forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Today's just one of those days where I sit around and wonder if my only friend has forgotten me already. I bet she has.

My friend's calling CPS on my mom(because I finally asked her to) and I'm Scared. Like what if nothing happens? Is being verbally abused and manipulated something CPS can help with? Can they force her to take some courses on not hurting her kids? I've got so many questions and I'm so scared, but I just want things to get better. I'm tired of this. She's started getting physical too, and blaming us for the way she's acting. "You made me flip my bitch switch. Congratulations." "I don't like being like this, but I do it because I love you." She's either gaslighting or she thinks she's right, and either way I want it to stop. You don't swear at your kids over homework. You ESPECIALLY don't HIT or KICK your kids over homework. I know this is wrong and toxic and I know I need to get out or get it to stop, but I don't know what to do. This is the only thing we can think of and it's terrifying. I just don't know what's going to happen.

I hope you didn’t the right thing.

It sounds like you did the right thing. It'll be scary waiting for the CPS people to intervene, just try your best to be patient and at peace. Go with the flow. Whatever happens happens. You'll be safe in the end.

They scare me. Though of course, most adult authority figures do.

Sorry for forgetting to put a spoiler here before.

BANANA IM ADOPTING YOU AND YOUR SISTER
YOU BOTH ARE MY CHILDREN NOW

UNDER MY CARE YOU WILL NEVER BE MISTREATED OR HIT OR ANYTHING
I WILL GET YOU THE PROFESSIONAL HELP IF NEEDED AS SOON AS POSSIBLE
<3333333

So can I admit something….After the whole thing with my bf….part of me has me wondering on if I should trust him any further….
He hurt me more than anything….and idk if I should keep this charade up…..I need some advice please.
@ me or PM me.

@BeetleJuice-Is-My-spirit-Animal- if your bf has hurt you, do not under any circumstances pretend like you're fine. because i know you're not fine.

if there is a potential that he doesn't know he's hurting you, tell him first
but if you've tried that, or do try it and he denies it/ or knows and refuses to do anything about or hurts you more

BREAK UP

that isn't healthy
you need to leave
and take time to take care of you
your mental health
and only you

The way he just….idk seems to think If I say I'm okay he's fine with it… I don't wanna tell him anything else personal because well THAT IS PERSONAL.
Just with the crap that's happened…I'm on a loop of whether or not I should end it…

can you tell me what he's done? it's okay if you can't/don't want to, just curious-

I'll tell you In the PM's

The way he just….idk seems to think If I say I'm okay he's fine with it… I don't wanna tell him anything else personal because well THAT IS PERSONAL.
Just with the crap that's happened…I'm on a loop of whether or not I should end it…

I don't know what happened, so take this with a grain of salt here. Dating someone will either end in marraige (or lifelong commitment, some people don't like the official stuff ig) or a break up. If you don't feel like you can tell this guy personal stuff even when it involves him and its hurting you, that doesn't seem healthy for a long commitment. Relationships should make you happy, and if it's hurting more than making you happy then you are not obligated to stay.

The way he just….idk seems to think If I say I'm okay he's fine with it… I don't wanna tell him anything else personal because well THAT IS PERSONAL.
Just with the crap that's happened…I'm on a loop of whether or not I should end it…

I don't know what happened, so take this with a grain of salt here. Dating someone will either end in marraige (or lifelong commitment, some people don't like the official stuff ig) or a break up. If you don't feel like you can tell this guy personal stuff even when it involves him and its hurting you, that doesn't seem healthy for a long commitment. Relationships should make you happy, and if it's hurting more than making you happy then you are not obligated to stay.

Alright and thank you.

None of my friends have answered my messages all weekend. They're not even reading them and when they do, they never answer

The way he just….idk seems to think If I say I'm okay he's fine with it… I don't wanna tell him anything else personal because well THAT IS PERSONAL.
Just with the crap that's happened…I'm on a loop of whether or not I should end it…

I don't know what happened, so take this with a grain of salt here. Dating someone will either end in marraige (or lifelong commitment, some people don't like the official stuff ig) or a break up. If you don't feel like you can tell this guy personal stuff even when it involves him and its hurting you, that doesn't seem healthy for a long commitment. Relationships should make you happy, and if it's hurting more than making you happy then you are not obligated to stay.

