17; turns 18 in the story
Beck leaves a lot of stuff pretty vague and his gender is one of them--he uses he/him pronouns but doesn't mind they/them, and although he uses "brother" to describe himself in relation to Cora, he opts towards "kid" over "son" (the thing with Beck is that you never know how precise he's being with his word choice--and neither does he). Likewise, whether Beck is AMAB or AFAB is also left up for interpretation.
Beckett Hadley Randall
Beck, Randall, Zooey (by Cora, and Cora only)
The Loveliest Euphemism
Death of a sibling, sexual assault/rape, implied CSA
Beckett for Samuel Beckett, his mother's favorite playwright
Human (1/2 Italian, 1/4 Arab, 1/4 Norwegian)
A bit below average height with a slim build. He played baseball through high school and walks a lot so he's got some muscle, but nothing noticeable.
Olive-tan, some freckles across the bridge of his nose and his cheeks.
Usually very tousled, due to his hat. Has very thick and wavy hair.
Beck is the sort of person who just blends into whatever background he's in. He has very thick and wavy dark brown hair that's generally tousled and a little overlong, but nowhere near long enough to tie back. He's got a fairly short, fairly slim build, a near-constant contemplative look and his eyebrows are knit with concern. His skin is an olive-tan shade--he gets some double-looks when he's out withsince Paul is very pale and blonde-ish, but that's the extent of people being weird about his background. He usually has some grey under his eyes, especially later in the story when he's not sleeping as much. After his trip up north, he gains an array of thin white scars on his left knee from falling, and they're visible if he's wearing shorts (which he usually doesn't).
Beck's voice is a medium-high pitch and a bit raspy. He alternates between being deadpan and very emotional. Beck describes his singing voice as "a lousy tenor"; on a technical level he isn't that good, but he has passion y'know?
Jeans and battered red Converse. A slightly worn t-shirt (probably a band shirt) under a red hoodie, which is itself under a jean jacket with that faux-wool stuff. He doesn't always wear all three at once but he'll usually wear at least two. He also has his mom's old grey beanie, which is something he grows attached to after Cora's death for reasons he couldn't even explain.
Beck is pretty closed off, usually focusing on talking about any subject besides himself. Not a big fan of small talk, he enjoys discussing things that matter. He tends to get a bit existential over things that most don't as well. Despite being quite smart, following the death of his mother and Cora, he doesn't put much effort into anything. When he leaves for college, he often grapples with feelings of being trapped or confined and unprepared, as well as--though he won't admit it--lonely. Spends a lot of time alone. Struggles with feeling that he's both wise beyond his years yet also fully unprepared for college/adult life. He feels things very deeply, and therefore decides to try to feel nothing at all. Generally has a sense of unease to him, even when he's around people he trusts, an almost palpable tenseness. He tends to feel very lost, and that he doesn't have a path in life. He really doesn't know what to do. He's actually got a pretty decent sense of humor and cracks jokes a lot, but they always have a sense of unease to them as well, or are very esoteric literary references. God-awful at carrying on relationships, even with childhood friends and his own father. He's dealing with a lot of grief and trauma and suppresses it as to avoid confronting it head-on. Surprisingly good with kids; he understands what it's like to be talked down to and treated like you're just a dumb kid and so he tries not to do that to others. Very touch-adverse and a bit jumpy.
- Tends to be very tense at any given time, attempts to take up very little space
- When speaking about deeply personal topics, he often deflects with "anyways" after sharing something
- Resting face is a frown, often looks lost in thought even when he isn't
- Swears frequently, in both meanings. As in, he'll use vulgar language (although he will self-censor--or attempt to--around younger kids) as well as promising that things happen the way he says/his feelings are genuine.
- Often replies to questions with "I don't know" as a knee-jerk response, even if he does know or have strong feelings on the matter
- Very prominent speech patterns, namely stressing certain words, or even just specific parts of words
- While I wouldn't go as far as to call it echolalia, he has a tendency to repeat words and phrases, especially when upset.
Good with instruments, he's a pretty good drummer and decent with a guitar. Fairly good student, although he usually doesn't fully apply himself.
To get through college.
Hanging out by the park, discussing/studying philosophy and psychology, going on walks. Exploring nature, reading. Listening to music, messing around with instruments.
Snippy, very introverted, awful at putting his thoughts and feelings into words, rude. Seeing him again in college, he seems to have grown a bit paranoid, and more disillusioned than before. Cynical. Smokes occasionally (a habit he picked up for a month or two after Cora's death, but then weans off for the most part) as an indirect form of self-harm.
Generally skeptical towards everyone, and always seems a bit on-edge.
Born and raised in Bell Creek, WI, Beck was always a fairly reserved person. His mother was close friends with Emilia Colacino, and so he bonded with, becoming fast friends. Shortly before his high school graduation, Beck's younger sister Cora (with whom he was quite close) was killed in a hit-and-run. Beck felt responsible for her death, since she was walking home alone and he had recently failed his driver's test (he has a strong fear of being behind the wheel) and being unable to drive her home. This prompts him to retreat into himself. He does mostly alright in class, but rarely talks to his peers with the exception of , who he shares multiple classes with. Beckett refuses to acknowledge his grief over Cora's death, trying his best to ignore it. His self-imposed "exile" and avoidance of friends leads to the deterioration of his already poor mental health, especially after he is sexually assaulted at a party.
Graduated high school with passable grades (due more to a lack of effort and motivation than a lack of intelligence), which is a trend that continues to college. Attends the University of Wisconsin Bell Creek (UWBC) and is majoring in philosophy.
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