forum Your Personal Venting Space 3: Tokyo Drift

Started June 28, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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ppppft. Let him sob over his bullshit alone.

10/10 pansy

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Just had to talk a friend off of the edge last night

That’s rough, yo.

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Just had to talk a friend off of the edge last night

i had a friend that i had to do that with almost every night. it's a really tough thing to go through, not to mention draining. i'm sorry to hear that.

hnnnnnnnnnnnn two teachers called me beautiful like a half hour ago and i can't stop thinking about it and it's making me feel SO GOD DAMN DYSPHORIC like i'm normally ok with being called beautiful but the people who called me beautiful dont know that i'm a boy so it's weird and i just i'm freaking out and don't even want to talk and I just want to go home and change now (i'm wearing a dress cuz f gender roles but damn it makes it hard to pass)

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why does bpd take the absolute worst times to give me an episode
I just want to do my work and read, not think about homicide or want to hurt someone every time they touch me

how do i explain to my roommates that yes, it is spring, and yes i know you're hot cause you complain everytime the heater turns on, but i actually need the temperature to be above 65 to be a semi functional person so please stop switching the heat off. There are ceiling fans in literally every room but there's nothing i can do to bring my temperature up

hnnnnnnnnnnnn two teachers called me beautiful like a half hour ago and i can't stop thinking about it and it's making me feel SO GOD DAMN DYSPHORIC like i'm normally ok with being called beautiful but the people who called me beautiful dont know that i'm a boy so it's weird and i just i'm freaking out and don't even want to talk and I just want to go home and change now (i'm wearing a dress cuz f gender roles but damn it makes it hard to pass)

Yoyoyo. Idk if this will help. But beauty is not just for girls. Beauty is for all humans no matter the gender. All encompassing. If someone thinks you are beautiful, you can (hopefully) accept that and yourself in a manner you feel comfortable with.

I have a small vent that feels to me more like a bit of b**ching but I don't really care at the moment.
I'm a senior in High School, and I run Cross Country. I've never been a very fast runner, but I can go for a long time, which is why I chose to do Cross Country as my sport. Well, I got lucky this year, there wasn't really a guarantee that we were going to have XC, so the fact that we did was awesome. The only thing I'm really disappointed about is the fact that my last race is this Thursday. My mom and dad both work that day. And neither have made it to any of my races this year thus far.
And I get it okay, both of their jobs are kind of important, and work around our farm is also kind of important. But so is cheering on your daughter in the sport that she really loves, and does because she wants to make you proud of her.
So is it really to much to ask that you take the day off to come cheer on, not just me, but me, and your other two daughters, who are also doing this sport? It is my last XC race, ever and it kind of hurts to not have my parents there to cheer me on for it.

hnnnnnnnnnnnn two teachers called me beautiful like a half hour ago and i can't stop thinking about it and it's making me feel SO GOD DAMN DYSPHORIC like i'm normally ok with being called beautiful but the people who called me beautiful dont know that i'm a boy so it's weird and i just i'm freaking out and don't even want to talk and I just want to go home and change now (i'm wearing a dress cuz f gender roles but damn it makes it hard to pass)

Yoyoyo. Idk if this will help. But beauty is not just for girls. Beauty is for all humans no matter the gender. All encompassing. If someone thinks you are beautiful, you can (hopefully) accept that and yourself in a manner you feel comfortable with.

RESPECT

bows and flexes dad bod

Me: I won't blame everything on my bpd
My BPD: Is literally the reason of all of my suffering

Anyways, if one more person calls me a feral friend/goblin I'll commit a felony :3

I'm feeling like a total asshole due to my anxiety and how I procrastinate too much. Ask my mom, she grounded me again due to my "bad Behavoir" when Im just too depressed and tired to try and deal with real life. My job is stressing me out and idk what else to do

BITE BITE BITE BITE BITE BITE

Anyways, if one more person calls me a feral friend/goblin I'll commit a felony :3

Idk what state you’re in but there’re probably felonies you can look up that would surprise you.

