I wish my mom and stepdad's divorce would come sooner, I just hate having him around, just being around him makes me sick and trapped, he never did anything physical to me but I can't forgive him for hurting my mom and making me feel like shit for all these years. I know he has to be there for my brother, but I hate the fact that he has to be here. Why can't he just go away already? I wonder if I'm just overreacting since he never physically harmed me but still
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Just because there was never physical harm doesn't mean it's not terrible.
I mean, I want my parents to get divorced more than anything because they constantly hurt each other. And while I'm pretty sure they're staying together for my brother and me, it's really doing more harm than good.
So I kind of feel you.
Just because things could be worse doesn't mean they're not bad.
CW: invalidation of mental conditions and mention of demon possession
I swear to god….I hate being used like this…..
So um… both good and bad, but my partner opened up to me about what happened between them and our ex, and like… it was legit worse than I could've imagined. She made them feel awful about their body (which mind you, they were insecure about already), actually has sabotaged the public image of several people (all men. It's always men.) She was completely fucking out of line, and made this poor guy feel like they were doing everything wrong.
Also based on the information I was given, she was totally trying to sabotage our relationship, which is uh… fucked up, fellas. And while it's in the past, it's still causing pain. We still go to school together. Have some of the same friends. I feel like I've been seeing her name come up a lot more lately. So I've been thinking about her. And like. Not in a good way. I just want to protect my love and make them feel better. But alas, I am two hours away for now.
Hey, so my grandfather is in the hospital for the third time since December.
Thoughts/prayers/good vibes would be much appreciated.
I'm really worried this is it. He's been struggling with the same symptoms the past few months- severe anemia, some internal bleeding, etc. They haven't been able to find a root cause yet.. I'm really worried this might be it. He's 90 years old, has been living with prostate cancer for years, and the recent decline has me more than worried.
I'll light some incense for him
I know how that feels to have a grandfather in a hospital
Prayers, mate.
Thank you <3
sending all my good vibes your way
side note: last night was. fun to say the least
if "fun" means your fathers leave you outside in the rain because you have to shovel snow, draining all your energy by shoveling said snow, all the while your parents are depriving you of water and not letting you come inside until you have a breakdown and start banging on the porch door while in tears, and also possibly getting a cold after getting soaked and freezing
but oh well, at least i'm finally inside. got nice and toasty, had some leftover chicken for dinner with some soda pop. everything turned out slightly-better-than-usual-but-still-not-too-great in the end.
Aha small vent
When people respond to rps WITHIN 5 MINUTES AFTER I POST?!??!?!? I get so I dont know… intimidated????? Like I appreciate the quick responses but when they're within like 10 minutes every time??? And I usually respond like once every hour or so AT BEST… I don't even know
Also: I cant feel anything right now. It's all numb. I have MAP testing next period and I can't form a coherent thought and I… I'm just gonna write it into a song and pretend that I'm fine.
I was going to be productive today, like I actually woke up excited to do work. And then learned the WiFi is down and will not be back for the foreseeable future with no response from the shitty company despite getting plenty of ads from them. And then we’re getting “controlled” power outages that are definitely not random for who knows how long each time. So pretty much: I can’t write, I can’t work on homework, I can’t draw or play any sort of game without risk of losing progress and damaging my pc, and I’m out of books to read. no one is communicating at all, not the power company or internet service, not the university which is closed so I can’t go in to use any buildings or my art studio (with all my traditional supplies), and all my friends are investing in a new game and I told them to play without me cause they’re so excited and I don’t want to force them to wait on me. I hate winter, it sucks so much and I finally got a handle on my anxiety to do something and I can’t.
Anyways everyone stay warm, if you’re in the Midwest area make sure to know where your storm lanterns and other emergency supplies are in case you start losing power.
So, I had a hellish weekend. Working for 9 hours before dragged to a project that I had no idea about until I got there for another 7. On Sunday, I basically had Zoom and Teams meeting all day and I was babysitting again for 5 hours. Monday was 12 hour choir rehearsal and I got a small migraine/severe headache for the second half where I couldn't have medicine because I'm underage (I didn't have any on me) and they would have to as my mom and she would say no. Needless to say, after rehearsal, my voice was raw (Still is), I was exhausted, and I just wanted to do my homework. I was a little snippy and today my mom was angry at me with how I treated her yesterday. I tried apologizing to her, but she won't accept that. She won't talk to me and I don't know how to make it up to her so I give her her space, but then she gets mad that I'm in my room all day and I'm basically screwed no matter what.
My drawing teacher just pulled me aside for ten minutes after class to scold me for what? Being satisfied with something I was really proud about.
My drawing teacher just pulled me aside for ten minutes after class to scold me for what? Being satisfied with something I was really proud about.
yikes. Y'know, with everyone being hard on themselves and art, people forget its okay to be happy with what you make?! Like yes there is always room for improvements but its good to enjoy what you make otherwise why are you making it?
She dislikes me becuase I'm happy with my art and I asked her not to talk to me while n the middle of a sensory overload like???? why????
I'm scared for the day
I wish some things were better….I hate my ex….They're just angering me every minute They text me…Also @The-Sun I am sorry to hear that.
But we love depression hitting so HARD….harder than love ever did…
You can just block your ex. That might be the best thing to do in this scenario, especially if you've asked them to not contact you and they still have.
Yeah, I just did, I just can't…Sorry If this is bothering some people
I can't speak for everyone, but it doesn't bother me at all.
I was ranting about my ex in a few posts here as well. It's not fun at all, especially if things ended on a bad note.
Yeah…Mind if I PM you? That way you know who it is?
Yeah, go ahead
just delete your ex off of your phone
that goes to everyone reading this
it works
They’re not gonna text you
if you broke up with them? cool keep it that way and block and DELETE their ass
you deserve the best 💅✨ period
but I’m sorry to hear about it. that’s my advice.
also do not go back to being friends with your ex
if you can go back to being friends one of you never loved the other 😎😎😎😎😎😎
Yeah, there are very few cases where you can still be friends with your ex. Very, very few (ie: my friend who realized she did not like guys while she was dating a guy).
Usually it's best to put some distance between each other, at least for a while. Definitely helps with healing.
Kinda sucks when you go to the same school though and some contact is unavoidable.
I’m barely friends with my ✨fem✨ex and because she’s the way she is, she’s hinting at wanting to get back together with me
it’s complicated and not worth it
i didn’t like her that much though
DON'T DO IT. I did that with one of my ex's and every time it FAILS. also I felt that.
Well
I’m not gonna
i want a gf but not that bad
Yeah, SAME, since Guys let me down T ~ T
I was in a poly relationship with my ex, so things were a lot more complicated. We broke up before she broke up with my partner, and it was partially because I was in a barely functioning depressive state, and having issues with her lack of communication was not something I was mentally capable of handling. And we were still friends who shared a partner, but then she got like… really possessive and manipulative. Broke up with my partner, they got back together within a few days, even though I was like "this is a bad idea" and the manipulation continued.
Apparently she's intentionally fucked up the reputations of multiple guys she's dated. It's so cool.
Anyway, she left my partner with what honestly I would consider trauma and I'm not fucking happy about it.
Now she's turned around and changed her name (I mean like using a new nickname), added it/it's pronouns to her bio (I never rag on someone's pronouns, but she's a cis woman and "it" is not hers to reclaim), and now she's looking for more clubs to join, probably to fuck with their members too, because that has already happened with two separate clubs I was in with her.