forum The LGBTQ+ Community Chat :) Part 2!

Started September 25, 2020 by @Moxie group

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Wait do you guys actually picture this stuff in your brain or you just memeing? (Aphantasia gang lmao)

Mood

same here (a moderate form)

Wait do you guys actually picture this stuff in your brain or you just memeing? (Aphantasia gang lmao)

Mood

same here (a moderate form)

Unfortunately, same! (An extreme form)

I can't see anything in my head at all and it annoys me to no end

When people say 'picture this', I always thought it was just a saying and had no meaning

I have to use references for art and descriptions because I can't come up with any patterns, colours or anything at all and it's SO ANNOYING

I didn't even realize it until recently? Like I just kind of thought "picturing things in your head" was more of a figure of speech of sorts

I didn't even realize it until recently? Like I just kind of thought "picturing things in your head" was more of a figure of speech of sorts

SAME THOUGH SAME

wait picturing things isn't normal

it might be a neurodivergent thing, just like how you see fuzz when you stare at something too long

It's a thing called aphantasia, which stops you from having a 'mind's eye'
It might be connected to neurodivergance though, I hadn't thought of it that way

I am a strange case…
I can see and smell sounds, I can hear pictures, I can see things in my mind as clear as if they are real and often confuse them for actually being real..
It’s not as fun as it sounds

Synesthesia

Yup, but synaesthesia doesn’t cover the hyperfantasia part

I literally picture full animatics in my head and I can’t draw and it makes me so mad

Same, although I’ve tried drawing them and they don’t turn out how it looks in my head so I scrap them

yess
It is so frustrating when you can't draw what you see in your head ;-;

Pretty sure that’s the whole reason I never got into art :’)

It's so frustrating when there's nothing in your head to draw ;-;

Its frustrating when everything's in your head all at once and you can hardly pull a coherent thought from the muddle and mess

art dumb. why do i do it

lmfao imagine liking the arts

imagine being an artist, musician, writer, dndnfhnfsjkfensdddddddddddevjkdlxjfw3kesldm,

Hey all, Im back from being grounded the whole spring break. WHAT DID I MISS?

EVERYONE IS IN LOVE.

YES LMAO

MMMMMMM
I just got very extreme gender dysphoria for the first time in months and on one hand I’m like “yay I wasn’t faking!” And then on the other hand I’m crying

i- literally me all the time- and it'll be alright, i know that shit sucks, but you'll figure it out.

Thanks dude :’)
It’d be better if I had my binder with me but I left it at home like an idiottttttt

awee, i felt that. i've been wearing baggy stuff but * this is tmi * i can feel them move when i walk sometimes and i'm just like GO AWAY-

Me: Okay so I'm very confused and think I have a problem
My brain: What's up
Me: Most of the time I don't mind my female body but sometimes I hate it??
My brain: Okay but consider: I don't like being called a boy but I really don't mind they/them pronouns but also I don't want to bring it up for fear of calling attention to myself but I also like being traditionally feminine sometimes she/her is nice but what if that's because it's what I'm used to being called and I can't ask anyone because what if they think I'm just trying to get attention or pity
Me: Goddamnit

Sometimes I think in animations whenever I'm like, listening to a podcast/lecture and it's honestly getting really annoying because I can see everything I want to draw or animate, but I can't draw or animate them the way I want

Also, sometimes I can think in other people's voices, which is pretty helpful for motivating myself, I can just kinda switch to Eret's voice and tell myself that I can do whatever I'm feeling hopeless about

Me: Okay so I'm very confused and think I have a problem
My brain: What's up
Me: Most of the time I don't mind my female body but sometimes I hate it??
My brain: Okay but consider: I don't like being called a boy but I really don't mind they/them pronouns but also I don't want to bring it up for fear of calling attention to myself but I also like being traditionally feminine sometimes she/her is nice but what if that's because it's what I'm used to being called and I can't ask anyone because what if they think I'm just trying to get attention or pity
Me: Goddamnit

I relate to this on a spiritual level, I feel every word of this

Ooh, felt that.
She/her pronouns are fine with me (though I do also use they/them), and I do present more feminine a lot of the time, but feminine titles and descriptors kinda hit me weird, is my thing. So like ma'am, miss, young lady, woman, etc. Do I just not like what it means to be a traditional woman in our society? Do I dislike the connotations and stereotypes? Or am I really kind of my own thing, just kinda vibing as far as gender goes?
Am I some flavor of not-cis, or am I just a gender-non-conforming woman?
I grew up not really wanting to be viewed like the other girls in the sense of femininity. I wanted to be considered a "tomboy" in a sense, but I was always too feminine for that. My hobbies, my clothes (that said, my mom was still picking put my clothes), a lot of my presentation was still overwhelmingly "girly."
And I just kind of hate the idea of saying that I'm not like other women, but like… I do have a very queer expression of femininity, so I'm really not? But it's still femininity, which makes it more confusing.
(Also this might sound weird, but since I cut off all my hair, I've felt more comfortable with my body and femininity in general???? So uh, now I'm even more confused lmao)

Its frustrating when everything's in your head all at once and you can hardly pull a coherent thought from the muddle and mess

that's how i feel about writing most of the time

Ooh, felt that.
She/her pronouns are fine with me (though I do also use they/them), and I do present more feminine a lot of the time, but feminine titles and descriptors kinda hit me weird, is my thing. So like ma'am, miss, young lady, woman, etc. Do I just not like what it means to be a traditional woman in our society? Do I dislike the connotations and stereotypes? Or am I really kind of my own thing, just kinda vibing as far as gender goes?
Am I some flavor of not-cis, or am I just a gender-non-conforming woman?
I grew up not really wanting to be viewed like the other girls in the sense of femininity. I wanted to be considered a "tomboy" in a sense, but I was always too feminine for that. My hobbies, my clothes (that said, my mom was still picking put my clothes), a lot of my presentation was still overwhelmingly "girly."
And I just kind of hate the idea of saying that I'm not like other women, but like… I do have a very queer expression of femininity, so I'm really not? But it's still femininity, which makes it more confusing.
(Also this might sound weird, but since I cut off all my hair, I've felt more comfortable with my body and femininity in general???? So uh, now I'm even more confused lmao)

THIS- THIS IS ME! I also cut my hair and I do feel a lot more comfortable with myself now. I've also just been dressing less feminine here lately, I haven't worn any of my skirts or dresses in awhile, it's mostly just ripped up jeans, t-shirts, hoodies, and sneakers. I love it most of the time, it's comfortable, but at the same time, I went to a quinceñera on Saturday and I wore a black bodysuit with my dark blue bell bottoms and- get this- high heels. Like, black high heel boots, and I felt s o powerful. Aside from already being taller than my mostly Mexican-under-5'5"-family, I was also almost as tall as my aunt who is literally like a whole model. And I was so confident, I was like, yeah, I could be okay with this whole "being a girl" thing. But at the same time I just wanna cut my hair shorter and be masc all the time. It just depends on my mood and it's frustrating

I've always wanted to try to dress feminine but I don't think I could pull it off