_{im scared}

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right not, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

I've gone through 2 boxes of tissues in 2 days, yaaaayyyyy-

why

if it's because you're crying i will square up

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right not, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

_{hugs sent}

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

I've gone through 2 boxes of tissues in 2 days, yaaaayyyyy-

why

if it's because you're crying i will square up

No it's not I just have a head cold

I've gone through 2 boxes of tissues in 2 days, yaaaayyyyy-

why

if it's because you're crying i will square up

No it's not I just have a head cold

okay good

well

not good

but yaknow

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

Tell me about things, I'll listen to everything. I got time to kill before I can finish my hair

My brother was first chair snare at state, did you see him?

Is his name Ethan?

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

Tell me about things, I'll listen to everything. I got time to kill before I can finish my hair

_{i am scared for nia, im scared for jake, im scared for my friend at school who got on the bus this morning bleeding and with a black eye and im scared for myself.}

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

Tell me about things, I'll listen to everything. I got time to kill before I can finish my hair

_{i am scared for nia, im scared for jake, im scared for my friend at school who got on the bus this morning bleeding and with a black eye and im scared for myself.}

That really sucks. I'm sending all the love I can to you and your friends.

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

Tell me about things, I'll listen to everything. I got time to kill before I can finish my hair

_{i am scared for nia, im scared for jake, im scared for my friend at school who got on the bus this morning bleeding and with a black eye and im scared for myself.}

That really sucks. I'm sending all the love I can to you and your friends.

_{send the love to @iGuessImBack … he needs it after what happened to nia…}

_{im scared}

what happened nia? (i have to go rn but i'll be back as soon as i can!)

_{so many things happened…}

Tell me about things, I'll listen to everything. I got time to kill before I can finish my hair

_{i am scared for nia, im scared for jake, im scared for my friend at school who got on the bus this morning bleeding and with a black eye and im scared for myself.}

That really sucks. I'm sending all the love I can to you and your friends.

_{send the love to @iGuessImBack … he needs it after what happened to nia…}

I'm sending all my love. Do you want to tell me what happened? I'm here to listen to everything. It sounds like a lot to carry by yourself.

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right not, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

_{hugs sent}

_{thank you…}

I'm here to listen to everything. It sounds like a lot to carry by yourself.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right not, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

_{hugs sent}

_{thank you…}

big love sent

I'm here to listen to everything. It sounds like a lot to carry by yourself.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

_{izzy, made sure jake is okay… you can say its about nia but just please make sure he is okay}

@insanity if you could actually tell us what the hell is going on that'd be great

_{thank you xander…}

_{and i will. also, who am i talking to? i don't think it's nia anymore, so i'm just checking}

My brother was first chair snare at state, did you see him?

Is his name Ethan?

Nope. Are there multiple all states in different places so people don't have to travel so far?

My brother was first chair snare at state, did you see him?

Is his name Ethan?

Nope. Are there multiple all states in different places so people don't have to travel so far?

I dunno. I was in Jr. All State, so that may be it. (I wasn't tryin to b tricky, I just forgot that All-State was a whole other thing)

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right now, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

big big hugs

whenever I'm having trouble finding a reason to keep going, I think about my favorite people in the whole world. People who have truly changed my life. All the time we've spent together, all the laughs we've shared, all the hard times we've endured together, and all the warm hugs.
I remember just how much they mean to me, and how much I enjoy their presence.
then I take a moment to imagine what my life would be like without them…

if I were to give up, i'd never get to see them again. Their smiles, their jokes, that stupid little "pro-vegan salute" they made up just for your friendship…
it'd all be gone
forever

not only that, but those amazing people…? they would be left permanently torn apart, having such an important friend/family member taken away from them so early…
something people often forget is that in most cases, your loved ones would be just as heartbroken if they lost you as you would losing them. it doesn't matter what you've done in the past or how long it's been since you've last spoken, they would miss you so much more then you could ever understand…
you are so important to them.

…and so that's why I keep going
even though I don't see any hope for myself or my future
I see those people
those people mean everything
even just one of them is worth every little pain life could throw at me
and if staying through it would make them happy, then by gosh hecking golly i'm gonna stay here until God himself tears me off this planet with the force of a billion possessed hungry vampire ants-
_{or at least that's what i tell myself}

_{sorry for the long, late reply, i seem to have gotten a little carried away with the keyboard there}

@insanity if you could actually tell us what the hell is going on that'd be great

Could you be anymore calloused?

@insanity if you could actually tell us what the hell is going on that'd be great

Could you be anymore calloused?

_{it’s okay, i brought it upon myself…}

Eh. Not really.

_{sorry for the long, late reply, i seem to have gotten a little carried away with the keyboard there}

it's okay ella
i understand
thank you <3
i'm feeling much better now

My brother was first chair snare at state, did you see him?

Is his name Ethan?

Nope. Are there multiple all states in different places so people don't have to travel so far?

I dunno. I was in Jr. All State, so that may be it. (I wasn't tryin to b tricky, I just forgot that All-State was a whole other thing)

Could you… Live in different states?

_{i'm not having a good time with my mental state right now, can i just have hugs and inspiration to keep going?}

big big hugs

whenever I'm having trouble finding a reason to keep going, I think about my favorite people in the whole world. People who have truly changed my life. All the time we've spent together, all the laughs we've shared, all the hard times we've endured together, and all the warm hugs.
I remember just how much they mean to me, and how much I enjoy their presence.
then I take a moment to imagine what my life would be like without them…

if I were to give up, i'd never get to see them again. Their smiles, their jokes, that stupid little "pro-vegan salute" they made up just for your friendship…
it'd all be gone
forever

not only that, but those amazing people…? they would be left permanently torn apart, having such an important friend/family member taken away from them so early…
something people often forget is that in most cases, your loved ones would be just as heartbroken if they lost you as you would losing them. it doesn't matter what you've done in the past or how long it's been since you've last spoken, they would miss you so much more then you could ever understand…
you are so important to them.

…and so that's why I keep going
even though I don't see any hope for myself or my future
I see those people
those people mean everything
even just one of them is worth every little pain life could throw at me
and if staying through it would make them happy, then by gosh hecking golly i'm gonna stay here until God himself tears me off this planet with the force of a billion possessed hungry vampire ants-
_{or at least that's what i tell myself}

Whenever someone says they're sad, I have to help because that person could be the best gosh darn person on the planet, but they might not have anybody there for them. I know that when I used to not have friends, I wanted someone to listen to me. We've all been through some dark times, but I want everybody to see that it gets better. My two best friends in the world killed themselves last year, and I just wish I had been there to help, but they never asked me for help. I'll try to help every person who asks.