191 words down 1,209 to go in this ridiculous essay.
Ok it's not ridiculous I actually like analyzing books if I like the book, and I liked the book. I'm just struggling to get to the point of this essay, there is so much context to be explained at this point I'm going to have to write out a short summery as my first paragraph. which wouldn't be a big deal if it wasn't very hard to write a summer about becasue there's so much of "He likes her but the she moves away and also he was engaged to this other girl for like four years and she's kinda a jerk. He doesn't like the girl he's engaged to he was stupid and 19 when they began their engagement, but he's still going along with it because Reasons and the girl he likes is like PoOOooR Sensible Boyyy stuck with a Stupid, bitter petty girl, but in the end he breaks off his engage ment and the two that want to be together are, Every body gets married the end."
alright kids it's 11 at night and welcome to yet another scheduled episode of "wondering if i have any friends or if everyone's just plotting against me behind my back", where i spend way too long questioning every aspect of my life and wishing i was never born to see it
come back in about 24 hours to see the exact same thing, but at another time
If it's worth anything, I'm not plotting behind your back.
I feel really stupid and petty because I made a tiktok about my WIP (since I have a decent following) and it kinda flopped but I figured it was fine until I came across another person talking about their WIP. I don’t want to drag a fellow writer but her plot but pretty unoriginal (year 3000, world is divided into factions, teens are trying to overthrow a tyrannical government.) and she had over 11k likes and it made me feel really angry and bad about myself so I did what I do when I’m upset and hurt myself because I have nowhere to channel negative emotions and I feel like a bad person for feeling that I deserve more recognition for having an original plot.
(I know this isn't the point of that vent but, For once why can't the teen's be over throwing a perfectly good functional government that's doing a pretty good job, I would read that. A bunch of misguided heros are manipulated into taking down their government by the bad guy's but they accomplish it half way through the book and realize that it was a goof and the rest of the book is them scrambling to undo the mess they did so the world doesn't fall into chaos)
Just know when your book get's excepted by publishers and her's doesn't we'll see who the one with 11K copies sold is.
It's not bad to want to feel Validated, I'm not really sure what to say beyond that. It's a perfectly acceptable reason to be upset, you are Valid.
Nutella followed me on Byte and liked all my things! Gave me like three solid seconds of Happy.
Hey y’all I think I may have fucked up
I made an alt on Discord and kinda pretended I was a different person, and one my closest friends on that server believed me and said quote “I trusted Sebastian” and now I’m stressed cuz I think she’s mad at me
Update: she still loves me
(I know this isn't the point of that vent but, For once why can't the teen's be over throwing a perfectly good functional government that's doing a pretty good job, I would read that. A bunch of misguided heros are manipulated into taking down their government by the bad guy's but they accomplish it half way through the book and realize that it was a goof and the rest of the book is them scrambling to undo the mess they did so the world doesn't fall into chaos)
Just know when your book get's excepted by publishers and her's doesn't we'll see who the one with 11K copies sold is.
It's not bad to want to feel Validated, I'm not really sure what to say beyond that. It's a perfectly acceptable reason to be upset, you are Valid.
Thanks, that made me feel a little better. I know life isn’t fair and all but it hurt a lot
today i found out that my mom's been making her own hand sanitizer for us since covid started.
not a bad thing, it's good to be thrifty, but uh…
I'll just paste the conversation
Me: "so how much alcohol do you put in it?"
Mom: "Just a splash. You don't want too much or it'll dry out your hands."
Me: "mom that's not enough to kill anything, there's a certain percentage needed for it to actually work as a sanitizer-"
Mom: "Oh, that just means what concentration of alcohol you have to buy to put in, not the amount. Even then there's still at least 35% of it."
"Plus the thieves oil of course, which helps."
…
the minimum requirement is 60% alcohol.
our hand sanitizer doesn't work.
…. there's a certain amount of actual alcohol to the rest ratio, it's not the "concentration" of alcohol you just splash in some of the things she does, i-
on another note my friends were calling over discord as usual and i hopped on, ready to join in conversations and laugh at stuff, as we do every night
but turns out they were doing a roleplay of some sort, and since i was there, they kept asking me to join even though they were in the middle of a story i wasn't part of
and so i gave in and tried to play but without explaining much about the situation they put me on the spot, said "as they were conversing, this girl with blue hair approached them excitedly" and tried to get me to act in character
however the character i chose is very socially anxious and would never approach anyone like that unless it had something to do with her, but because i don't know what they were doing or saying or anything going on i couldn't tell if it had anything to do with her, and so we were already out of character yet i had to come up with a in-character response on the spot and say it out loud without overthinking
but then my brain stopped working and i physically couldn't think of anything other than how everyone would think I'm a terrible roleplayer and never want to speak to me again if i opened my mouth, so i just sat there breathing heavily on the microphone for a solid minute before they asked me if i was okay, to which i panicked and said this already doesn't fit her character, i have no idea what's going on, is it too late to back out, I've never done this before, what is happening, someone help I'm so confused
they tried to explain but somehow it just got worse and all the words mushed together into nonsense so i just deleted my character description and sat there in silent panic until one of them said "you know what, maybe we should just play minecraft" and they sounded disappointed and now i feel terrible cause they were probably having fun and i ruined it and now they think I'm a terrible roleplayer and will never invite me to their dnd sessions and will probably laugh at me if i ever bring up writing and i kind of want to bury myself alive now
sorry for the rant I just had to get it off my mind before the awkward internal extreme panic kills me
Oh that's terrible. I'm sorry.
I would like to come back and say I’m doing decently for everything that is going on in my country right now. We are taking everything at a day at a time, I’m trying to take a break from social media for a bit and only using it to stay updated with the overall situation so sorry for lack of activity.
My friend found their dog, luckily. And I’ve heard lots of people being reunited with their animals, which is good news for them, and makes me happy. And some missing people are being found, I think some of them are found alive. I think a port worker that was blown out to sea was found 30 hours after the explosion, alive.
There is a before/after image online. It’s really easy to see where the nitrate ammonium was being stored. https://www.bbc.com/news/world-middle-east-53680772
I know we still have a food and economy problem to look after, but I think it’s the small things in life that counts. Lebanon is a good place, it’s just been run by bad people. But currently we are protesting and we want change. Basically, some people are inviting the French rule back to our country because even imperialist rule is better than Hezbollah.
I know not that much has changed but I wanted to come back with the update that I’m doing okay all things considered, and I’m alive. Not 100% and I’m still feeling upset, but we’ll see especially with our protests.
My mom just told me that animation and digital art isn't "real" art >:(
i will mail her a knuckle sandwich
I'm gonna actually do stuff with friends :D
My mom just told me that animation and digital art isn't "real" art >:(
:O
hands will be thrown
And in those hands will be styluses and drawing tablets
But I'll put them down gently first, so they don't get hurt
h o l d u p
✨Character ideaaaa✨
A digital art-themed knight, with monitor armor and a keyboard shield. Their stylus is their sword, and what they draw comes to their aid.
I know I should write that essay that is due on Monday,
I know I should prep for my Physics class,
I know I should do my laundry.
But instead I'm writing… seems legit.
My dad watched me chug instant ramen out of a measuring cup and didn't even bat an eye
Am I really this weird?
My dad watched me chug instant ramen out of a measuring cup and didn't even bat an eye
Am I really this weird?
I always use the measuring cup
This is the first time I've worn my section shirt and I've already ruined it.
