forum What's wrong with being a dude? (Transitioning rp) (one on one)

Started January 29, 2019 by Deleted user

tune

"Crying is always an option. It releases oxytocin and endorphins, which helps to relieve stress and improve the mood. It's healthy to cry."

"…I don't think I can…" He looks away.

"That's alright." She sighed gently. "You take as much time as you need to clear your head. If you want me to leave the room then I will, but just know that I am here for you if you need me."

"S-Stay…" He looked at her. "You're the only one can talk to…"

"Well talk to me then, Alex." Her eyes softened. "Nothing good will come from keeping it all in."

"…My dad hates Alexander…He just wants amy (the most wonderful woman in the world)…"

"He has made that very clear, but who is amy (the most wonderful woman in the world)?" She asked, trying to make a point, hoping that Alex knew what point she was trying to make.

"amy (the most wonderful woman in the world) is the person I was born as…But not who I want to be."

"The way I see it, you were never amy (the most wonderful woman in the world), you have always been Alexander." She shrugged slightly. "It is very clear that you are Alexander, and I know why your dad feels the way he does. But he is going to have to accept that you are not amy (the most wonderful woman in the world), and that you never were amy (the most wonderful woman in the world). He doesn't have to like it, but he should accept it and not drag you down with his feelings."

"I'd have you say that to him…But I don't want him hurting you…"

"He can't hurt me, I'm a tough cookie!" She waved her hand, almost dismissing Alex's words, although deep down she was secretly terrified of ever meeting his dad.

"No like…Physically…" he held his sides.

"Again, I'm a tough cookie!" she said reassuringly. "Perks of having Taekwondo lessons as a kid."

He still held his sides shaking.

She gently touched Alex's shoulder, frowning. "Has he hurt you before….?"

He flinched a little.

Her eyes widened in horror. "A-Alex..?"

He looked away. "More than once…"

She stayed silent for a moment, unsure how to respond. She wanted to hug him, but didn't think it was appropriate. She wanted to ask more about it, but didn't think that was appropriate either. For the first time, she was genuinely lost for words to say.

He actually started crying this time.

She hesitantly put her arms around him, reaching up to stroke the back of his head, praying that she wasn't making things worse in doing so.

He hugged her tightly. He didn't know what to do.

"Just let it all out." she whispered, hugging him tighter.

"W-Why does it hurt…"

"Why does what hurt?" she asked, not fully understanding what he meant.

"Why does crying hurt…Like my heart is breaking…"

(Wow I'm having war flashbacks..)
"It just means that you've been holding it in for too long. It hurts because the emotion is real, because the cause of you crying is strong and has affected you harder than most things would. Let it all out, I know it hurts, but it's better than keeping it in."

(Oof. Sorry…)
"…" He started shaking badly.

(It's cool, I'm a tough cookie anyways ;))
"Alex trust me, just let all your pain and sadness out. Once everything is out you will start to feel calmer and you'll be able to focus better."

He started balling. "I-I hate him."