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Started May 03, 2020 by @SupernaturalSyGuyIsTIred group

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Gotcha.

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

Oof.

He and William both come from a story that I was writing with one of my friends; she decided to step back to focus on her own stuff. 😢

i was trying to write something for school but I'm not sure if its good enough for me to pass

Creative writing assignment?

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

That reminds me of the character exchange thing we had a while back on this site
It was really fun and I wish we could bring it back

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

That reminds me of the character exchange thing we had a while back on this site
It was really fun and I wish we could bring it back

I can likely find it and put a list of names that I don't think I'm going to use now.

Creative writing assignment?

yep ! a spoken narriavte on a contemporary poem. i chose 'hurricane' but arielle cottingham

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

That reminds me of the character exchange thing we had a while back on this site
It was really fun and I wish we could bring it back

I can likely find it and put a list of names that I don't think I'm going to use now.

Think I might even post that list here just because I feel like it.

Creative writing assignment?

yep ! a spoken narriavte on a contemporary poem. i chose 'hurricane' but arielle cottingham

I was gonna offer to be of assistance, but I haven't read that poem before….

(gasps)
History is an ocean and
Hurricanes are what happen
When history decides to repeat itself
See hurricanes rise up out of the ocean
Travel thousands of miles
Picking up pieces of everywhere they’ve been
And dumping them with hell and highwater
Wherever they make landfall

And even in this extended metaphor
I am human, Womb-men, women
Who refuses to use her womb
as fodder, for any number of revolutions
that really should have been won by now
but history and its hurricanes
have a way of washing away
wayward women with (gasps)

ambition on our lips
instead of babies on our hips
and I’m gonna nail the damn doors open
when the hurricanes come
let the wind slam all the doors in the house
until the tantrum ends
and I will still be here
clinging to a microphone, by the teeth
hoping to say something memorable eventually

and why are you so angry all the time Arielle
how do you fit that much outrage into that
tiny, woman, body
I’ll tell ya
History is an ocean
And I been drinking a lot of sea water lately
out of books that taste like (gasps)

drowning
and this microphone is a life raft
for women who’s empty wombs
will get us washed away
if we aren’t careful
but take our pens
we will shout our poetry
into every hurricane
history hurls at us

for we have always shaped history
the way the moon shapes the tides
no matter how invisible it seemed

but we don’t have to be invisible anymore
so when the next storm comes
nail your doors open
bite down on your microphones
let history (gasps)
flood your lungs
and unleash hurricanes of your own

also i have been informed to tell @TheDistortionist to check his emails

(gasps)
History is an ocean and
Hurricanes are what happen
When history decides to repeat itself
See hurricanes rise up out of the ocean
Travel thousands of miles
Picking up pieces of everywhere they’ve been
And dumping them with hell and highwater
Wherever they make landfall

And even in this extended metaphor
I am human, Womb-men, women
Who refuses to use her womb
as fodder, for any number of revolutions
that really should have been won by now
but history and its hurricanes
have a way of washing away
wayward women with (gasps)

ambition on our lips
instead of babies on our hips
and I’m gonna nail the damn doors open
when the hurricanes come
let the wind slam all the doors in the house
until the tantrum ends
and I will still be here
clinging to a microphone, by the teeth
hoping to say something memorable eventually

and why are you so angry all the time Arielle
how do you fit that much outrage into that
tiny, woman, body
I’ll tell ya
History is an ocean
And I been drinking a lot of sea water lately
out of books that taste like (gasps)

drowning
and this microphone is a life raft
for women who’s empty wombs
will get us washed away
if we aren’t careful
but take our pens
we will shout our poetry
into every hurricane
history hurls at us

for we have always shaped history
the way the moon shapes the tides
no matter how invisible it seemed

but we don’t have to be invisible anymore
so when the next storm comes
nail your doors open
bite down on your microphones
let history (gasps)
flood your lungs
and unleash hurricanes of your own

Hmmmm…. And your writing assignment?

