forum one on one?

Started June 04, 2019 by @Fenrir

tune

"I-I dunno… is it good?" Nathaniel asked breathlessly as he continued, pressing his teeth in a bit more, but not enough to hurt.

V shut his eyes and moaned softly "y…yeah, it's good." He tilted his head and nuzzled Nathaniel's hair

"I feel like there's something else I'm supposed to be doing with this…" Nathaniel murmured, staying at V's neck.

V shrugged "whatever feels natural." He suggested "I'm fine with whatever you want to do with me."

"I have no clue what I'm doing, though. I wouldn't want to hurt you by mistake." Nathaniel looked up at V nervously.

V carressed Nathaniel's cheek and shook his head "you could never hurt me, love." He promised

"Well, do you have any pointers? You're the only person I've ever kissed…" Nathaniel lay his head on V's shoulder.

He chuckled lightly "you think I have any more experience in romance than you do? I just know the basics from what I've learned here. Nothing personal ally just some classes I chose to take to get a better understanding of the world." He explained "just do whatever makes you feel happy, I guess."

Nathaniel nodded and kissed V's collarbone, closing his eyes again with a small sigh.

V hummed softly and closed his eyes, weaving his hand in Nathaniel's hair

Nathaniel carefully touched his teeth to V's skin again, holding him tightly. His blush had returned, as per usual.

V flushed a bright red, tilting his neck to the side so Nathaniel could reach him better. He knotted the others shirt again

V's hand brushed against Nathaniel's wing and Nathaniel shivered, biting down a bit harder by mistake. "S-Sorry! Shit, did I hurt you?" He pulled away and ran his thumb along the mark.

V laughed softly and loosened his grip on Nathaniel's shirt "no love, you didn't hurt me, why? Did it leave a mark?"

Nathaniel nodded nervously, his heart pounding. "I-I'm so sorry; I swear it was an accident."

V gazed up at him before gently flipping him over. He lightly brushed aside some hair "why are you so nervous?" He asked softly "I know it was an accident, though you don't have to apologies, love. It's ok, I actually liked it." He admitted with a small laugh "why do act as if I'm going to hurt you when you do something?" He lightly nuzzled Nathaniel's cheek with his nose

Nathaniel's eyes widened a bit and he looked away. "I-I… um.. no reason… none at all…" He stammered quietly,

He pulled away slightly and frowned "Nathaniel tell me. Your heart is leaping out of your chest in fear and you're white a sheet. This isn't the same as last night so you're not triggered, so it must be fear. Tell me love," he pleaded softly, laying beside him

Nathaniel was quiet for a few seconds. "My, uh… m-my dad would sometimes, occasionally get mad at me for doing something wrong, and… and he might've… y-you know… but it's really not that bad. I'm sure tons of parents punish their kids like that for misbehaving, r-right?" He laughed weakly, glancing up at V.

"Not to an extent where it traumatizes you till adulthood." He said, completly serious. He pulled away and sat back on the bed, running a hand through hair

"Right…" Nathaniel looked down again. "It… it wasn't that bad… not even every night."

"Do have scars showing the abuse? or do you constantly fear what consequences you might receive for you're actions? thats trauma Nath, don't try to justfy it." he sighed and glanced away

Nathaniel fell silent, unable to find anything else to argue back with. He looked down at the bed guiltily. "I'm… I'm sorry…"

He glanced back up at nathaniel and shook his head "you have nothing to be sorry for, love." he scooted closer and pulled the other into his embrace. "I know you hate it when I fuss over you. I just hate it when people try to justify the wrong done by others." he kissed his head softly

"It's… what he did is wrong?" Nathaniel asked, genuinely confused. "I mean, obviously it's not okay in a romantic relationship or anything, but I thought that was just normal discipline…"

"Did he hit you or yell at you out of a wanting for understandment or to teach you something? or was it out of anger, were you confused as to why you were being diciplined?" he asked gently

"W-Well, a bit of both, but mostly the second one I guess… he blamed me for Lloyd's death and got mad…" Nathaniel replied softly.

"Then thats not dicipline, thats acting out of rage." he explained in the same gently tone. he lightly stroked the others hair,

"Oh… so… s-so he wasn't doing it because he loved me and wanted me to be the best I could be…?" Nathaniel glanced up at V.
(Oof he's like a six year old finding out Santa isn't real quq)

(oh dang…)
V sighed, his heart breaking at the look in Nathaniels eyes "no, love. I don't think it was. I…I hope i'm wrong..i really do..but from what you're telling me, it seems that he just hit you out of anger and rage."