forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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If we're doing recommendations, read Smoke Gets In Your Eyes by Caitlin Doughty.

Everything by her honestly. I love her

uh oh guys…they’ve announced elementary and some high school students to be returning to school this September in my province…let’s see how this goes

I'm so unbelievably apathetic today that I could barely make myself food for lunch. Important stuff happened and I barely pushed to learn about it. I really want to jump into a large pool of water and float there forever. I don't want this day to count, I don't want anything to happen. No one talk to me please, it's agonizing to see a phone call or even begin to try and text someone. I talked to one person this morning and I barely felt as if I were there, I was just outside looking in on the silence

So…I just heard the one of my best friends has run away from home. Last night. Last time I saw her, she said she had an appointment with a therapist to talk about voices she's hearing in her head. And…I'm really really really really worried for her. She doesn't have a cell phone. She has no way to contact anyone if she's in trouble. I sent her an email but I have no idea if she will respond. I'm terrified that the next news I get is going to be that she's dead, or that there's not going to be any news at all. So. Yeah.

So…I just heard the one of my best friends has run away from home. Last night. Last time I saw her, she said she had an appointment with a therapist to talk about voices she's hearing in her head. And…I'm really really really really worried for her. She doesn't have a cell phone. She has no way to contact anyone if she's in trouble. I sent her an email but I have no idea if she will respond. I'm terrified that the next news I get is going to be that she's dead, or that there's not going to be any news at all. So. Yeah.

That must be awful, my heart goes out to you. Do you know if she was getting treatment before?

So…I just heard the one of my best friends has run away from home. Last night. Last time I saw her, she said she had an appointment with a therapist to talk about voices she's hearing in her head. And…I'm really really really really worried for her. She doesn't have a cell phone. She has no way to contact anyone if she's in trouble. I sent her an email but I have no idea if she will respond. I'm terrified that the next news I get is going to be that she's dead, or that there's not going to be any news at all. So. Yeah.

That must be awful, my heart goes out to you. Do you know if she was getting treatment before?

Thank you. And…I have no idea. It's hard to keep in contact with her since she's really bad at answering emails and again, has no phone, plus she lives two hours away so it's not like I'm gonna run into her. And last I knew, she had the appointment set up but hadn't gone yet, so I have no idea if she was on treatment or meds or anything

I let Tiktok decide which character I should kill off because I couldn’t make up my mind and Amara(one of the two characters) is definitely the favorite and it’s very funny to me

Me: okay so whichever gets less likes will die

Everyone: kill the white boy

So…I just heard the one of my best friends has run away from home. Last night. Last time I saw her, she said she had an appointment with a therapist to talk about voices she's hearing in her head. And…I'm really really really really worried for her. She doesn't have a cell phone. She has no way to contact anyone if she's in trouble. I sent her an email but I have no idea if she will respond. I'm terrified that the next news I get is going to be that she's dead, or that there's not going to be any news at all. So. Yeah.

High-key sucks.

I let Tiktok decide which character I should kill off because I couldn’t make up my mind and Amara(one of the two characters) is definitely the favorite and it’s very funny to me

FJSD I SAW THAT ONE

Hey, it'll get better once you get your Zoloft.

Hey, it'll get better once you get your Zoloft.

you’re probably right. <3 ssri withdrawals are so scary though i feel like nobody mentions it

I let Tiktok decide which character I should kill off because I couldn’t make up my mind and Amara(one of the two characters) is definitely the favorite and it’s very funny to me

FJSD I SAW THAT ONE

YEAH I SAW YOUR COMMENT

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i can’t remember any of my memories, even thinhs that i think were very important, i can’t remember if they happened or if i just dreamed them

I have the same problem. It always feels like there’s a cloud over my vision. I used to have so many stories but I don’t know any of them anymore. Obviously I have no idea how to fix it but supposedly it comes from trauma or if you have a disaccociative disorder

covids been fucking my toenails up man
You may ask how it does that, and allow me to introduce you to the wonders of “pincer nails” aka nails that grow inwards, curling into your skin…usually resulting in ingrown toenails. No cure for them except for total nail removal iirc and I’ve looked at the surgery for it and it just looks uncomfortable
Onuxophobia makes it really bad

I usually have appointments to deal with clipping toenails but haven’t been able to bc of the pandemic. The woman who does it is higher risk as she’s older and she also deals with a number of people who are also older so we haven’t been able to do much of that so it’s been up to yours truly to manage

It happens every 3 months where it gets pretty painful and now it’s that month where it gets pretty uncomfortable. I clipped them yesterday but I think the part I really need to get out is actually in the skin so…wish me luck I don’t really want to because I’m worried I’ll screw something up

covids been fucking my toenails up man
You may ask how it does that, and allow me to introduce you to the wonders of “pincer nails” aka nails that grow inwards, curling into your skin…usually resulting in ingrown toenails. No cure for them except for total nail removal iirc and I’ve looked at the surgery for it and it just looks uncomfortable
Onuxophobia makes it really bad

I usually have appointments to deal with clipping toenails but haven’t been able to bc of the pandemic. The woman who does it is higher risk as she’s older and she also deals with a number of people who are also older so we haven’t been able to do much of that so it’s been up to yours truly to manage

It happens every 3 months where it gets pretty painful and now it’s that month where it gets pretty uncomfortable. I clipped them yesterday but I think the part I really need to get out is actually in the skin so…wish me luck I don’t really want to because I’m worried I’ll screw something up

Yo, good news! I’ve gotten the ingrown nail removal thing and they don’t have to take off the whole nail. They can just take off the side and then they put this thing on it to stop it from growing again. The numbing shots hurt like a bitch but honestly it’s worth it.

Hey, it'll get better once you get your Zoloft.

you’re probably right. <3 ssri withdrawals are so scary though i feel like nobody mentions it

They totally are! I was on an ssri for a bit in 8th grade (iirc, it was Zoloft lol) but it didn't work so they took me off it, and I had to wean off over a month-ish because my doctor was afraid that I would

if they had me quit cold turkey.

oh
withdrawal
that… could explain a lot

i feel like im gonna pass out

oh
withdrawal
that… could explain a lot

i think technically ssri withdrawal isn’t classed as “withdrawal” per se since ssris aren’t addictive, but i feel like nobody knows what ssri discontinuation syndrome is since most people in a non-medical setting just refer to it as withdrawal

yeah maybe i should stop purposefully skipping my meds twice a week…

My back hurts so bad and I want to cry

yeah maybe i should stop purposefully skipping my meds twice a week…

yes you should stop :( i used to do that a lot when i was on prozac and since it stays in your system for a long time 1 day skipping it isn’t a super big deal but once i went like 2 or 3 days it got bad

I don't know why I call myself a writer. I wrote two pages for the first time in months and I'm already exhausted.

It be like that. But a writer means the dream plus the grit to keep going.

Honestly I can't write more than like half a page without burning myself out. I also can't write until my brain actually shows me a scene with the words to explain it, which is pretty rare lately. And it's hardly ever the next scene in the story, it's usually just some random thing that doesn't fit anywhere

you guys are writing pages?

You know that tumblr post about adhd and memory that's like "sometimes you can't remember what you had for breakfast and sometimes you're just like 'I can recite every opening sentence to every magic treehouse book'" or whatever? I'd like to add. Sometimes my memory is both, like oh boy I remember ever silly songs with larry song and now I'm simultaneously singing five but I do not remember what I just said. And it's really weird and makes people think that I just don't care about what they're saying. Which is kind of hypocritical because most of them fully admit to not listening to me half the time and oh pumpkins I should just not talk tomorrow