(this is what i have so far)

Apprehensive is a long word, but it’s the right word. There couldn’t be a better word for this situation. I dial the numbers slowly and cautiously, my hands shaking.

[REDACTED]

A boa constrictor wraps itself around my chest. Breathing becoming a mission to keep steady.

[REDACTED]

I enter each number, the Jenga blocks of anxiety being stacked higher and higher with each one. Threatening to fall over in an instant.

[REDACTED]

It’s the final number that I can’t seem to bring myself to type. I know what happens once I tell him about this Hurricane inside me. I gasp for breath as the panic rises in my throat, my stomach doing backflips. I can’t do this he will never forgive me if I say-

[REDACTED]

The dial tone echos in my ear, no backing out now. He picks up. He seems happy to hear from me. I try to keep my voice steady as I prepare myself for what I need to tell him. He’s talking but I’m not taking any of it in.

Don’t get me wrong. I love my fiance. We’ve been through so much together and we are happy. But I need this. He needs to hear what I have to say.

He just keeps going, and I let him talk. About his work, about his friends, about what he saw while out that would be perfect for a nursery. He’s always on about how he can’t wait for me to be a mother, how I will finally be in my element.

“You won’t need to keep on with your silly career ideas! We will finally be the family we always wanted. We will be happy.”

And by WE he generally means HE because this is what HE wants.

I let the conversation die. The silence is slowly eating away at me. I know what I have to say but I can’t bring myself to do it. My throat feels like its closing over, slight hyperventilation sets in and I start to panic.

“H-hun….I need to talk to you about something….”

Even though it’s over the phone I can tell his expression drops. I hear him sigh in disappointment as he prepares to tell me what I’ve believed for so long.

“But babe, you want this. You will finally be in your place. A child is everything we’ve wanted.”

I just keep repeating it. That I want to work, that I want to leave my legacy on the world in a way other than bearing a child. I want to be able to speak out for what I believe in and pave the way for others to be able to do so too. But he doesn’t get it. He’s blinded by HIS desires and what HE wants me to be. I’m over it. I have to tell him.

“No. YOU, want this. Not me.”

He snaps. Screaming down the line like its a megaphone. I do not cry, not yet. I let him finish his pointless rant, I can feel the rage radiating off him

It looks great so far! Relating feelings to a hurricane is awesome! Tie that into the guy's anger? How does she plan on leaving her legacy?

It looks great so far! Relating feelings to a hurricane is awesome! Tie that into the guy's anger? How does she plan on leaving her legacy?

Seems to me that you'll do great, and earn a passing grade on this!

also i have been informed to tell @TheDistortionist to check his emails

Oops yeah, sorry, I got caught up in sending a long ass message to Zach- I type too much and am really slow at it too
Sorry again 😂

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

That reminds me of the character exchange thing we had a while back on this site
It was really fun and I wish we could bring it back

I can likely find it and put a list of names that I don't think I'm going to use now.

Think I might even post that list here just because I feel like it.

Oh?

I actually feel a minor bit of guilt for using Cale in that since he's not actually 100% mine; I have shared custody of him.

That reminds me of the character exchange thing we had a while back on this site
It was really fun and I wish we could bring it back

I can likely find it and put a list of names that I don't think I'm going to use now.

Think I might even post that list here just because I feel like it.

I attempted to look for it via the data vault, but came up short; I think that it might have been deleted by its creator….

Bro, I have no idea what you're talking about
But this is what I was talking about:
https://www.notebook.ai/forum/characters-board/character-exchange-closed

It looks great so far! Relating feelings to a hurricane is awesome! Tie that into the guy's anger? How does she plan on leaving her legacy?

Seems to me that you'll do great, and earn a passing grade on this!

thanks. she wants to be a career woman. and I'm not sure yet

also i have been informed to tell @TheDistortionist to check his emails

Oops yeah, sorry, I got caught up in sending a long ass message to Zach- I type too much and am really slow at it too
Sorry again 😂

and you're all good.

I can likely find it and put a list of names that I don't think I'm going to use now.

Think I might even post that list here just because I feel like it.