Nice.

None of my friends have answered my messages all weekend. They're not even reading them and when they do, they never answer

F. It’s like that sometimes.

I feel like I'm not part of the notebook community anymore, or at least not the one I was a part of before, the "Bitch Squad" or just being an og. I've been gone and it feels like I've been gone forever. There's a disconnect with my old friends because now they most definitely find me annoying.

Reed I still feel the same about you. Granted we’re not super close. But you’re one of the gang. One of the few that aren’t doing writing stuff that seems to belong here. You’ve grown on us all like a patch of goblin moss and probably won’t leave soon.

Reed I still feel the same about you. Granted we’re not super close. But you’re one of the gang. One of the few that aren’t doing writing stuff that seems to belong here. You’ve grown on us all like a patch of goblin moss and probably won’t leave soon.

Oh no I absolutely am not leaving soon. I'm like a tumor, it'll take some surgeries to get me out.
And I do writing things lol, I write podcasts, I'm writing a musical, I have an original song in production, and I dm dnd.
I just kinda feel like everyone got bored with me aand cast me off, you know?

no i get how you feel reed

after i took my longass break i really feel like i've disconnected with everyone, i barely know anyone anymore
and honestly i take 90% of my vents over to discord now
rarely do i feel safe venting on here

and most of that is my fault, i know.
but like
i can't help feeling like my ex-friend is still stalking nb, reading all my vents >_>

its scary

Do you want me to fight your ex-friend? I'll do it. I'll go fucking feral :)

It's so nice out rn and I can't leave my room :(

Reed I still feel the same about you. Granted we’re not super close. But you’re one of the gang. One of the few that aren’t doing writing stuff that seems to belong here. You’ve grown on us all like a patch of goblin moss and probably won’t leave soon.

Oh no I absolutely am not leaving soon. I'm like a tumor, it'll take some surgeries to get me out.
And I do writing things lol, I write podcasts, I'm writing a musical, I have an original song in production, and I dm dnd.
I just kinda feel like everyone got bored with me aand cast me off, you know?

shrugs Probably in your head.

It's so nice out rn and I can't leave my room :(

Update:
This isn't fair
When will I get to experience 14 mph winds and a severe thunderstorm warning again?

I'm absolutely livid

And they're gonna be at 23 mph at 8!
I wanna be outside for that!
It's the nicest weather all week!

Reed I still feel the same about you. Granted we’re not super close. But you’re one of the gang. One of the few that aren’t doing writing stuff that seems to belong here. You’ve grown on us all like a patch of goblin moss and probably won’t leave soon.

Oh no I absolutely am not leaving soon. I'm like a tumor, it'll take some surgeries to get me out.
And I do writing things lol, I write podcasts, I'm writing a musical, I have an original song in production, and I dm dnd.
I just kinda feel like everyone got bored with me aand cast me off, you know?

shrugs Probably in your head.

Hey Dom, I know you mean well when you say that, but telling something it's all in their head is very detrimental to their mental health. Please don't say it, at least to me, again.

Apologies, Reed. I shall try to observe.

Thank you my good sir!

It's so nice out rn and I can't leave my room :(

Update:
This isn't fair
When will I get to experience 14 mph winds and a severe thunderstorm warning again?

I'm absolutely livid

And they're gonna be at 23 mph at 8!
I wanna be outside for that!
It's the nicest weather all week!

Why can't you leave your room?

It's so nice out rn and I can't leave my room :(

Update:
This isn't fair
When will I get to experience 14 mph winds and a severe thunderstorm warning again?

I'm absolutely livid

And they're gonna be at 23 mph at 8!
I wanna be outside for that!
It's the nicest weather all week!

Why can't you leave your room?

Ya boi's awaiting covid test results