(Firstly, yes, to a lot of you, I haven't been replying to this nor roleplays. The main reason for that is that I've just been getting a lot of writer's block and having mental instability. For better or worse reasons, this may be the last poem I leave with for until I make a good/full recovery. Anyways, enough about me. Here's a 'conversation poem' that's been in the works for some time.)
Report Number 77
"Officer number 77, report to us what you have found on planet H-Trae."
"……"
"Officer number 77?"
"Huh? Ah! Sorry sir. Uhm… as for my years worth of travel to planet H-Trae, I have found many things. I have found organisms living there. They call themselves as 'humans' as although they are outnumbered by what they classify as 'insects', they claim to be the owner of the planet."
"Continue."
"I have been observing, from both afar and up close and personal with a couple of human subjects. They could not pronounce my name so they refer to me as 'friend', which I find… intriguing. Humans are a spectacular species. There are so many of them and they come in all colors, shapes, forms, and sizes! But… I don't like the fact that I learnt from my dark 'friends' that sometimes they are regarded as inferior to 'friends' with lighter skins. I don't think so though. 'Friends' are 'friends'."
"What else have you found?"
"Well… a lot, sir. Humans don't reproduce indefinitely like we do and they haven't learnt of cloning yet so because of this, they still use sexual reproduction. However, humans are more… passionate. Unlike other species we've learnt about and others I have found on H-Trae, humans choose their partners very carefully. I have seen humans walking with each other and saying words that cause shivers to go down my spine. They call it as 'flirting' and 'dating' and I even saw one human bring a bundle of dead red flowers as a gift for another and it's crazy! They refer to this emotion as 'love'. Love is… as far as I've studied, a crazy phenomenon. Sometimes it happens in the blink of an eye, sometimes it takes years to form, and sometimes it just doesn't happen. Love comes in really different shapes. Whereas other species may 'love' to reproduce, that being a male and a female getting together, most humans choose to love who they love, no matter the possibility of creating a new human. It is a beautiful thing, personally, though not every place accepts this occurrence. Love, as I've learnt, has no real border. It is a shared, content, and mutual feeling between two humans, no matter their race, body shape, gender, age, or anything else. It's… absurd, but it's amazing."
"Hm… a nice idea. Now, tell me about the last word you've written in your short report."
"…'fragile'. Humans are fragile. Very… fragile. A lot of us have mistaken humans as being dangerous and violent when in reality, that's only the loud minority. The silent majority of humans are one of the nicest species we've ever known. Humans hold each other's hands gently when one is scared or worried, humans give each other shiny rocks to present their eternal love for one another, a-and humans feel! Humans feel just like we do and I hate the spicy food I had there because of it…"
"…officer 77, you look sad."
"It's because I am… along the way back, I lost a 'friend'. He was a writer, a teacher, and a young man just trying to live his way. He often depicted himself in the stories he write for other humans to read, hoping that some day someone will understand him. I quote from him, 'I'm tired. I'm tired of always trying to be better and competing with standards I know I can't compete and yet every day, every night, I'm wide awake at four in the morning, trying to figure out what's for breakfast tomorrow even though I haven't had a meal today! I'm constantly thinking about tomorrow and yesterday… today is never important. It never was'… I couldn't understand every word he said, but I can see the brokenness in his eyes. They shine the way those condensed carbon gems officer number 76 brought back last week. I learnt that they mean that that human is broken. And I'm not a fixer… I wasn't able to fix him. Just days ago I visited him one last time to say goodbye. I found him hanging on the ceiling fan. He had no pulse. He had no life left in him. In the end, I hope he had no regrets… I found the stories he wrote and I brought them all with me! They aren't perfect but- he tried his best. He wrote so much. In such a short life he wrote stories that even I couldn't even think of writing! He's… gone. But he forever lives on in these stories he wrote…"
"…officer 77, thank you for your time. You may take your leave."
"Thank you sir."
"But remember, it is not wrong to pay tribute to those who have passed. I'm sure your 'friend' would appreciate it."
End of recording.
(Edit : No, this is not goodbye. I refuse to let my damn every decreasing sanity be the death of me. Yes, I will still write, but I will write with little to no interactions. I will bleed stories from between my scars and spread them across this… blank canvas and have myself remember that yeah… I know there are people out there who don't know me but care for me. I'm still here because of you. You know who you are. From the bottom of my broken and shattered heart that you managed to tape together and get it beating again… thank you.)