I'll move my weird rant from lgbt community chat to here because I don't want anyone to get mad at me I guess.
So this person stole my god system, like down to the bones except for changing the Curator's name from Aiden. I guess I just feel really bad because I poured my fucking soul into making that pantheon, I've changed concepts for my story so many times but I've kept those gods. I made them with a bunch of friends who I don't get to talk to anymore and so they mean a lot to me and I left for some time then someone took them. I just,,, really? They had to take my god system, like the idea for the rp I had, I don't mind if you take that, but my gods. Those are my fucking comfort characters that have gotten me through so much by imagining that they're right there comforting me.
And now they deleted their account so I know someone is going to get mad at me for forcing them off, but I didn't. I was a bit angry, yeah, but I never said "leave the site"… I just don't want this on my first day back.
Hah, wow, I didn't expect plagiarism to be the thing that makes me the most angry. I should be flattered someone likes my works…. but I just… I went to pm them to talk about it and Boom, they deleted their account. I was going to apologize for being harsh and ask them about it
Not doubting you on this–the amount of similarities and the fact that they left when you tried to confront them about it is HELLA sus–but it didn't seem like they knew you at all, or even knew of you. Like I remember them saying something along the lines of "people are comparing me to some Reed guy, is that a good thing?? Like are they a cool person or are they a bad person and these people are telling me I'm garbage??" in a group dm. Idk it's just really weird that it looks like they stole your characters but also didn't seem to know who you were
I don't know. I think I'm gonna try and just,,, not think about it? Avoiding my problems works g r e a t
no you have an absolute right to be angry about it mate that's fucked up and not fair for you at all
you spent so long developing it and making it good and for them to just,, steal it? that's beyond wrong
On one hand, they apparently said things that imply they have no idea who you are, but on the other I've seen this before. Talking in common circles to reinforce their innocence in the situation is something I've seen in the art community before when dealing with tracers. From what I saw in the LGBT chat, they were very specific in stealing, which means it's likely they did. And leaving right away is hella sus like Cloudy said.
Honestly that's one of the reasons I'm less active in the world building chats with all these new people joining and starting conversations like "Tell me about _ in your world!" Like I know the odds they would even want to steal my mediochre world building is very low, but I've already delt with stealing before and it caused me enough stress and anxiety for physical problems. Like if someone ever did, do I have enough of a pressence here for people to know it was mine first? idk everything about this is stressful, you can be as angry as you want for anyone who steals your work imo, they did the wrong not you.
God, I hate having cystic acne.
This shit hurts.
And I have a prescription for something that's supposed to help, but my insurance is being weird about covering it because I guess it can be dangerous if the person using it is pregnant (which I am not and I do not intend on changing that anytime soon or ever, but since I'm biologically female that's a thing I guess) so I can't get it until they send some shit to my doctor but they haven't sent it yet and I'm just so done
Y'all really out here thinking that all your friends hate you and that you're just an annoyance 😂 😂
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It's me. I'm Y'all
Is anyone else still processing 4 months ago? I'm still digging up stories from the protests and police violence, still trying to piece together so much. Still seeing what was covered up, what I missed, what I should've been paying attention to. It was such a violent time and I feel like I went through it blind for the most part. I don't want the protests to end. I want the violence to end, duh. But I don't want people to just get over BLM or police reform or, heck, even the fact that we elected Donald Trump as our president- and I hope to all that's Divine that if he gets re-elected the people will do something about it.
My dad just dropped a part of our air-fryer and he is confused why I flinched so hard.
Hah, wow, I didn't expect plagiarism to be the thing that makes me the most angry.
I would be furious. And feel sick. I don’t blame you.
You know that the school system has done a good job manipulating your brain when you feel guilty for choosing your mental health over school.
You know that the school system has done a good job manipulating your brain when you feel guilty for choosing your mental health over school.
Okay but seriously though
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so another girl released her story of how she was raped at our school and literally while still in shock, all her mind could think of to do was finish her school project and honestly that fucked me up
You know that the school system has done a good job manipulating your brain when you feel guilty for choosing your mental health over school.
this is a big frickin mood. but for me it's more like whenever i have a mild panic attack the school apparently assumes i've purely gone mental and try to keep me out of the school for as long as they can as if i'm some sort of danger to the students like U M?
You know that the school system has done a good job manipulating your brain when you feel guilty for choosing your mental health over school.
Okay but seriously though
Tw for sexual assault
Spoiler - click to show.
so another girl released her story of how she was raped at our school and literally while still in shock, all her mind could think of to do was finish her school project and honestly that fucked me up
Damn.
Your school sucks. When's the walk out again? (If u guys are still doing that)
You know that the school system has done a good job manipulating your brain when you feel guilty for choosing your mental health over school.
Okay but seriously though
Tw for sexual assault
Spoiler - click to show.
so another girl released her story of how she was raped at our school and literally while still in shock, all her mind could think of to do was finish her school project and honestly that fucked me up
Damn.
