I'm so lucky that monitoring software wasn't common when I was growing up.
And even luckier that my parents think I'm like this perfect well behaved child when actually Im just anxious af
My parents think that too, but I'm always walking in eggshells around them 😅 so I have 2 personalities and I only act like myself around my friends
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Yeah, my family thinks I'm a sweet little cishet Christian girl
But in reality, I'm a really headstrong little guy, I swear like a sailor, I've left religion entirely, I'm gayyyy (read: bi but I call myself gay), and I'm also not cis. I check off almost everything they hate :) But I'm sexy as hell so it doesn’t matter what they think.
I'm so glad I'm almost permanently out of the house though. Not sure I can put up with it much longer.
We have to keep being a system from them
but the monitoring software they use looks through everything we say and flags things down
Housing plan REALLY fell through. Now we have a month to find a place, and we're back at square one. This is worse than I could've imagined. I'm so fucking pissed.
i came out to my friend today
its the first time ive come out irlCongrats! How did it go?
it went good! shes a lesbian so i wasnt really woried or anything about her accepting me but she was so nice about everything and gave me advice and all that
idk why but theres a part of me that regrets it though, im just so worried about other people knowing
Housing plan REALLY fell through. Now we have a month to find a place, and we're back at square one. This is worse than I could've imagined. I'm so fucking pissed.
R o u g h
Guess who's quitting their job due to shitty ass employees and managment.
Also I'm back from my camping trip with my gf and her parents . It was fun, me and her parents were getting along and well yeah ^w^
I'm so over this anemia bullshit :(((
Like I'm supposed to be feeling better because of the treatments I got, and I was, but I've been feeling really bad again today, after over 3 weeks of being fine.
Also I adjusted my diet to have more iron and vitamin C, and I'm taking B supplements, so idk what the hell I'm supposed to do at this point.
my best friend just dropped me. which i guess is fair, she doesn't have to associate with anyone she doesn't want to. but i was like. in love with her. lol. :) it was out of the blue and she wouldn't tell me why
oh fuck im so sorry, that really sucks
I’m having maybe the shittiest mental health ever rn
Like it hasn’t been this bad for days on end in awhile
I’ve never been more eager to move out when I turn 18
And I posted a small vent about everything going on on my private story and no ones come to check up on me :’)
One of my friends who saw it even dmed me after seeing it but didn’t ask how I was doing.
It just sucks, especially when it’s so hard for me to vent without feeling like a burden. So seeing no one caring is hard.
I was to cry because I have to finish my essay tonight (He gave it to us today) and it's due Saturday, except I won't be near a computer tomorrow or Saturday to work on it because tomorrow I have a phone call to make, and sign up for driving school, go to work (9 hours), go to a party for my boss' niece and nephew (Don't want to, but parents are forcing me) then after the party my family is DRIVING TO CALIFORNIA!!! Why? I DON'T KNOW?!?! I also still have to pack but the crackhead raccoon that lives in my head is making it so I can't focus on anything for more than 10 minutes and I'm exhausted and my essay needs to be 1000-1500 words and I have 200 and I want to cry
I was to cry because I have to finish my essay tonight (He gave it to us today) and it's due Saturday, except I won't be near a computer tomorrow or Saturday to work on it because tomorrow I have a phone call to make, and sign up for driving school, go to work (9 hours), go to a party for my boss' niece and nephew (Don't want to, but parents are forcing me) then after the party my family is DRIVING TO CALIFORNIA!!! Why? I DON'T KNOW?!?! I also still have to pack but the crackhead raccoon that lives in my head is making it so I can't focus on anything for more than 10 minutes and I'm exhausted and my essay needs to be 1000-1500 words and I have 200 and I want to cry
I have an outline template you can use if you want, it's pretty easy to follow and I usually get a 1000+ word count out of it.
