forum Broken Dreams and Haunting Memories// Closed!// 16+

Started September 19, 2020 by @ElderGodSwimwithGamers group

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Astral put an arm gently around Simon, smiling. God, why did it feel like he was going to cry? He just… he couldn't lose this, he couldn't lose Simon.

“I might just want to go sit down and read for a bit if that’s okay with you.” He said quietly. He didn’t necessarily want Astral to leave though, but he also knew it was selfish to make him stay.

"That's perfectly fine," Astral said softly. "Do you want me to come with you, or would you like some alone time?" The god offered a smile, knowing he would be okay either way. One of the options just so happened to end with him retreating to his workroom to bawl his eyes out.

“Um Can you stay here with me? If you don’t mind?” He asked sheepishly with a flustered smile.

"I don't mind at all," Astral said, smiling some. He put his arm more securely around Simon, smiling down at him. He'd cry later, right now he had to savor every moment he had with Simon.

“Mmm okay then lets go find somewhere to sit and we can just relax.” He said, smiling up at him, leaning up and running a hand through Astral’s hair.

Astral chuckled some when Simon ran his fingers through the god's hair, taking his hand gently and leading him over to one of the couches by the fire.
"Does this work for you?"

“Mhm!” He said, sitting down and leaning back on Astral as he started reading.

Astral relaxed with Simon leaning against him, actually reading over the man's head secretly. This was just so… good. It was right, even when Astral knew things would go so horribly wrong.

Simon liked having Astral’s arms wrapped around him. He felt so….safe, and wanted, and cared for. Those were things he quite literally hadn’t experienced for almost 100% of his life.

The worst part was, Simon was all those things. At least, now he was. He hadn't been before, but… well, Simon had grown so much on Astral, there was no way the god could hurt Simon again.

Simon burrowed more into Astral’s chest, letting out a content sigh. Then a question occurred to him. He stopped reading for a second, looking over at Astral. “Hey Astral? How long do you think I’ve been here now?”

"Ah…" Astral had to think a long moment on that.
"I'm not entirely sure," the god admitted softly. What had Simon figured out? Had… had he missed a period?

“Hmmm..” he shrugged. “It doesn’t really matter, I was just wondering. I just…I already feel so comfortable here.” He smiled widely at Astral.

"Well, I'm glad you do." Astral smiled back, so relieved at the moment. "This place won't ever stop being safe for you in the future, kay?"

He nodded, his smile widening. “Kay.” He responded, laughing a bit. He wrapped his arms around Astral, hugging the taller man tightly. “Thank you..” he whispered.

Astral hugged Simon in turn, holding him close.
"You're welcome…" Astral smiled softly, his head bending down to rest lightly on Simon a moment.

“You really have just….done so much for me. I don’t know how I could ever repay you.” He said, choking up a bit, keeping his face hidden in Astral’s chest.

No. No no no, no. Simon, he, he couldn't-
"You don't need to," Astral swore softly, closing his eyes and so damned close to crying. "You… you don't ever need to, Simon."

“If you say so….” he said softly, not at all aware of the internal struggle Astral was going through. “But still, thank you.”

Astral nodded his head mutely, holding Simon close. Damnit, he can't break down, not now. Not with Simon…

Simon kept his arms wrapped around the other, not really wanting to move. So he wouldn’t be able to see Astral borderline breaking down. He began to hum softly, just relaxing.

Astral focused on Simon's humming, forcing his breathing to even out. No, no, he would have time later… he had to keep Simon happy for now. The god relaxed, hugging Simon for a moment.

Simon giggled softly when he felt Astral hug him too. The difference between how Simon was now versus when he’d gotten here was absolutely insane.

_{((Simon might accidentally pull out the “I love you” ngl))}

_{(No I will not let him, it's my job to make you cry >:| )}

Astral knew it would all go away, though… but he didn't want it to. He… goddamnit, he'd… give up the child if it meant keeping Simon happy at this point.

_{((Sounds like a personal problem bud >:| ))}

Simon felt himself already getting tired, and felt a bit angry about it actually. He didn’t want to sleep, he wanted to stay awake with Astral. ‘Stupid body…’ he thought to himself.

(Hola!)

Astral kept his head on Simon's for now, humming some. He was calmed down, thankfully, keeping his eyes closed. He… he couldn't look at Simon for a time, not yet.

Simon sat back up with a yawn, leaning into Astral again shortly after sitting up. He reopened his book, continuing to read, starting to hum along with Astral. After a moment he stopped humming, looking up at the other man. “Are you okay?” He asked gently, reaching a hand up to mess with Astral’s hair. “You got really quiet there for a second…”

_{((Hhhhhh I’m so sorry I know I do this a lot I’m just having a really shitty day and I need a distraction it’s completely fine for you to ignore this though if you want to I just a h- I’m sorry ;-;))}