What other books didn't make it?
The Black Flamingo by Dean Atta and The Friend Scheme by I forget who. Nothing I was super duper excited about, so that's good I guess, but still. I'm lucky, because both books had cool covers and so I was able to sue the excuse of "oh it had such a cool cover so I added it to my holds without reading the description" but yeah
What other books didn't make it?
The Black Flamingo by Dean Atta and The Friend Scheme by I forget who. Nothing I was super duper excited about, so that's good I guess, but still. I'm lucky, because both books had cool covers and so I was able to sue the excuse of "oh it had such a cool cover so I added it to my holds without reading the description" but yeah
Massive F
I'm going to try and snag a copy of Iron Heart by Nina Varela, should be pretty easy since it's coming out on my first day of school. I can probably get my dad to take me to get it, and tbh I could probably buy, like, straight-up erotica and he wouldn't even notice. He's not a reader.
What other books didn't make it?
The Black Flamingo by Dean Atta and The Friend Scheme by I forget who. Nothing I was super duper excited about, so that's good I guess, but still. I'm lucky, because both books had cool covers and so I was able to sue the excuse of "oh it had such a cool cover so I added it to my holds without reading the description" but yeah
Massive F
I'm going to try and snag a copy of Iron Heart by Nina Varela, should be pretty easy since it's coming out on my first day of school. I can probably get my dad to take me to get it, and tbh I could probably buy, like, straight-up erotica and he wouldn't even notice. He's not a reader.
Yeah
Nice!! Oof lucky. My parents don't watch with an eagle eye like they used to, but it's still kinda bad
Yeah but I know that exact feeling you described. Its really scary, I'm sorry.
^
i
am tired of being tired
what a funny thing to be
everytime i see those images in IG
you know, the ones that go smth like
when they say "i'm tired" they mean:
[insert a bunch of things they mean to say]
i like
relate to them way too much
i'm tired
of being tired
also i really fucking hate feelings
like
can they go die in a hole already?
i hate relationships and how messy they are
i hate how i always isolate myself when i'm feeling bad bc i don't wanna bother anyone and if i'm being honest
there's only like one or two people who i'll openly vent to (sometimes) on discord nowadays
and sometimes
sometimes the very act of being on discord tires me out so so quickly
and music makes me think too much sometimes
i just want to
stop existing
and have no memories
and just
be
nothing to worry about
i
really really fucking hate being alive sometimes
ahhh sorry for the big wall of text i just
didn't really know where to put this anymore
i don't like to vent on discord anymore
i
hate
life
(and depression)
Welp. F. Don’t die. Keep living. Look for new ways to really feel life.
Guys I wrote over 1,000 words today and I'm gonna do it again tomorrow, mark my words
D: great job!!!
Fanfiction drives me to do great things
And it's Cavendish's birthday tomorrow, so I'm gonna spend all night figuring the plot to that fic out
Guys I wrote over 1,000 words today and I'm gonna do it again tomorrow, mark my words
Awesome! I got some decent work done today too!
Guys I wrote over 1,000 words today and I'm gonna do it again tomorrow, mark my words
oh shit
guys that pun wasn't intended
I have leftover puns from when I was terrorizing my friend using bad puns, apparently
I didn’t notice the pun that’s great!
Me: Write normal fanfics
Also me: A n g s t
Me: Write
Also me: A n g s t
Jyn I just wanna write something nice
But then the sad backstories start to kick in
And there's crying
On my part and the character's
I think I have one story that could be classified as "nice" and it's a musical that I haven't even finished a single song for.
I have some nice stuff I’m pretty sure. But today I wrote some screaming so.
I have an ongoing fic that's relatively happy, one that I wrote today, and a singular oneshot
That's it lmao
I'm considering starting a series of fics where my favorite character just keeps getting tortured lol
A lot of my stuff started off nice enough, but as I get older and more capable of handling themes, dark stuff, etc. it gradually grows darker. It's odd, because I feel like a lot of my stuff manages to be dreary without killing off too many characters. God, this feels like a humblebrag, ew
What no that’s illegal.^^
A lot of my stuff started off nice enough, but as I get older and more capable of handling themes, dark stuff, etc. it gradually grows darker. It's odd, because I feel like a lot of my stuff manages to be dreary without killing off too many characters.
God, this feels like a humblebrag, ew
Meanwhile for the same reasons, some of my darker stuff got less dark and possibly more nuanced.
To clarify, I don't mean GrimdarkTM, I mean that it got more nuanced than "this are the bad guys, they're bad because they're evil and the good guys are good because they're good". My recent love for messy leads probably plays into that too.
You know when you just get ticked by a short story that you're assigned to read and analyse the setting for your English class, but you're so upset that you're struggling to analyse the setting, and you're just really angry at what happens in it… no just me.
If you ever want a good blood boiler read "Girl" by Jamaica Kincaid and “Everyday Use” by Alice Walker.
Both of them really just… Gah, made me upset. I mean they're supposed to but still.
Me: Write normal fanfics
Also me: A n g s t
Me: Finish that fanfic
Also Me: Looses my sanity by reading fics by 10 year olds
never finished that Fic
Online school started today
Time to die mentally
My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.
My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.
Spoiler - click to show.
Okay but same though and i'm really sorry you have to go through that too. My mom blames me for not helping/ comforting her in her marital issues and accuses me of leaving her to suffer.
My mom is just UGHGRHGHHG. Okay small story time.
Spoiler - click to show.Okay but same though and i'm really sorry you have to go through that too. My mom blames me for not helping/ comforting her in her marital issues and accuses me of leaving her to suffer.
You took the words from my mind.
I'm in band listening to a Flamenco Guitarist, giving Band kids a history lecture…..
So much misinformation I literally can't. Like…. The Greeks weren't stupid, if a person got sick they had an idea of how to fix it, they had a god of medicine, why would have had a god of medicine if they didn't have it.
Man this guy pushes my buttons.
Like dude, using big words and then telling us what they mean does not make you sound smart.
We know what cyclical means.
And there's this little twerp teachers pet kid in the chat being like, "Oh and also this and this fact and this fact." Like dude, no one thinks your cool or smart we think your obnoxious.