forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Got my senior pictures and I hate all of them. I look gross.

X to doubt

Oh Izzy, I full fledged agree on this whole pandemic being the cause of A LOT of bad situations. But just know i'm still here for you. I may not be able to call you on the phone, but I can still reply to DM's if need be.

wOAH HEY WHAT
i just realised who you are after thinking you were just some random stranger i never had the chance to meet
tysm
<3

(and the phone thing makes so much sense now LJKSFD)

Sorry , guess I should've said something not to sound like a creepy person.

nono you're all good lol
i was just a bit confused

its hit me all at once and i cant stop crying and idk what to do shes ded
i cant i cant i cant
what am i supposed to do without her?

Keep living. But keep trying to contact her. Use friends to help as well.

okayyy i'll try, i suppose

_{I don't mean to butt in, but I really hope your friend is alright. I don't know too much about where you are, but psychiatric facilities around me don't allow internet/social media for patients under watch so don't lose hope, there's a possibility of that}

:0
thank you
that helps
tysm
<3

fuck i'm settling back into self blame again
someone pls tell my brain to stfu
it needs to s h u t
so i can be okay again
god
i can't stop playing the whatif game
i know it's unhealthy
but whatif
whatif this or that

You know it's ok to just think those thoughts, but then you have to let go of them.
Because fighting the thoughts doesn't really work because if you're actively fighting something that means it's always there.
So let the though run through you brain and then let it leave, it's done it has run it's course move on from it.
That might not work for you, but it's one tactic that works for some.

okayy ill try

putting evil non-binary character in my current project is self care <3 <3 <3
when i'm a famous author the interviewers will be like hm hello august why are there so many hot evil non-binary characters in your work
and i will be like ha fool it is because i am hot evil and non-binary

The other day I promised my friend I'd get (mental health) help on Monday from the counselors. And honestly… I thought I'd regret saying that, but it's kinda freeing.

All this time I've been holding myself in this horrible situation on purpose, because I've been scared. I've been scared to move forward and find new ways to get help because every effort I've made to move forward in the past have made things worse. So much worse. I don't even know what I expect from a counselor. I don't know how they could help me. They'll probably ruin my already unstable home life. They might out me. They might reject me. They might tell me to get over it. They might fulfill all my worst fears.

But.. it feels nice to do something for once. It feels nice to stop pretending I can predict every possible future. And if something does go wrong, which I have no doubt at least one thing will, then it won't be my fault. I won't have to say "I never asked for help" or "I didn't do anything about it". I can look my friend in the eye and maybe make them proud, even if things come crashing down.

Not to say I'm not nervous- I'll probably shit myself day of. I'll probably cry and breakdown. Hell, I could cry about it now.. I'll be a ball of nerves for weeks. But at least something will happen- there will be movement. And, of course, there's the very small chance something really will change for the better.

I know I'm supposed to be mature. I'm almost an adult for Harambe's sake. I know I'm not supposed to be wary of talking to adults about my f e e l i n g s. I know I shouldn't break down in a room with someone staring at me just because they asked me "how I was really doing".

But fuck it. This is a big step for me. I am scared. I'm horrified. I'm a wuss. But what better is there to do? Cry in a room by myself?

So yeah. I'm doing something.

So I’m proud of you. Good job.
Also.

for Harambe's sake

Fantastic.

I'm feeling like shit rn. One of my really good friends is trying to hook me up with her new best friend. ( Who is a girl , but doesn't like me in ANY WAY possible.) and she's just been on my nerves lately. Canceling HALLOWEEN for time with her girlfriend when we planned last year to chill at my house. BUT NO, she wants to get all freaky with her gf and hook me up? I AM NOT GONNA BE YOUR SPARE TIRE ON HALLOWEEN. I'm so close to just dropping her.

If she's bringing you more misery than happiness then yeah, drop her.
If she's pressuring you to do things you don't want to do and isn't making you a priority I mean.
Need I say more?
You're unhappy, she is contributing to the unhappiness.

So I’m proud of you. Good job.
Also.

for Harambe's sake

Fantastic.

