forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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I ain’t doing well.

What's wrong

Oh, hey domino. What's up?

My mind is kind of losing control a bit. Not fun.

Can you give us more information?

I keep thinking about how he won't be at my wedding
I don't know why, I'm not seeing anyone and I've never been the type to daydream about how they'll get married or whatever
But I really wish he'd be there if I do

He'll be there in spirit.

Millions of years of human evolution

We've become so advanced

And yet here I sit

Watching a kid squeeze water out of a latex glove like he's milking a cow

He is probably doing it wrong, As someone who has milked a goat every day of her life for a few years, he is probably doing it wrong.

He's 100% doing it wrong.

Luckily, he stopped, and we proceeded to have a macarena battle, which ended in a draw after he realized that the song he was playing wasn't the clean version

Oof.

Forgot your crush has a crush and won't ever be over her check ✌️✌️✌️
She was like "I want a girl to fall in love with in October" and I was just like please pick me, I don't have anything going on

I'd like to just stay in my room and not have my contact with any people at all for like a month, please and thank you

ahhh nothing freaking pisses me off more than finding out two canonized male saints/martyrs were removed from official lists and covered up back in 1969 because they were solid evidence that same-sex couples aren’t doomed to hell and are, in fact, welcomed in God’s eyes

ahhh nothing freaking pisses me off more than finding out two canonized male saints/martyrs were removed from official lists and covered up back in 1969 because they were solid evidence that same-sex couples aren’t doomed to hell and are, in fact, welcomed in God’s eyes

WHERE

ahhh nothing freaking pisses me off more than finding out two canonized male saints/martyrs were removed from official lists and covered up back in 1969 because they were solid evidence that same-sex couples aren’t doomed to hell and are, in fact, welcomed in God’s eyes

👀

saints Sergius and Bacchus

Sergius was a commander in the Roman army in the third century and Bacchus was his second in command.

They were referred to in the earliest records of their story as ‘erastai’, the Greek word for ‘lovers’. And it’s believed they committed themselves to each other in a Christian ceremony called ‘adelphopoiesis’ or ‘brother-making’ which was a kind of same-sex marriage.

But their faith got them in trouble while they were stationed in Syria in 303AD. As Christians, they refused to sacrifice to Jupiter, the Roman’s chief god.

Officials arrested them, dressed them in women’s clothing and paraded them through the street to humiliate them into submission. But they resisted, chanting they were dressed as brides of Christ.

So the Romans turned to torture. They separated them and beat them so severely that Bacchus died.

That wasn’t the end of the story. That night Sergius had a vision.

Bacchus appeared to him in his soldier’s armor and with the face of an angel. He urged Sergius not to give in, saying they would live together as lovers forever in heaven. It’s a unique martyrdom story, because martyrs are always promised they will be with God in heaven, not with their lover.

Over the coming days, Sergius was tortured and finally beheaded.

Christians honored them as saints right up until 1969, the same year as the Stonewall Riots. The Catholic Church stripped them from the official list of saints, perhaps to starve the emerging gay rights movement of their power.

(paragraph stolen from here as it explains best out of the three google search results I looked through)

Reasons I'm sad:
Marching band just ended today
I feel like all my friends hate me
Everyone was crying and trying to convince me it's because I'm leaving but really it's just because we had a horrible season, our show sucked, and no one's gonna see each other anymore
See the reasons everyone was crying
Person I like is still hopelessly in love with someone else
I have to do adult things
College. Just everything about it.
I literally cannot handle any emotion at all
I hate driving in the dark
I had a terrible performance today
School
My friends all care about each other more than me and have talked about how they could just leave me for their other friends
"You don't want us to stop being mean to you, do you" (yes, actually, I do, it makes me feel like shit)
If we didn't have assigned seats at lunch, my friend would fully leave me alone to sit with her other friend

Wow.^^

So…..my parents…..are getting divorced……

Aw dude, that sucks. Sorry my guy. Divorces are tough.

yeah…Thanks Xanny.

having one of those days where i'm scared all my creativity is behind me?? what if i've gotten as good as i can and this is it??
i guess being on the internet and looking at other people's stuff is bad for me bc i start comparing myself and wondering– what connection to creativity and emotion do the better writers have that i don't?
and is that connection even one that can be created, or do you have to have it from the beginning or not at all?

It's ok to compare your work to other's, but you have to be careful. There's a blurry line between analyzing and putting down your own work. On the otherhand, the fact you do compare your work and know you have more to learn means you will continue to improve. Nothing is stagnant, and if you continue to work on your writing (or art, music, sports, everything), you will grow.

As for this connection thing, I think it's something you build as you go. No one is born talented. Some people just learn a little faster than others, but there's no use comparing yourself to them. If you do look at other's work, instead of comparing, analyze it away from your work. See what they do and try to see how they did it, and then put it away and go back to your work with the knowledge.
_{This is what I do for art, I hope this makes sense :)}

It's-a me, Ash

Does anybody else call like, 9/10 fictional characters babe, baby, sweetie or hon?
It doesn't even matter if I like the character or not, they all get pet names

Okay so my ex sent me this:

Ice I'm sorry for the way things ended up with us towards the end of it and I still love you I probably always will and that will always hold you in a special place in my heart and that if you ever need to talk about anything feel free to text or call
Idk how you feel but I have been wanting to tell you this for a long time, this has been knawing at the back of my head for a while now and I just needed to tell you

And I…uhh…don't know what to say? We broke up like. a little over two years ago, so it's not like we just broke up and he's just getting over it still

Help

You don't owe him anything Ice,
Anything, you don't have to respond, you don't have to give him the light of day.
If you don't feel comfortable saying anything don't, you don't owe him anything.
His feelings don't mean you have to respond to them.

also he misspelled gnawing which i think reaffirms relsey's point

The thing is, we've been keeping in contact on and off ever since I moved away, so it feels weird to not respond?? Hnnng

Also yeah, his spelling leaves much to be desired he spelled his own name once and I uhhhh

It's-a me, Ash

Does anybody else call like, 9/10 fictional characters babe, baby, sweetie or hon?
It doesn't even matter if I like the character or not, they all get pet names

Wait I forgot to add: This only applies to male characters, ladies get names such as 'queen' and 'goddess'

Also, forgot to add for guys: Angel, sweetpea

Okay so I was just scrolling through tumblr, like you do, looking at Sanders Asides stuff cause the new episode just came out.
And I just witnessed. Some of the most cursed fucking shit I have ever seen
I'm not gonna share what it is because its not child friendly whatsoever. If you really wanna know what it was pm me
But wow. I feel like someone smacked me into a brick wall