I was to cry because I have to finish my essay tonight (He gave it to us today) and it's due Saturday, except I won't be near a computer tomorrow or Saturday to work on it because tomorrow I have a phone call to make, and sign up for driving school, go to work (9 hours), go to a party for my boss' niece and nephew (Don't want to, but parents are forcing me) then after the party my family is DRIVING TO CALIFORNIA!!! Why? I DON'T KNOW?!?! I also still have to pack but the crackhead raccoon that lives in my head is making it so I can't focus on anything for more than 10 minutes and I'm exhausted and my essay needs to be 1000-1500 words and I have 200 and I want to cry
I have an outline template you can use if you want, it's pretty easy to follow and I usually get a 1000+ word count out of it.
https://www.notebook.ai/documents/114014
Just write a sentence or two for every bullet point, more if necessary in places like the conclusion and the intro, you might want to go up to three sentence per bullet point if you can (In the intro you should have three examples/proofs so three sentences there)
I was to cry because I have to finish my essay tonight (He gave it to us today) and it's due Saturday, except I won't be near a computer tomorrow or Saturday to work on it because tomorrow I have a phone call to make, and sign up for driving school, go to work (9 hours), go to a party for my boss' niece and nephew (Don't want to, but parents are forcing me) then after the party my family is DRIVING TO CALIFORNIA!!! Why? I DON'T KNOW?!?! I also still have to pack but the crackhead raccoon that lives in my head is making it so I can't focus on anything for more than 10 minutes and I'm exhausted and my essay needs to be 1000-1500 words and I have 200 and I want to cry
I have an outline template you can use if you want, it's pretty easy to follow and I usually get a 1000+ word count out of it.
https://www.notebook.ai/documents/114014
Just write a sentence or two for every bullet point, more if necessary in places like the conclusion and the intro, you might want to go up to three sentence per bullet point if you can (In the intro you should have three examples/proofs so three sentences there)
You are a godsent. Thank you so very much
I was to cry because I have to finish my essay tonight (He gave it to us today) and it's due Saturday, except I won't be near a computer tomorrow or Saturday to work on it because tomorrow I have a phone call to make, and sign up for driving school, go to work (9 hours), go to a party for my boss' niece and nephew (Don't want to, but parents are forcing me) then after the party my family is DRIVING TO CALIFORNIA!!! Why? I DON'T KNOW?!?! I also still have to pack but the crackhead raccoon that lives in my head is making it so I can't focus on anything for more than 10 minutes and I'm exhausted and my essay needs to be 1000-1500 words and I have 200 and I want to cry
I have an outline template you can use if you want, it's pretty easy to follow and I usually get a 1000+ word count out of it.
https://www.notebook.ai/documents/114014
Just write a sentence or two for every bullet point, more if necessary in places like the conclusion and the intro, you might want to go up to three sentence per bullet point if you can (In the intro you should have three examples/proofs so three sentences there)
You are a godsent. Thank you so very much
Any time, I have little lessons on how to write essays for both History and English typed up as well if anyone ever needs them
So ig slight tw just in case for self-sabotage/what may or may not be emotional SH, and also homophobia
;; sorry to hear that
i do similar things sometimes, i guess
used to read through some really depressing stuff that directly related to a past event that really shook me
nowadays i just
let my mind wander back to where it wants to go
to the friend that i'm no longer in contact with, but who i miss very much
it's almost fun to find new things to remind me of them
not sure if fun is the right word,
but yeah, i do something a bit similar to that
Honestly same here, Sometimes I read comments from my "family friends" and they all are just AJHDGJahukjvxnbvhu
It pushed my buttons, but gives me reality that this world is just as shitty as I witness.
Here's hoping that now that I've recognized a pattern, I can just. Stop. Hopefully it's that simple, but it probably won't be tbh.
God knows last thing I need is a reminder of how shitty people can be. And how I used to be one of said shitty people and I actually believed what I was saying.
I’m having maybe the shittiest mental health ever rn
Like it hasn’t been this bad for days on end in awhile
I’ve never been more eager to move out when I turn 18
And I posted a small vent about everything going on on my private story and no ones come to check up on me :’)
One of my friends who saw it even dmed me after seeing it but didn’t ask how I was doing.
