forum Mental health journal

Started March 02, 2020 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

tune

panic. fear.

nia.
what happened?

i was just reminded that my brother actually hates me and only talks to me when no one is around because he is ashamed of me.

oh nia… im sorry…
how have you come to the conclusion that he hates you?

we were sitting with a few other people and no one made conversation with me. i tried to join in and they ignored me. then i started having a panic attack and i asked him something and he screamed at me telling me to go away and he never understood how he was ever my friend and that he doesn't want to see me again and he started beating me up… no one stood up for me.

oh my lord… im sorry… maybe he was just in a bad mood? idk, im sorry i wasn't able to be here for you fecking forty minutes ago… rolling in on fifty…

_{this is why i know my dad will never understand why i cant have the wifi turned off at night…}

I got to wear short sleeves again today…

omg yay ella im so proud of you!

@philosophicalmess im so sorry and @NutEllaDraws great jobb!!!

Some days I think I look good, then the rest of the time I look ugly af and today I look ugly

honey you do not look ugly

clearly you do not know me.

someone as nice as you are literally could not look ugly

trust me honey you’re gorgeous and i don’t need to know you to say that

I just teared up a lil thank you

shadows aren’t casted when the sun goes down

having a really bad morning. but tried getting out of bed to make coffee and that’s my day-

Bad brain day all around ugh
I'm in that mood where I feel empty, but also like if I do anything people'll get mad at me.
Like, there's an empty body and that thought is the only thing bouncing around inside of it

I got up to make food, and that's probably the only thing I'll do today.