forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift
Started by @The-N-U-T-Cracker
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@_Gro0vy_ group

one thing im really good at is cyberbulling, but i only do it to people that deserve it. but like rn i feel powerfull like i could destroy all creeps

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

I can not think of anything greater right now than to just… collapse, sob into some girl’s shoulders for exactly 5 minutes, then completely dematerialize, leaving no trace or memory that I had ever existed to begin with
that sounds so relieving
why can’t that happen

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I think my habit of self-diagnosing myself with disorders comes from me trying to sort out weird thoughts and tendencies that no one else seems to do/understand

@Pickles group

If I could just get stuck in an eternal loop of my first seven periods, that would be great. I do not want to go to lunch I had a fight yesterday with the only friend I sit with at lunch and I'm terrified that she's going to move seats and not sit with me and I don't want her to be mad still and I kind of don't want to talk to her even though I'm not mad I'm just really sad because I like her a lot and I'm such a bitch

@saor_illust school

okay so I'm not sure when i went to bed last night at all, I don't even have a time frame
all i know is that I passed out or whatever and then was half awake at 6 and then my alarm woke me
wtf happened last night aaaaa

@Pickles group

Time for the first period of hell. We're going over (I think) the quiz that I failed. Then a break and then lunch. I'm so scared that I feel like I'm going to puke. Or collapse. Maybe both.

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I don't want to go to college but I have to or my parents will basically disown me.

@berlioz

I don't want to go to college but I have to or my parents will basically disown me.

But that's dumb. If you don't want to go to college and have a reasonable career path that doesn't involve college, don't go.
If your relationship with your parents rests on whether or not you waste money for a piece of paper, then that's not that great of a relationship in the first place. What I mean is, they've got issues. College is your choice, not theirs.

@darling-velocipede group

If you don't want to go to college and have a reasonable career path that doesn't involve college, don't go.

why even worry about 'reasonable career path'? if you will be happy, fulfilled, and financially independent from working as a waiter for the rest of your life, why not go for it? the united states (like many capitalist countries) has their whole idea of fulfillment and success tied up in how prestigious of a job and how luxurious of a life style you have. if you want to be a lawyer and live in a big house in an expensive state, go to college, obviously. there's nothing wrong with that. but if your concept of success and joy doesn't involve those things, you can practice a trade or do a couple retail jobs.

@berlioz

jfgj i think owen more just meant 'long as you have a job that keeps you from dying', not that being a waiter in itself was lesser

^^^
What I mean by reasonable career path is what you said

happy, fulfilled, and financially independent

So yeah 👌

@Pickles group

Four hours probably. But I get to change and have a sort of normal rest of the game after first quarter. But there's still half an hour till pregame even starts

@Kie group

Making a sudden return because I have a little bit to get off my chest.

Online school sucks. It's not that my classes are poorly put together, it's just that I don't feel like I'm retaining much outside of APUSH (ironic considering it's the class I'm most afraid of failing). Chemistry just sucks in general- I don't think I'll ever really know what I'm doing in that class but I'm going to try and catch up with the class this weekend. Geometry isn't horrible for me in the sense that I don't understand anything (I currently understand things pretty well because math is an easy class for me) but in the sense that the teacher low-key bullies students into answering questions. English II just feels repetitive, as is usual for English classes. Not sure how I'll cope with having to write more stories about my own personal experiences this year because I'm just fed up with having to recall things which happened years ago.

As for my social life; I've started talking to new people in my friend group, new people on Discord, but I can't get over this distinct feeling of loneliness. I honestly think I'd fall apart into tears if I saw one of my friends face to face at this point.

And as for my own personal health, I've been trying to eat more than ramen noodles for lunch. While it's not much of a change, it's nice to have a sandwich or something otherwise for lunch once in a while. Can't say I've been sleeping well, however. I keep waking up at any point from 3-5 AM and then have difficulties getting back to sleep. I'm pretty sure I'm so tired that my muscles occasionally twitch (mostly one by my eye, which is really damn annoying), but I don't think any amount of sleeping or any type of schedule would fix that because I have a bad habit of staying up until ~11 PM no matter what I've tried in the past.

Overall I'm just kinda fed up with life (but who isn't) and don't really know what to do about it.