Oh?

• Peter Trainer
• Kevin “The Sage” Cromwell Standing 4' 10" tall, and heavily built with pink skin, this man has a cold-hearted feel about him. He has sunken blue eyes and his short, curly, white hair is braided. He usually wears old, elaborate clothes that are loose and flowing.
• Selena “The Hook” Duval
• Kate “The Cat” Walker
• Guinevere Walker (No relation to Kate)
• Dusty Lotus (Alias of someone)
• Coco Garmen
• Darrek Soi
• Waine (No last name)
• Harmon Lyre
• Jasmine Piccalilli
• Leriac Escar
• Ethan “E.” Scar
• Bast Aqena (Bast), Goddess of Fertility
• Ara (Eris), Goddess of Trickery
• Ovris (Hera), Goddess of Love
• Mathies Ververda
• Eliza Ververda
• Alexandre Devereux
• Gerard Tremaux
• Julienne Leroux
• Julienne Vigouroux
• Walter Wolfram
• Annemarie Laufer
• Erik Gusztav
• Rezso Viktor
• Jakob Sarolta
• Julianna Sarolta
• Alexa Franciska
• Julianna Franciska
• Christian Rhodes
• Christian Argos
• Jefferson Nash
• Kelly Sarlo
• Jasper Hugh
• Mia Dhow
• Anita Zane
• Marc Baldwin
• Lt. Ella Rivera
• Erik Vega
• Kurt Olan
• Quinn Efrem
• Owen Nyro
• Zane Moto
• Matt Zulu
• Trevor Paladin
• Lemslee Paladin
• Alto Hays
• Ursa Hilton
• Gil Curu
• Tara Kyle
• Albania Costner
• Anna Noir
• Kato Olea
• Ed Reune
• Eta Duval
• Nina Edo
• Eve Khan
• Diana Holm
• Maxi Ultra
• Alec Xero
• Leo Aqua
• Omani Palette
• Eve Cruz
• Nona Otaru
• Irma Kern
• Mia Kit
• Etta Foreman
• Raul Psalms
• Erma Pilaf
• Len Ner
• Sierra Raitt
• Cora Alda
• Myrna Hyde
• Yuri Marsh
• Ellen No
• Zeke Myrna
• Tracy Lyric
• Tracy Narrow
• Ella Iron
• Mimi Rapse
• Karo Gaye
• Chiwan Drew
• Scot Hessian
• Zero Iowa
• Leona LaFlora
• Ed D. Yeti
• Paul Luise
• Lin Seed
• Norbert Wellmen
• Carl Jones
• Rory Queen
• Oliver Allen
• Henry Jones
• Rebecca Dunn
• Wendy Clark
• Abigail Oswald
• Alice Spending
• Jessica Harris
• Lenore Melbroke
• Patrica Salt
• Rachel Cross

I impulse bought 320 cones of incense and loads of mochi. I am not okay

Hey, so could I get someone's advise on something? It's about a friend, 'n I'm starting to genuinely get worried about them. They've mentioned thoughts about self-harm, guilt over being a failure and more, panic attacks over school-related things… I wrote a whole lengthy thing to them, and hopefully it will help, but I want to know if it will, from someone else's opinion.

Yes. It will. Words can do a lot of damage, but if you use them correctly, they can also lift someone's spirits
Sometimes a little positivity and support from someone goes a long way. I'd say to be there for them as much as you can

I impulse bought 320 cones of incense and loads of mochi. I am not okay

This is such a mood. Just yesterday I had eighty dollars in my account.
Right now? I have seven.
Please don't come for me, I know it's not good to spend that much money in such a short amount of time but I will see something and I just g o t t a

Yes. It will. Words can do a lot of damage, but if you use them correctly, they can also lift someone's spirits
Sometimes a little positivity and support from someone goes a long way. I'd say to be there for them as much as you can

Okay
Can I still kinda,,,
just pm you what they said [for privacy, the usernames aren't included in screenshot] and what i said?
i wanna just double check that its all okay

Would anyone like to read something?