Your school sucks. When's the walk out again? (If u guys are still doing that)
I believe so. We need to plan more though.
Why am I so nervous to submit this scholarship? (the deadline is in three days, so I kind of have to o it now)
full send my guy
just push that submit button and go grab a snack
you deserve it
hey I stole this account from my baby sister. she's not really a baby obviously. but still. what is up my cranky crew?
So basically my mental health has been going downhill recently and I really want to talk to my parents about it but I'm afraid it will make things different. Maybe they'll look at me differently, maybe they'll take away my privileges, maybe they'll start thinking that everything I say and do are all just parts of my low mental health, or maybe they'll start hovering over me. I just want to talk but I'm afraid that everything's going to change…
I feel like this needs to be said…..
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So I was at the store, messing around with my mom….and in the corner of my eye i see someone. We walk closer….and it was my abusive ex…He was only a few feet away from me. and he recognized me…I was so scared…I literially froze and my mom asked…and almost beat his ass because he used to physically and verbally hurt me..
Hhhhhh so apparently my friend wants to call CPS because I've been venting to her about my mom and apparently a lot of the stuff my mom's been saying and doing is actually incredibly ab-sive? And she also won't take me in to get tested for anything(I think I might have ADHD based on some of the symptoms, but I'm definitely not a professional hence why I want to get evaluated by a professional) or anything like that, instead screaming and swearing at me and threatening me. She used to hit me a lot when I was younger, and my friend says that based on what I'm telling her, I might also have PTSD from that(she has PTSD herself but again, not a professional). She wants to do it anonymously of course and said she won't do it unless I give her the okay, but I don't know what to do. Like my mom would know I said something, right? She'd just be furious with me for bringing stuff like this up but at the same time CPS could make her do something about this. I don't know what to do and honestly, I'm not sure if I'm more frustrated with the situation or scared of making it worse.
Pm me, dude. (I might not be on but I think we should probably talk.)
You know, I think I had that life shattering realization that usually doesn't happen until you graduate college.
I don't know how to do anything except be a good student.
I can write some solid one hour essays, study for tests and ace them, find the short cuts in math problems.
And that's it.
That's all I know how to do, I don't know how to survive. I don't know what I'm going to major in, which one get's me the highest GPA, the answer none of them, that's not how Majors work, none of the way's I have developed to think my way through school are going to be useful when I get out of college, if I go to college I haven't even started my applications and they're due on Saturday.
Anyway basically right now all I really want is for someone to come over and give me a hug and look me in the eye's and tell me it's all going to be ok, it'll work out. I'll get through it. But no one is going to do that, if it would work from their mouth it's going to have to be good enough coming from me.
My Parent's have enough to deal with with out me being problematic, I made it clear that I am the one in charge of my life, so they shouldn't have to deal with my problems. Besides If I open up to them Mom will have it all over town in 2 minutes. I love her so much but she can't keep her mouth shut.
I'm such a hypocrite, I hand out comfort and advise and any helpful words I can think of when I'm this much of a mess.
I'm just going to have to power through, power through the application process, power through the rest of my schooling, power through life until it's over. My existence just looks so miserable, I have to laugh at the absurdity of it.
And I've accepted it, that's the worst part. I've accepted that I'm going to be miserable for the rest of my life, and because I've accepted it, it's never going to change.
That is all for tonight, I have homework to do. I wasted to much time reading, it was a good escape while it lasted.
i really want to rant on here but i doubt anyone will wanna hear my problems ;-;
do it. that’s the whole point. get it out and get it over with, i may not be online when you do cause sleep but we’re here for you
okay i guess…
So I have some serious depression. LIke the kind that is just a thick knot resting in my chest and some big clouds settling in my brain. I'm also a nihilist. For those of you who don't know what that is, a nihilist is someone who rejects all religions and moral values and believes that life is meaningless. I'm also agnostic/atheist (still deciding). I look outside at our world and just this feeling of dread washes over me. I have no hope. I am 14 years old and I have no hope for a future. The generations above me have handed us a world that is broken beyond repair, handed us a roll of duct tape and told us to fix it. We can patch it up temporarily, but it'll just fall apart. It's just delaying the inevitable. Our ozone layer has more holes in it than a swiss cheese factory, the icecaps are melting, and countries are tearing themselves apart. I swore to never have kids because why would I bring an innocent creature into this dying world? How could I give them the same burden my parents gave me? I don't believe in any god because why would something that powerful just stand back and watch this crumbling world?? Sometimes, when my brain refuses to give in and let me pass out, I sit up at night and think about this world. The sad thing is that I've accepted the facts. I'm a deadpan realist. I've accepted that it's not gonna get better, I've accepted that I'm probably not gonna live to see 60, I've accepted that there's no point in trying. So I'm gonna live my life as chaotically as I can, because nothing matters. Nothing matters…
