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Started November 14, 2019 by Deleted user

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my brother is about the age i was when i first joined notebook and uh
…was i actually this bad…
i am so sorry

I feel really upset and talentless and I don't know what to do. I just want to do a creative job, write, or act, or sing, but I'm not good enough at any of it. I have to start thinking about where to go to college next year, and I don't want to be an office worker or major in business, but everyone thinks my characters are Mary Sues, and I'm starting to think they are. And I never get good roles in my school plays, even though I work so hard. I think I'm depressed and I'm starting to get really dark thoughts.

If anyone could talk to me, or compliment my work at all just so I can hear it, I would really love you for it.

Don't you just love it when you're looking for something? You spend a long amount of time looking for what you're looking for, getting frustrated because you can't find it. Then the moment you actively stop searching you find what you were freaking looking desperately for…. Yeah, this just happened to me….
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Sorry, had to vent. Frustration y'all!

I know you guys understand.

Hey @Nerdy_Theater_Kid, I know what it's like to feel untalented and have dark thoughts. I'm about to turn in for the night, but you can link some of your work and I'd love to read through some of it tomorrow if it'd make you feel better. Just the fact that you want to have a job in the arts tells me you have strong passions, and that's something very powerful. In fact, I'd say it's a talent itself. Try your best to keep yourself motivated- find the little reasons to keep working on your arts, and don't be afraid to make mistakes. A big part of the arts is getting stuff wrong- it's part of the creative process. It's not like math or science where there are laws to follow and right or wrong answers to provide. I'm sure you're doing great <3

If anyone could talk to me, or compliment my work at all just so I can hear it, I would really love you for it.

I’m sorry that I don’t know you or your work but simply by your username I know that you are like many of the people I have chosen to be my best friends so just know that if I knew you in real life I would choose you as a friend.

Thank you for the kind words everyone :)

Thank you for the kind words everyone :)

I too would love to view your work! I could do so now even, if you'd want! :-) I'm gonna add onto what @Owen said about mistakes and say that sometimes those mistakes can better the work. To quote Bob Ross, "We don't make mistakes. We just have happy accidents."

i wish zach hadn't left for many reasons but one is now i'm lonely on the poetry chat :(

I have a Character in my brain and I put this Character onto paper but the character in my brain and the one that I put into Notebook are not the same person. My Baby is just very nuanced and does many things and has lot's of feeling so it's hard to put him onto paper.

well Godzilla vs Kong just got delayed until 2021
I honestly don’t know what I was expecting and I know some people are gonna tell me it’s not that big of a deal but I’ve been emotionally exhausted this year and again I understand it’s more of a ‘me problem’ but

It was one of the biggest things I’ve been looking forwards to this year and I just
:/

I know it probably won’t be but I’m hoping it’s not a repeat of KOTM where it got delayed so much it was a 5 year wait between the two movies

Awww, I'm sorry. That's rough.
And if it's a big deal to you, it's a big deal. Period.

I feel really upset and talentless and I don't know what to do. I just want to do a creative job, write, or act, or sing, but I'm not good enough at any of it. I have to start thinking about where to go to college next year, and I don't want to be an office worker or major in business, but everyone thinks my characters are Mary Sues, and I'm starting to think they are. And I never get good roles in my school plays, even though I work so hard. I think I'm depressed and I'm starting to get really dark thoughts.

Honestly, same. I feel like I'm useless everywhere. There is nothing I'm good at except being salty and procrastinating. I would really like to be a writer or singer, but I'm terrible at both and..just.. aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

excuse me that’s my meme stolen off of Pinterest, Miriam

wot

it's from reddit

w h o r e

Uh no I saw that same exact thing on Pinterest and saved it to my board

y o u a b s o l u t e b u t t f u c k

Am I jamming out to a 10 hour loop of Furret Walk right now?
Maybe
Will I later move on to a 10 hour loop of No one's Around to Help?
Yes

Uh no I saw that same exact thing on Pinterest and saved it to my board

y o u a b s o l u t e b u t t f u c k

lmao emi it's just a meme that was on my feed

you b i t c h

I'm on a walk listening to an audiobook and absolutely LOSING it. I love this
The Unhoneymooners
I'm cackling

I didn't think you'd be a romance fan, Liz :P
Especially rom-coms

Neither did I, but it sounded good and I was surprised that I liked it so much I actually started another adult romance, but I wasn't liking it a bunch and then it expired. It also sounds cute though
_{it wasn't really a comedy but I'm a terrible person so I was laughing at a semi-serious part}

_{oof mood}

_{s a m e}

I don't know what to do. Having just a bit of a breakdown. Might just paint my nails black

Painting is a great coping mechanism though. I once painted squares of (clean) toilet paper with nail polish during a breakdown and it was really fun. 10/10, very stimulating, would recommend.

Painting is a great coping mechanism though. I once painted squares of (clean) toilet paper with nail polish during a breakdown and it was really fun. 10/10, very stimulating, would recommend.

Perfect. Thank you.

I came home from work and my mom tells me we are leaving for dinner at my grandparents in like 20 minutes when, I am in my gross uniform and my hair has been in a ponytail all week. And my grandma is judgmental so I have to look my very best and my mom said "You could do that cute thing with you hair with all of the tiny curls" Woman, that takes 45 minutes. I would need an hour and a half to look even half-decent in my family's eyes. Plus we might not even be the only ones there and my moms family is super judgy, except for one cousin. But my mom also knew I had plans tonight as well as a quiz. So, a super stressful getting ready montage of my doing 90 minutes of getting ready in 20 starts now. There is a 50% chance I will cry during this time

Good luck, I believe in you :)

Best of luck, @Musical_Queen

In other news, I have done a thing. I started painting my left nails and a thought struck me. After some scrounching around, and 10 minutes of painting, both my hands are done. My left is black, my right is white.

I'm unsure if there's any meaning at all or if it's something other than some kind of message about racism or how the left hand is traditionally viewed as worse, bad, or evil