought I was a really bad swimmer, and A bad water polo player because I could never do what the other people my age could do with their bodies. Then I got Diagnosed and suddenly, I wasn't a bad swimmer. I just couldn't breathe and my muscles weren't getting enough oxygen. So Getting that Diagnosis opened doors for me, getting the treatment means I can use my body to it's full potential where with out it, I would be stuck in this mind set of I'm just bad at this.