forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift
Started by @The-N-U-T-Cracker
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@Pickles group

No one:
Me forgetting to bring sunscreen and getting a burn on the top half of my face:

There's a nice, clean line across my nose

@galaxyunicorn-is-in-love-with-starry

No one:
Me forgetting to bring sunscreen and getting a burn on the top half of my face:

There's a nice, clean line across my nose

that reminds me of the time i fell in gym class and got a sausage shaped scrape (my friend said it looked like a sausage, "like the ones we had at lunch"). i still have a scar from it but it's pretty faint

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

My little sister just used a perfectly good, brand new, fully-wrapped acrylic canvas as a mixing palette for her off-brand crayola watercolors so she could paint with them on printer paper.

I'm going to scream.

@Althalosian-is-the-father book

My little sister just used a perfectly good, brand new, fully-wrapped acrylic canvas as a mixing palette for her off-brand crayola watercolors so she could paint with them on printer paper.

I'm going to scream.

Can you water it from the back to reduce staining and then paint over it?

@The-N-U-T-Cracker

I probably could, acrylic paint is pretty opaque and I'm sure if I primed it it would work just fine
but it still kills me on the inside
it's a canvas. and you're using it to mix kid paints. to paint with on printer paper.

@ccb group

i got tears on my laptop keyboard and now i gotta wipe them off but cleaning laptop keyboards is annoying >:(

@Relsey-TheElder

I probably could, acrylic paint is pretty opaque and I'm sure if I primed it it would work just fine
but it still kills me on the inside
it's a canvas. and you're using it to mix kid paints. to paint with on printer paper.

You see the thing about kids is they have yet to give anything monetary value, like society has not yet poisoned them with the Idea that everything can equal money including themselves. Even if it's not just monetary value ,the Idea of quality doesn't really register A child will play with a dolor store plastic food thing just as much as they would those ridiculous contraptions with lot's of buttons that make noise. For you sister that's just another piece of paper with the benefit of it being sturdy enough for her to put paint on it with out it ripping. those things just don't register.
In short, yes, it sucks that she used your canvas that's really nice, probably coast a good chunk of money, that's really good quality. Be upset at the loss of a canvas but please understand she has no Idea what she has done wrong, other than maybe taking something that wasn't hers. Even the understanding that something belongs to someone else is a concept that kids just don't get for a while that's why they take your stuff, sure they know the concept but it doesn't make sense to them.
(This is me under the assumption that she's from 2-7, I believe she's in that age range, if memory serves)
This is also me as a fellow artist who understands the pain of seeing good art supplies damaged. I tried painting with my niece today and she was ruining the paint brushes, it hurt my soul. Love you Ella, sorry if this hurts you I really didn't mean it that way

@Kie group

I'm back after a long break. Feeling a lot better and planning to be as active as I can before school starts back up again.

@ccb group

sometimes when i've been feeling really bad i watch/read/otherwise consume things that will horrify me/unnerve me/otherwise push me deeper into my state of hopelessness because i feel like once i can force myself to hit rock bottom there will be nowhere to go but up. the problem is that i don't really know where rock bottom is, and not only that, it's constantly shifting, and not only that, the worst rock bottoms i can remember hitting in my life are not things i'm equipped to deal with right now. so why do i think this is a good idea? is it because i've convinced myself that i must feel all my feelings the moment i realize i'm feeling them, and that all emotional regulation is emotional repression, and that if i don't dig into my psyche until it's raw at every moment possible then the thoughts i refused to think will come back to haunt me? and is that because it's a symptom of my ocd? probably yeah, oh shit i forgot to take my zoloft today. thank you venting thread for giving me a space where, without fear of judgment, i can type out a whole rambling message that allows me to realize i have not taken my meds :P

@Relsey-TheElder

You know that one dude king Sisyphus and how he is stuck rolling a stone up a hill only to have it fall down the other side. That's a lot like emotions, because it takes a whole lot of work to roll that stone up to the top only to have it slip from your grasp and have to so it all over again. Unlike that greek dude, the thing about our emotional hills is they are subject to the elements so every time you roll that stone the top of the hill get's flatter until eventually that stone isn't going to be able to roll of very easily unless it's pushed. It takes a lot of work to get there, it really does but then one day you'll have a smooth hill top to rest your self and sometimes things will come along and push you back down the hill. Just know that when you get to the top there is happiness waiting for you.

@ccb group

You know that one dude king Sisyphus and how he is stuck rolling a stone up a hill only to have it fall down the other side. That's a lot like emotions, because it takes a whole lot of work to roll that stone up to the top only to have it slip from your grasp and have to so it all over again. Unlike that greek dude, the thing about our emotional hills is they are subject to the elements so every time you roll that stone the top of the hill get's flatter until eventually that stone isn't going to be able to roll of very easily unless it's pushed. It takes a lot of work to get there, it really does but then one day you'll have a smooth hill top to rest your self and sometimes things will come along and push you back down the hill. Just know that when you get to the top there is happiness waiting for you.

"one must imagine sisyphus happy" and all, but i look at the tiny sisyphus in my brain positively hurling stones back down my emotional hills on purpose just because he wants to see what'll happen, and i'm like, "what the hell dude"

thank you though, this is good to remember :) it has gotten flatter over the years, even if the stone is still balanced precariously on the hilltop on any given day. i have to keep reminding myself that my mental health is on a general upward trend even if there are major hiccups, and trust that i'm a more stable person than i was a year, two years, five years ago, because i am.

@galaxyunicorn-is-in-love-with-starry

i feel like i shouldn't be here
on notebook i mean
i never write, and even if i got the motivation i feel i shouldn't because it's bad
like too much cliches and stereotypes and stuff
like i'll see something in the things you want less of in books thread and be like "……"
and i don't roleplay either
and i don't think i can really call myself a writer
the only reason i stay is because of the community
and i kind of feel bad admitting this now

@SpookyScarySnoteleks group

Alright broskis
Please forget I ever said that
I might be off for the rest of today, having friends over for my birthday.
If I can get on later before I gotta sleep, I'll pop in!

@ccb group

i feel like i shouldn't be here
on notebook i mean
i never write, and even if i got the motivation i feel i shouldn't because it's bad
like too much cliches and stereotypes and stuff
like i'll see something in the things you want less of in books thread and be like "……"
and i don't roleplay either
and i don't think i can really call myself a writer
the only reason i stay is because of the community
and i kind of feel bad admitting this now

if you enjoy being here, you should be here! also, clichés aren't inherently bad. you should write what you like to write, and if what you'd like to write at any given moment is cliché, that's okay, you know what you're about, and if what you'd like to write at any given moment is nothing, that's okay too. it's up to you whether or not you want to call yourself a writer, but don't let the label be dictated by how well your work conforms to what people "want" in books. also, in order to get better at anything, you have to do the thing, and while you're under no obligation to do the thing, everyone starts somewhere! i don't want to sound like a condescending old lady here (which, also, i'm only 6 years older than you) but you're young and you have so much time to improve (and while i'm not super familiar with your work, i'd venture a guess that it's not bad at all!)

@moss

@galaxyunicorn-is-in-love-with-starry
I know how you feel. Tbh I haven't written in a hot minute. But everyone starts somewhere. You might think your writing is bad rn but if you keep practicing, you'll improve. It's good that you're recognizing the flaws in your writing because that way, you're on the right track to getting better. And even if you don't feel motivated to write, if being part of the community here is something that makes you happy, then that's already a reason to be here. It's nothing to be ashamed of. I'm sorry if this doesn't make sense. I'm bad at giving advice but I hope this helped in some way.