forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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I'm going to lose my mind-
They sent me two interview sign up links for NO REASON and I used the wrong one
The good news is I went to the correct link and I can just go in Wednesday after class but goddamn

MY GOD
I MISSED HALF A WEEK OF MATH AND NOW WE HAVE A TEST AND IDK WHAT'S GOING ON

Mini Vent

So, I was going to watch these kids for like 4 days while the parents visit their eldest and their new baby. You know, not horrible, just a long weekend, Thursday-Sunday. I don't work or have class those days. Be there when the eldest get home from school, hang out with the youngest during the day, not the end of the world, I've done stuff like this for a weekend. The mom texted me and asked me if I could do it if they could extend it by 5 DAYS!!! Like Dude, you want me to stay a week with your kids?!?! I've got school and work? You can't just spring this on me! Not only that, but their eldest will get the second COVID shot, so no going to school and I might be stuck in the house with a sick kid (For at least a couple days) And a 4 year old.

I texted her to double check that those were the correct dates and I needed to learn if I was going to miss class and the mom hasn't responded yet and I am crying inside

tw sh depression homophobia idk just generally depressing

tw sh depression homophobia idk just generally depressing

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I was on holiday at my SO's house for a bit over a week recently with their parents and it was so much fun, it was the first time we'd really spent a lot of time alone and it was really amazing. Until his parents realised we were together. Now her parents already have a reputation with their kids for being kind of really shitty, like one of their daughters had to have a talk with them when she turned 16 about how they had to stop slapping her. They're aggressive and passive aggressive and really strict etc, you know the type. So although they didn't say much to me since I'm not their kid, they kept pulling my SO's aside to yell at him and make him cry and have panic attacks and like she was really miserable for the last few days I was there, even though they made it clear how upsey they were that I was there as their kid's gf. and I felt okay until I got home, but when I got home and really processed everything it really stung. Like I feel like it's triggered a really bad episode. It's the first time I've experienced such aggressive homophobia so near to me and the fact that now my SO is miserable but used to this, and it was just generally such a stressful time and now that I'm coming down from it I've never wanted to relapse more. I haven't felt this shit in months. I was on a really good streak and now I feel just completely lost again. And school hasn't even started yet. I just don't know how I'm going to face this year, nothings gotten better and nearly everything has gotten worse.

im really sorry, my parents are like that, I used to constantly (until about a year ago) get slapped, I even got chocked a couple fo times by my stepmom, so it can be pretty miserable.

Im sorry, I have no advice but I wish you the best, and hope everything goes as good as you deserve.

Amber that's so awful, I'm sorry you and your S/O have to go through that

Thanks I appreciate it <3

I feel useless
And I don't know my talents or what I like to do
I feel like a shell
I'm just really down

I feel useless
And I don't know my talents or what I like to do
I feel like a shell
I'm just really down

me too dude, me too–

some people are out there being famous for literally sitting and playing video games wnd maybe writing songs and im here playing games for shreds of serotonin while crying in bed

on a lighter note, my animal crossing house looks dope

I feel useless
And I don't know my talents or what I like to do
I feel like a shell
I'm just really down

It’s okay to not know what you want out of life yet. You haven’t experienced a lot yet. There’s always the chance that there’s something in the future that will make you really happy. But for now it’s okay to feel down. Rest a bit before you get up. There’s a decent chance it’ll get better in the future.

I have never felt more sexually frustrated in my life. I like a straight guy. I am a trans guy. Even if he would bang me, it would be hella wack as far as dysphoria goes. I can’t do anything without reminding myself that I don’t have a dick. I am beyond angry. And sad.

some people are out there being famous for literally sitting and playing video games wnd maybe writing songs and im here playing games for shreds of serotonin while crying in bed

on a lighter note, my animal crossing house looks dope

update: making a cottagecore exterior to go with fall, also made a mushroom sweater but I gotta renew Nintendo Online before I do much

I feel useless
And I don't know my talents or what I like to do
I feel like a shell
I'm just really down

It’s okay to not know what you want out of life yet. You haven’t experienced a lot yet. There’s always the chance that there’s something in the future that will make you really happy. But for now it’s okay to feel down. Rest a bit before you get up. There’s a decent chance it’ll get better in the future.

Thanks Dom

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I just really want to die right now lol idk. Been having some weird fantasies that I can't tell if they're something I actually want or if I just hate myself.

if you need to vent you're welcome to PM me. I'm bad at advice but I'll do my best, and I'm also just good at listening if you jsut wanna rant

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I just really want to die right now lol idk. Been having some weird fantasies that I can't tell if they're something I actually want or if I just hate myself.

if you need to vent you're welcome to PM me. I'm bad at advice but I'll do my best, and I'm also just good at listening if you jsut wanna rant

might do that.

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I just really want to die right now lol idk. Been having some weird fantasies that I can't tell if they're something I actually want or if I just hate myself.

if you need to vent you're welcome to PM me. I'm bad at advice but I'll do my best, and I'm also just good at listening if you jsut wanna rant

might do that.

alright :)

hello it's i just had an argument with my mother o clock
literally i asked her to drive me to school today because it's supposed to r a i n and she yelled at me and then decided to look at the weather, which i was right about, in a condescending voice. like sorry you think that i'm not getting enough physical activity but i'm like. in two gym classes this semester dude

My earbuds aren't working and I'm having a panic attack over it because it is my main coping mechanism
also someone took my spot in photography and I feel so uncomfortable sitting not there

My earbuds aren't working and I'm having a panic attack over it because it is my main coping mechanism
also someone took my spot in photography and I feel so uncomfortable sitting not there

aw babe

you’ll be okay love, I believe in you <3

I got my earbuds working again, so i'm not in a complete sensory meltdown, but I'm close

That’s good!! You’ve got this darling, take a few deep breaths and drink some water if you can

I'm gonna try, thank you

no problem, love <3

let me know if there’s anything else I can do for you

:)

All of my friends are better friends with each other than with me

I'm not my best friend's best friend

Idk I'm just not doing great today

I'm really sorry ice I know the feeling <3