forum Romance Roleplay (Closed O/O)

Started March 02, 2020 by @Rainy_day_artist_classic group

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"Then we'll be here for a long time." Melissa laughed softly, resting her head on his shoulder. "Because I'd probably want you to hold me for all eternity, if you were actually willing."

"Mm. I'd be willing, but I don't think that would be particularly fun for either of us." Lucas smiled gently, holding her close.

"How about I wait for all eternity, until we're in the clearing?" Melissa hummed lightly, hooking their feet together with a light smile. "Then we'll be somewhere we actually like."

"Sure, Mel. That sounds good to me." Lucas kissed Melissa again, lacing his fingers with hers.

Giving him a light smile in return, she sucked in a deep breath before letting it out slowly. "I need my puppy… can't we go home yet?"

"Unfortunately, no… you'll take good care of him while I'm at practice, right?" Lucas asked, smiling gently again.

"Yeah… me and him will probably go and cuddle up on my bed. Just so I won't be bugged by anyone." Melissa hummed lightly, lifting her head to kiss him softly.

"That sounds nice, Mel. He'll be lonely from being outside all day. Your dad might've visited him some, though."

"I'm hoping so… he said he would feed him, for me." Melissa replied softly, settling back against him. "You're sure you don't want to get lunch?"

"I'm okay, Melissa. We've always got snacks at practice, anyway." Lucas smiled gently. "I'll be okay. Do you need anything, though?"

"No… I'm really not hungry. And this time, I mean it. I honestly feel sick to my stomach, and don't want anything." Melissa mumbled, tracing the grooves in her jeans.

Lucas nodded a bit. "Alright… will you have a snack or something when you get home? I wanna make sure you feel good."

"I'll try to eat something, but I'm not going to promise you. I don't want to lie to you." Melissa replied softly.

"Alright, Mel… thanks for trying, anyway." He smiled gently and huddled a bit closer. "I just want to make sure you're as healthy as possible."

"I know you do… I just make it a million times harder." Melissa mumbled before burying her face in his shoulder. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry, Mel. I know you're trying." Lucas gently kissed the top of Melissa's head. "And that means a lot to me."

"Not hard enough, clearly. It shouldn't be this hard to be perfect." Melissa mumbled, slowly wrapping her arms around his waist.

"Hey, don't talk like that… I never expect you to be perfect. I never will." Lucas kissed Melissa's cheek gently.

"I expect me to be perfect." Melissa said, before she even thought about it. As soon as it left her lips, she sighed weakly.

"Well, you shouldn't. I did the same, and I always disappointed myself. You've gotta be happy about little things if you haven't got big things to make you happy."

"But how? Every time I look in the mirror, my first thoughts are always about my flaws. How am I suppose to find something good, if I can only point out the bad?" Melissa continued to whisper, pulling back a little.

"Well… you'll have to see things from my point of view, I guess. I think you're wonderful, Melissa. You're beautiful and talented and I love everything about you. I just want you to be safe and happy."

Melissa fell quiet, holding herself from him for a minute. She let his words sink in, and nodded just a little bit. "I… I guess… I'm just being difficult. I'm sorry- I need to stop."

"Hey… we can work through it, Mel. Hell, I'm probably more fucked up than you, but that doesn't mean we can give up. We'll never get better if we stop trying to get better."

"But it's so much easier to give in…" Melissa mumbled, dropping her face in her hands. "It's so fucking hard to try and get better. I'm so tired, and I just want to let go. I don't want to have to keep trying anymore."

"I know, Melissa… I know how that feels, but I just… I hardly remember what it feels like to be happy anymore, but I want that. For both of us. We deserve to be happy, right?"

"I… I don't know anymore, Lucas. Is it really going to be any better, than just faking it?" Melissa asked him, lifting her head to look at him. "Is it going to be any different?"

"We can get better eventually, it'll just… it'll just be hard. But I believe in us. I think we can do it." Lucas smiled weakly.

"Do you really?" Melissa asked lightly, still holding on to herself loosely. "Because I have to admit, I have my doubts."

"I do. I don't care how naive it makes me sound because that optimistic mindset is really the only thing that has kept me alive."