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Cas nodded again and yawned, drained from crying so much. "Mm… I wish I knew how to swim… it sounds nice…"

"It's not very deep," Zachary said. He rubbed Cas's back. Crap. This was really shaky ground. He had to be careful.
"You could easily sit down in it and it wouldn't come far above your waist."

"Mm… do you think it'd fix me if I sat in there long enough?" He asked, laughing weakly. "Maybe drowning yourself in healing water can fix your brain…"

"I… I don't think it's string enough." Zachary sighed a little. Abort, abort, change the topic.
"Did you know gods can get sick?" He mentioned. "Halm got a really bad cold once. The water in the cave wasn't working, so he ended up sleeping an entire day away in the pond. My sister and I had to stay out of it the entire day because there was no room, and we absolutely trashed the house."

Cas laughed weakly. "But what about all the souls and stuff? Who took care of the watering and the planting and stuff?" He asked, looking up at Zachary curiously.

"I did. My sister- she tried to help, but she was completely hopeless." Zachary was glad Cas took to the change so quickly. "She kept trying to pick the flowers because 'they were soooo pretty,'" he said, using a funny imitation of his sister's voice.

"Mm… that's not good for the souls though, is it?" He asked softly. "Halm says that they're fragile." He huddled a bit closer to Zachary. Nix kept quiet for now.

"Usually, yes. Thankfully, the only flowers she had actually picked were ones that the souls were ready to move on to the next God, so there was no harm done." Zachary smiled a little, thinking of his sister holding the flowers in her hands. He put this hand on Cas's head. "Thankfully so, because Halm was mad enough at the mess in the house."

"Mhmm…" Cas leaned his head into Zachary's hand and closed his eyes with a soft sigh. "Halm's always so busy… I mean, I know he can't help it, but still… wouldn't it have been better to let me die and move on than to claim me and make me be stuck here forever?"

"Sometimes he acts without thinking," Zachary admitted. "Like the time he thought it would be a good idea to have some of the gods over for tea. It was a disaster, he was lucky the other gods like him. It was bad."

Cas sighed softly. "B-But this is permanent… whatever happened with the tea party, it was probably able to be fixed. This is different…"

Zachary was silent a moment. Shit, the subject change didn't work.
"He didn't mean any harm," Zachary said gently.

"I know, I know, I just… I don't like thinking about how I'm just going to be stuck here for eternity… dying and being born again over and over…" Cas sighed, trembling a bit.

Zachary rubbed Cas's back gently. Distract Cas, don't let him keep thinking about this.
"You know," he said softly, "you've got it better than most."

Cas looked up at Zachary, bewildered. "What do you mean? You guys were just saying that my life is shit like, five minutes ago."

"Here," Zachary explained. "The other gods… They don't care as much. They wouldn't deal with you." He gently held Cas close. Protective. Just thinking of the others made him sick.

"Oh… so, as far as which God I'm stuck with?" He asked, looking up at Zachary curiously. "I guess so… Halm seems pretty nice."

"He's probably the nicest," Zachary agreed. "The others…" He twirled his finger by his head.
"They're a little crazy."

Cas nodded a bit in understanding. "Yeah… it was another God who was threatening me, I think. I can't help but think that I wouldn't be in this situation if I just wasn't hanging out in the forest that day…"

"Perhaps that is true," Zachary admitted. "But we can't change it. Just move forward, make the best of it." He didn't really want to talk about these things with Cas, but he saw no way to change this. He was almost out of stories.

"Mm… I guess so…" Cas yawned a bit and huddled closer, closing his eyes. "M'tired… crying always makes me really drained…"

Zachary let out a little breath. Keep Cas focused on that. Maybe even get him to fall asleep.
"Do you want to rest then?" Zachary asked, leaning back a bit more so Cas was laying down a bit on him.

"Mmmm… probably, yeah… I've been sleeping so much lately, though…" Cas sighed, shifting around to be more comfortable.

"Sleep can help you feel a little better," Zachary said. "Take it from the magic fish god." She chuckled a little. He hadn't been a fish when he had become a god, but that was what he was most of the time now.

Cas nodded a bit and yawned again. "Yeah… apparently sleeping too much is bad, though…" Nix bit his lip nervously as he watched the two.

"I see. Well, I'm sure a little nap won't hurt," he said gently. He rubbed Cas's back, pulling some non bloody covers up on them.

"Probably not…" Cas tangled himself up with Zachary, tucking his head under the other's chin as he got himself more comfortable. Nix quietly slid off the bed and left the room to go talk to Halm.

Zachary hummed a bit, closing his eyes a little.
"Sweet dreams, then," he said gently.

Halm was sitting on the couch, arms resting on his legs and head bent low.
"Am I really so horrible to Cas?" He asked quietly without looking up, voice broken.

Cas soon drifted off to sleep in Zachary's arms, finally relaxing. He sighed softly and huddled close.

"No, Halm. You're not. But we can't control how he feels. Keep in mind that's he's not exactly a normal person. Leaving at night without him would be no big deal if he was neurotypical, but because of his condition, it's hard and stressful for him."