forum I'm in the mood for another apocalypse roleplay... (CLOSED for now, welcome to stalk)

Started March 06, 2021 by @Becfromthedead group

tune

"Oh… okay." Kas sighed softly and looked away when Luka stood up. Don't go… don't leave me here alone… "Bye…"

(Oh no-)

Luka went back to where he left his sister, only to find Bean not there. He sighed and headed back to Kas. “I guess I can stay a little longer since I have no idea where my sisters are,” he smiled, sitting next to them.

Kas was curled up into a tight ball when Luka returned, looking tense and uneasy. He glanced up at Luka, fidgeting with his hands. "You came back…"

“Yeah…you okay? You look tense,” Luka looked really worried as he set his hand on Kas’s shoulder. “Do you need water or food?” he tilted his head. He had snacks in his bag in case anyone needed any.

"M'alright… leg hurts… head hurts…" They mumbled softly, huddling up a bit more. "The meds Tohru gave me haven't fixed it completely, y'know? Mmmnh…"

Luka nodded, brushing his fingers through their hair. “Yeah…I know. Just…Just get some rest, okay?” he said quietly. “I’ll be right here if you need me,” he added, leaning back.

"Mm…" Kas took Luka's hand and held onto it, closing his eyes as he tried to relax. They sighed shakily, clearly uncomfortable and in pain.

Luka held onto his hand tightly as he continued to brush his fingers through their hair. I promise I’ll do my best to help you feel better, he thought as he leaned back a little. Luka thought about the song his mom would sing to him whenever he was upset or hurting. It had been so long he didn’t remember all the words.

Kas relaxed a bit more as Luka continued playing with their hair, although they were still tense. "I just want to be able to walk again… I'm sick of being cooped up like this…" They mumbled.

“I know how you feel. Being cooped up isn’t the best thing in the world but we just need to be patient. It’s all we can do…” Luka sighed as he continued. “But we can do this…we’ve lasted this long. Surely, we can last longer,” he added, smiling sadly.

Kas groaned softly again, not seeming entirely convinced. "I just don't feel like doing this… it's a lot, and this is like, the worst time for me to be thinking about all of this stuff."

“It’s okay. It’s better to get it off your chest than to repress it,” Luka smiled a little as he held Kas close. “We have some time to kill anyway,” he added, still smiling. He had to be strong for his siblings…especially since Lilac has her anxiety and Bean is super stressed. He wanted his sisters to not worry as much and he wanted Kas to not worry as well.

"But it's so inconvenient, for me and for everyone else… I don't have the luxury of having a gender crisis in the middle of an apocalypse, y'know? It shouldn't really be relevant." Kas sighed and pulled Luka closer, wanting to cling to him.

Luka took a deep breath before saying his next words. “I know it may seem inconvenient but right now’s all we can guarantee. It’s better than waiting until whenever this apocalypse will end,” the boy told Kas, still holding him close. “Okay?”

"I… I guess so, but it's… it's not my place to be putting my problems on people who barely know me. And like I said, I shouldn't even be thinking about stuff like this in the middle of the apocalypse. Like, why is this what I have to focus on right now instead of just surviving?"

“The thought process is a weird thing. And that’s perfectly fine,” Luka told Kas, smiling a little. “And we’ve all we got in terms of company. Just thinking about how you’re gonna make it to the next day can be pretty stressful which is why we can help each other live,” he added. “Sorry if my wording is weird.”

Kas sighed, still fidgeting as he held onto Luka. "Mmnh… I dunno… it's just really exhausting and we don't have the time for it. Who am I to think I deserve to feel good, right? It's not like anyone else does. I'm not special or anything."

“That’s why you should feel good. We need as many people to feel good as possible,” Luka whispered, holding Kas close. “You deserve to feel okay. We all do,” the boy told him, brushing his fingers through Kas’s hair.

"I guess so…" Kas buried his face in Luka's shoulder, limp and tired. "It's just hard, I guess. But I shouldn't bother you with that… you've got enough to deal with. Everyone does."

“I know how you feel, but trust me when I say it’s easier when you have people to help you. They can help you relax…” Luka rubbed Kas’s back, smiling a little. “And we’ll push through so don’t worry too much about us,” he added, trying to hide a light blush.

"But still… I shouldn't be making it harder for everyone." Kas held a bit tighter to Luka. "I'm already making it harder for you by bothering you with this stuff…"

“You’re not bothering me at all. It’s okay for you to express how you’re feeling,” Luka hugged Kas as he brushed his fingers through his hair. “Trust me, it’s okay.”

"Mmmm…" Kas still wasn't really convinced, but he didn't want to keep arguing, so he just fell quiet in Luka's arms. They buried their face further into his shoulder.

“You should sleep. We still have some time before we need to check on the others,” Luka smiled, holding Kas close as he continued to brush his finger’s through the other’s hair. “I’ll keep watch,” he added, watching the door so that they could rest.

"Okay…" Kas reluctantly complied, keeping close as he tried to fall asleep. After a while, they finally managed to drift off, although their sleep was light and fitful.

Luka sighed as he, too, started to feel tired. He pushed through it though. Kas needs it more than I do right now, he told himself, fixing his position. He kept an eye on the door just in case.