forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Tw for death stuff

Shoutout to my mom making the passing of a local police officer about how "people don't respect them enough."

that sounds like a driver issue, what brand is it?

It's a wacom bamboo tablet CTH 460

if you're still haveing this issue, first make sure you don't have any tablet drivers installed. If you're using windows, check and see if window's ink interferes (if it does, just turn it off) and then restart your device, reinstall one correct driver, restart to enable it, and then see if it's fixed!

How do I see if I have drivers installed? Would it just be un the downloads file or a different place?

in my experience, with a wacom cth-490, the driver comes with an app (mine is wacom desktop center)

and since yours is also a wacom
perhaps it would also use that?

try looking around for an app called "wacom desktop center"

Hey how is everyone, Ik ive been gone and never really talked on here? WHAT DID I MISS? also update I got a gf a few weeks and life is good.

hey hey y'all

✌️

sooooooo anything new happen?

in my experience, with a wacom cth-490, the driver comes with an app (mine is wacom desktop center)

and since yours is also a wacom
perhaps it would also use that?

try looking around for an app called "wacom desktop center"

Ok, I'll mess with my computer a bit then come back to report my findings

How do I see if I have drivers installed? Would it just be un the downloads file or a different place?

sorry for the late reply, if you have a search bar by your windows/on the task bar area, you can usually search "tablet" or "wacom" and it will bring it up. If you haven't used any other tablet before, then you probably wont have drivers but wacom is very picky and will break if anything else is installed.

I'll check it out, its my first tablet and I just want it to work 😭

Hey how is everyone, Ik ive been gone and never really talked on here? WHAT DID I MISS? also update I got a gf a few weeks and life is good.

WAIT
IS THAT
IS THAT YOU LEO
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

askjdfkjlflkd you've been gone forever i missed youuuu
but yay !!! happy to here thatttt

Wait is this same Leo?

No I don't think that's Leo

That cool moment when tw// angry rant about depression and my meds which include a lot of things.

That's all, bye

That’s too bad. Too bad mate. Much sympathy.

No, I definitely feel you on that Em. You’d think that since our parents have gone through some of the things we have, they would be a little more understanding. It completely fucking baffles me when my mom blames me for not doing enough to help myself even though I’m trying a number of things. Just because something worked for you, doesn’t mean it’s going to work for me. We are different people with different personalities.
Anyways, I do hope you feel better. Depressions a bitch and quite frankly I’m over the fact that people claim to care for you when they really fucking don’t.

I'm losing it, on our virtual daily announcements, this kid said this would be the last day we see him and from the other room we hear a quiet 'yes!'

I am this close to ditching my roommate and just applying for a place to live with my partner.

No, I definitely feel you on that Em. You’d think that since our parents have gone through some of the things we have, they would be a little more understanding. It completely fucking baffles me when my mom blames me for not doing enough to help myself even though I’m trying a number of things. Just because something worked for you, doesn’t mean it’s going to work for me. We are different people with different personalities.
Anyways, I do hope you feel better. Depressions a bitch and quite frankly I’m over the fact that people claim to care for you when they really fucking don’t.

ufgh thanks. another thing he said was that he'd been taking it for over ten years, and I a seventeen year old who's only been taking it for a month doesn't know anything about the medicine THEY THEMSELF are taking 🤨. I appreciate the understanding and well-meaning words. I'm doing better but my dad casting doubt into the pot is just making me rethink everything. am i depressed? well idk you apathetic bitch who hasn't cried in months and mostly just been angry and neutral you tell me?
i'm just ugh. I have my good days and I have my bad days and my bad days are still BAD and CONSISTENT that I know it's my big bad brain so I just ufjgh fjibgkmhlptorfij hi I'm talking to my dad rn lmfao. thanks again mumu big preesh

Yeah, no, meds are weird. I'm on Lexapro. I started on a low dose and it didn't do much, so I went up, and things were still kinda wonky so I went up again- but it was too much, and it made me essentially emotionally flat, and I had to go back down again. Antidepressants can take a hot minute to work, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't mess with your dosage at all. It took me probably almost 6 months to get it right.
Point is, antidepressants are fucking weird and it's okay to mess with your dose. You know your body better than anyone else does, and as long as you and your doctor are communicating about that, it'll work out

thanks bec, I appreciate it! I'm also not sure how it's supposed to be making me feel but I know it's not 100% of what it could do? My mom understood what I meant but my dad didn't lmao. I'm not emotionally flat but I also am emotionally flat all the time so it's hard to tell the difference. but me and my doctor are talking about it and she said what I'm feeling about it is normal, and I'm depending on that.

It's tricky bc emotional flatness is also a symptom of depression- one that I never had. I had the opposite, where I was overly emotional, and I would cry like allllll the time. So for me, emotional flatness was new and incorrect, but that's probably not the same for you.

I'm sorry if I'm making it unclear– apathy is the main symptom I have and I'm just finding it hard to tell the difference between me on meds and me not on meds other than small things. The reason I wanted to go up is because I'm still really emotionally flat, but I'll have to ask my doc about it once I start taking my higher doses yet I have a feeling I'll know the difference lmao

Yeah, that's what I figured. I just wanted to clarify that when I was talking about my own emotional flatness, it was a side effect and not a depression symptom.
But yeah, go for it! It sounds like you probably should go up, based on what you've said so far.

New pain meds aren't working at all and I look like a ghost. I just want this to be done.

Go be spooky my ghost friend.

I'll try Dom, I'll try

Good