It just sucks, especially when it’s so hard for me to vent without feeling like a burden. So seeing no one caring is hard.
I'm really sorry you're not feeling well or getting the support you need. I know what it's like to feel like no one is caring and to wonder if you really are a burden. It sucks. Even though I can't do much to help your situation, I want you to know that I care, you're not a burden, I'm happy you're alive, and I'm looking forward to a future where things will be better for you. I say all that genuinely. Things are shit right now and it's ok to take a few shitty days to cry or do nothing or do whatever you need to do to process. Take care of yourself, it matters to me.
happy vent, my mum's friend helped me remember the name of a movie that has been bothering me for literal years(it was the good son in case anyone was curious)
Hello mental illness is pretty exhausting so,etimes I’m tired
Ummm so I ran into an old friend today while I was out. We're not really friends anymore. No big fallout. I just thought she was kind of hard to hang out around and a little toxic the last year or so of high school, and we kind of went off to college separately and mostly stopped talking.
So she said we should go grab lunch together sometime. I'm a little conflicted on it, but it can't hurt to just play catch-up over lunch, right? And besides, it's better to be courteous in this case, I think? Anyone have thoughts?
Hello mental illness is pretty exhausting so,etimes I’m tired
It really is though. :(((
Sorry my dude. And to everyone else who's struggling as well.
Yeah I thought I was doing better for a bit, like really good better, but I think it was just an episode cause I'm exhausted again ✌️
Hello mental illness is pretty exhausting so,etimes I’m tired
It really is though. :(((
Sorry my dude. And to everyone else who's struggling as well.
Thx bro. My brain is whack and I just wish I had someone to make things okay.
Thank you for your words of comfort.
Can we please normalize people who are good with kids not being forced to take care of them.
I love my nieces and nephews, But I am their Aunt not their parent or their grandparent and when they come to Gradma's house it should be grandma and grandpa watching them not Aunt Relsey. Aunt Relsey is trying to pack and get everything figured out because she has one day left before she's moving out and going to collage. I am sick of taking care of these kids and making sure they don't die.
My parents decided it would be a good Idea to take them swimming yesterday, a 3 year old, a 4 year old who don't know how to swim. A very loud destructive 8 year old who can't really swim, and a very loud destructive 13 year old who can swim but not really. 8 decided they wanted to have this large inflatable dolphin and play on it but he's playing with it on the steps and slaming it into 4 and 3, But naturally I'm at fault for ruining his fun when I tell him to take the stupid thing else were. Not to mention after the dolphin fiasco is finished Mom get's the 3 and 4 year old started on the water slide. Does she wait to catch them at the bottom after the first time, no of course not. She goes back to talking with her friends and doesn't even notice the two climbing back up and sliding down, It's a good thing I'm observant, with noise 8 and 13 were making and the obliviousness of the parents we would have two drowned toddlers on our hands. I make it to the bottom of the slide to catch them before they both do but now I'm stuck catching kids down a slide, for a hecking hour.
Eventually I got fed up with watching the two of them so I told Mom, hey I need a break, and she's like that's fine I'll take a kid and Dad will take the other, and so I get out of the pool and I'm living my best life and I look up to witness my dad telling 4 that she can slide down and then look away from the slide and starting up a conversation as she falls into the pool. And Mom did almost the same thing with 3, and then they laughed it off. Guess who got to do damage control, me, guess who had to sprint across a yard to rescue a kid me, guess who had to sprint across a pool to rescue a kid after being assured that the kid was being watched, me.
Guess who's in charge of bed time, who's in charge of breakfast and lunch, in charge of responding to crying and arguing and them getting hurt. It's me, and they aren't my kids. Like The parents said the kids could stay, my parents agreed to watch them and then tossed them on to me. and I get it, I'm good with kids but I didn't agree to this I'm just doing it so they don't get neglected, and because I love them but it sucks and I hate it.
That’s rough buddy. Seriously. I’m sorry you have to deal w that crap.
Alright, for my own well being, I have elected to block every transphobe I encounter on Tumblr.