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@ElderGod-Icefire

I have experience with AA and AA meetings.
Interrupting them is fucking cruel.

You're not wrong, mate.

again, in my dad's words, "that is evil"

@Pickles group

YES we stan giant Sire Eris

I feel like you may be slightly overestimating exactly how big Sire is and I don't want to disappoint you

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Losing my power (and more importantly my internet) for a day was straight up debilitating.

10/10 not a fan
would not do again

@Althalosian-is-the-father book

So, um… what's dissociating like? Because I always thought it would be unlikely that I had it, but I started wondering when I found myself unlatching a door that that had nothing to do with what I was looking for and not remembering the walking up to it part. And this isn't a one time thing. But this one was more jarring than usual for some reason.

@The-Magician group

So, um… what's dissociating like? Because I always thought it would be unlikely that I had it, but I started wondering when I found myself unlatching a door that that had nothing to do with what I was looking for and not remembering the walking up to it part. And this isn't a one time thing. But this one was more jarring than usual for some reason.

From my own experiences, when you dissociate it's kind of like daydreaming or spacing out. You act different, or use a different tone of voice, or make different gestures. Of course, for others it might be slightly different

@RedTheLoveless

My experience with disassociating is kinda like putting my body in "Auto-Pilot" mode while my conscious mind just kinda disconnects from the material world around me.

The most stand-out moment of this happening was me getting some cereal for breakfast. That was my conscious mission. What I actually did?
I poured milk onto a plate.

@SpookyScarySnoteleks group

I just remembered that time I tried to heat up rice.
I ended up putting the butter, like this 2-lb. thing of butter, in the microwave and the rice in the fridge.
Then, as I was about to start heating it up, I realized.

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I get hardcore dissociation from my ptsd. usually it just feels like I'm spacing out and I know I am, but if I move or something distracts me I get really upset. Sometimes, when it's really bad, I start feeling like nothing is real, which usually triggers my panic disorder and sends me into a panic attack. Feeling like nothing is real is so, so, so much worse than it sounds. It's fucking terrifying and it hardly ever happens to me without me absolutely sobbing.

I dissociate at random times because of my ptsd, like I said– and that's because my brain thinks it has to protect me from something. For example, when I was still in the situation that caused my ptsd, I would hear a lot of yelling and physical abuse. So I would sort of zone out and try not to hear it. Now, if there's a random kind of loud noise like a door slamming, I dissociate because my brain automatically thinks "loud noise, fighting, space out, protect" even though nothing is wrong anymore. Dissociating is a defense mechanism our brains think will help us.

In really tough situations, like if I were go back to the place where my dad pulled a gun on me, I'd not only dissociate really hard (that nothing-is-real kind), but I'd also have a panic attack and flashbacks. Since the place he pulled a gun on me is a part of somewhere I still go, I'll start dissociating every time I get near that area, and that's usually a sign that I need to get away.

That was way more information than necessary lmao

@RedTheLoveless

Indeed. It's definitely more informative, in my opinion, to hear straight from a person who experiences the more serious side of the issue. And you explained it so… easily? It made a lot of sense.

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I agree with Miriam. It's a lot like that. Your brain just kinda shuts down conscious input but you still can/will react to outside stimulus.

For me it happens on a daily basis (not so much because of my meds nowadays but still every once in a while) it feels like a heavy fog over my brain and the zone out is intense. Because you're still capable of thought it's just kinda sluggish and unfocused–I would say 'relaxed' but you always kinda know in the back of your mind that something is very wrong you just dont care about getting out of it. The kicker is that it feels good and slipping into it is almost impossible to notice for someone with a disorder, like me. Half the time I don't even realize that I've dissociated until something knocks me out of it. And coming out of a dissociation spell is not fun, everything is loud and light hurts your eyes, your senses feel like they're in hyper drive but it's actually just normal. I get overwhelmed very quickly coming out of a spell and usually get a headache or feel physically ill. Most neuro-typicals would call people who dissociate 'jumpy'.

My mom put it this way when I was first diagnosed:

"The lights are on, but the person that is home is not my daughter."

Auto pilot in the extreme