:)

I am so surprised that in 4 days of school, how quickly my appearance has lowered. I am a senior, so I have been doing this for the longest time, but never in a week. On Tuesday, the first day, I have to leave by 5:30, so I get up at 4:30 so I can get ready. I straightened my hair, did makeup, put on a really nice outfit, had a really healthy lunch. All that. On Friday, I just woke up 5 minutes before my ride got there and put on a hoodie (I fell asleep in the clothes I wore the day before). This usually takes me a couple of weeks before this transformation happens. I am aghast.

Relsey vent time.

I am, not doing well.
Feeling a bit hypocritical.
Feeling a bit like I have a mask super glued to my face
Feeling a lot like life isn't being very nice
Feeling a bit betrayed for no reason, (Correction a stupid reason)
Feeling a bit useless
Feeling a lot like I'm not ok.

sorry for venting right after you but
i wore a crop top to school today, my first period is full of bigots who don't understand that it's not cool to misgender people. i'm genderqueer, for those of you who don't know and really enjoy wearing more feminine clothes because like, that's what i look good in. but um. yeah, i'm completely out, have told my teachers my pronouns and yet they're still using she/her-

Friend this is the venting chat, there is no need for apology.
Also, that's not cool, rude, how dare.
I really will fight all of them.

Yo.
I know no one reads these or gives two shits, but whatever
Relsey, Cherrryblossom, I'm sorry to hear you guys aren't doing well, I've known both of those feelings, and it's no fun. If you guys need anything, I'll do my best to help. pm me or anything, any time.

On to the part no one cares about, copied directly from a different thread, bc idc
It's shit o'clock, boys.
I'm working three jobs, taking two college classes, working on a personal project, and have a dog and a horse to care for, both of which require at LEAST an hour of undivided attention each, a day. Preferably a lot more.
Thursdays fucking suck, because I work until 12:30, have class at two until 3:15, have to choose between seeing my horse, (which between driving time and everything else, takes a minimum of two hours), studying for whatever assignments I have that night, (hint: this week I have three), working on my obligations for my OTHER job, working on my personal project, or trying not to ask my family to walk my dog for me. I now have a horse to train as well for the next two weeks, which is going to be another two-three hours out of most days, and yeah.
It's to the point where I don't have time to work on anything until the day it's due, because I'm too busy working on the other things I have, the days they're due.

I also have really bad anxiety atm, to the point where my therapist has mentioned slapping another medication on top of the one I already have. I feel like shit, and not one of the above mentioned things can be dropped. Not fucking one of them.
And to that one person irl who told me 'something's got to give,' bit h. Things will give when I'm done with them. Not one day before.

And to that one person irl who told me 'something's got to give,' bit h. Things will give when I'm done with them. Not one day before.

There are no words to describe how much I respect that.

So I wrote about like 7 paragraphs of venting and I accidentally refreshed the page…
Well long story short parents are pressuring me and I cried last night and anxiety and depression is coming back which makes me want to talk to someone but if I talk to my parents it's just gonna make it worse.
I also threw my shoulder out and boy is that no fun…

I had to do a 'get to know me' thing for science and my teacher said she was "very curious about One Piece"
Give me a class block to explain the whole thing and the entire class will be caught up

And to that one person irl who told me 'something's got to give,' bit h. Things will give when I'm done with them. Not one day before.

There are no words to describe how much I respect that.

Thank-you. I wish more people did.

And to that one person irl who told me 'something's got to give,' bit h. Things will give when I'm done with them. Not one day before.

i am so, so sorry. that sucks. take breaks, your mental health is more important than anything else, ok?

also this bit from your vent has such a powerful energy and i'm here for it-

And to that one person irl who told me 'something's got to give,' bit h. Things will give when I'm done with them. Not one day before.

i am so, so sorry. that sucks. take breaks, your mental health is more important than anything else, ok?

also this bit from your vent has such a powerful energy and i'm here for it-

I wish I could take breaks.
And thanks. Let's make it into a t-shirt :)