I'll direct it at other people if you won't

laughing nervously who?

Not anyone in particular. Just- gestures to everyone

no i feel bad being mean to other people some i am letting people be mean to me

If we want to be mean to you, we'll do it. You don't need to "let" us
Edit: most of us collectively

ok then

i want to die

I could say the same, on occasion I feel that way too. It'll pass, it's literally nothing, dear.

i just dont feel like i am real

The moon landing wasn't real, and I don't believe that certain other things are existent, either. Often I wake up staring at my hand thinking of the miracle of its becoming.

same

Is this your way of telling you you've made some kind of alternate internet personality for yourself and you aren't actually insufferable in real life?

But it has a purpose for its existence, though I don't know what it is. I hate the fact that I'm that lost sometimes, but it happens.

The moon landing wasn't real, and I don't believe that certain other things are existent, either. Often I wake up staring at my hand thinking of the miracle of its becoming.

mmkay

The moon landing wasn't real, and I don't believe that certain other things are existent, either. Often I wake up staring at my hand thinking of the miracle of its becoming.

mmkay

Questioning my mind, are you? It's okay, haha. Just intrigued by it.

NO, Pickles my mom just came to my school and yelled at me for no reason

Sorrel true

The moon landing wasn't real, and I don't believe that certain other things are existent, either. Often I wake up staring at my hand thinking of the miracle of its becoming.

mmkay

Questioning my mind, are you? It's okay, haha. Just intrigued by it.

No I'm not intrigued by your mind at all. And I'm not questioning it either. I'm just done with you.

lol it's okay. My apologies if that went sour.

ok

NO, Pickles my mom just came to my school and yelled at me for no reason

Sorrel true

What happened to "fuck you self i dont have a mom"?

NO, Pickles my mom just came to my school and yelled at me for no reason

Sorrel true

What happened to "fuck you self i dont have a mom"?

lmao

MY STEP MOM I DON'T HAVE A REAL MOM!!!!!!!! MY DAD DIDN'T TELL ME OR MY SISTER THAT HE GOT MARRIED A WEEK AGO TO THIS LADY AND I AM BEING FORCE TO CALL HER MOM!!!!! IF YOU KNEW WHAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH YOU WOULD KNOW WHY I DON'T HAVE A REAL MOM!!!!!!!!

You know, its hard to deal with a step-parent sometimes, especially when it's unexpected, but a little respect wouldn't do you any harm.

i just met her this morning

You can't expect us to know what's going on in your life if you refuse to talk about it

because i dont like to

Well then don't yell at us when we don't know.

Sorry.

I accept your apology.

Thank You.

Not gonna lie Deva, I sympathize with your situation. But at the same time, maybe try two things.
One, give your new stepmom a chance to prove herself to you.
Two, maybe try to politely voice to your dad and to her that the whole situation is uncomfortable, and you would rather not call her by that term yet, and maybe suggest something else you would be more comfortable with calling her? If you have to, writing a formal letter to voice your concerns might be helpful…

thanks