man
I just had two people to basically the exact same thing to me which is so annoying

me: writes a fanfiction about a person struggling with bpd
some random commenter: You're misrepresenting bpd
Me, a person with bpd: -_-

me: writes a fic that takes place in an art school
someone: You didn't put any research into this
me, someone who goes to an art school that I based it around: -_-

man
I just had two people to basically the exact same thing to me which is so annoying

me: writes a fanfiction about a person struggling with bpd
some random commenter: You're misrepresenting bpd
Me, a person with bpd: -_-

me: writes a fic that takes place in an art school
someone: You didn't put any research into this
me, someone who goes to an art school that I based it around: -_-

that's so frustrating. i've had people do that to me when i write about anxiety and adhd (both of which i have). and they'd be like "don't write about things you don't know about." and i'm like..????? hUh?? or like they'd say "that's not what adhd/anxiety is like" and i'm like actually that's pretty much how it is for me, and it's not the same for everyone. there's varying degrees and everyone handles it differently so take that

At some point, it's going to be
Someone: Writes an autobiography
A reviewer: This is nothing what life is like! The author did zero research into any of the things they talked about >:(

At some point, it's going to be
Someone: Writes an autobiography
A reviewer: This is nothing what life is like! The author did zero research into any of the things they talked about >:(

LMAOOOO literally. writes an autobiography "you have no idea what you're talking about" like dude- it's literally my life, get out

me: writes about autism
some commenter: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT AUTISM IS LIKE!!!!!! #ACTUALLYAUTISTIC IS A CULT!!!!! >:(
me, who actually has autism: perish

I know!!!!
I'm just sitting here, not even arguing with them that much…
"Borderline Personality Disorder doesn't include violent thoughts!!!! It's so unrealistic how his mood switches that fast!!!"
I'm like… bruh, violent thoughts often go with the bpd anger and no,,, it's literall not unrealistic???
This happens to me every day???

me: writes about autism
some commenter: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT AUTISM IS LIKE!!!!!! #ACTUALLYAUTISTIC IS A CULT!!!!! >:(
me, who actually has autism: perish

yes, literally. (also i love your @ kdhbvkhsdbvdk)

I know!!!!
I'm just sitting here, not even arguing with them that much…
"Borderline Personality Disorder doesn't include violent thoughts!!!! It's so unrealistic how his mood switches that fast!!!"
I'm like… bruh, violent thoughts often go with the bpd anger and no,,, it's literall not unrealistic???
This happens to me every day???

yes, i can second that. my girlfriend has it and violent thoughts are very common, so are sudden mood changes.

The worst thing is that becuase my bpd makes my anger so instense, I reeally wanna argue

yep. my girlfriend gets very defensive about everything but she's also so apologetic. it's chaotic at times, but i love her to death.

me: writes about autism
some commenter: YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT AUTISM IS LIKE!!!!!! #ACTUALLYAUTISTIC IS A CULT!!!!! >:(
me, who actually has autism: perish

yes, literally. (also i love your @ kdhbvkhsdbvdk)

lmao it sucks ikr (thanks asdfghjkl)

Wait Reed you have bpd? One of my friends was just diagnosed with it, and I…to be honest I don't know like, what that changes? Would you mind maybe explaining just a little bit to me like what that's like and what I can do for my friend? if you don't mind?? I realize that it's maybe rude/presumptuous of me to be asking this of you, and you definitely don't have to answer. I have been doing my own research, it would just be nice to hear about it from someone who actually has it, rather than like… psychology websites. So yeah. Obviously you can tell me to fuck off, I don't wanna put any pressure on you

Uh yeah, fuck it sure.
I can really only pull from my experiances but I'll try and awnser any questions you have

Again no pressure, I don't wanna be, like, presumptuous or whatever and I know it's different for everyone, it's just that, like,,, I have no idea what this means for my friendship with this person?
But anyways. I guess maybe what's…the best things to do? Should I just continue on as if nothing has changed? (Which, uh, by the way, is kind of impossible since she's in a long-term mental care facility right now so "normal" is relative??) Are there things I shouldn't say/talk about with her? I guess just, what am I supposed to do/say/be, as a friend, while still also being respectful of the fact that it is a mental issue that can be hard to treat? Idk if I'm making sense, sorry

Okay, so, you basically treat her the same. Probably give her a bit more words of reassurance because a lot of the time people with bpd overthink relationships. Don't be angry that she's clingy and when she's angry, try and be calm.

Our bouts of anger are really intense and often a bit violent. So I'd say watch out for that.

DONT treat her like she's a ticking time bomb because she will drop you
from a person with bpd: it's annoying to people without it, but with thiis fucked up brain, it's somehow even worse.