I don't know why but I feel like crying right now or maybe kinda punching a wall and I don't know why because I know my mom is probably just driving or her phone is possibly dead and she doesn't know or some crap like that.

She still hasn't responded and didn't pick up when I called her I'm really really hoping her phone is just dead cause I'm actually worried because normally she would've texted by now to check in on me and I'm actually scared…

Oh. Yeah it's probably fine. But I get the whole mood.

kinda wanna take a bath for the first time in like six years {because I have a bath bomb and I'm sick} but idk

Plus I feel like a hOt ShOwEr could help clear up my sinuses lmaoooooooo

I'm literally 75

Everyone feel better now

kinda wanna take a bath for the first time in like six years {because I have a bath bomb and I'm sick} but idk

Plus I feel like a hOt ShOwEr could help clear up my sinuses lmaoooooooo

I'm literally 75

Shower. Then take a bath.

kinda wanna take a bath for the first time in like six years {because I have a bath bomb and I'm sick} but idk

Plus I feel like a hOt ShOwEr could help clear up my sinuses lmaoooooooo

I'm literally 75

Shower. Then take a bath.

I like the way you think.

So.. my mom did respond to my second call, and it was a combo of she didn't see the first text and bad traffic and driving…
But now I wanna cry because I feel once again like the stupid fucking idiot who cannot for the life of me do a single thing right.

Fuck it I am crying.

I almost wish my family hadn't come home. then I wouldn't have had the opportunity to fuck up the end to everyones day.

Wolfheart, I will keep you in mind as I shower and take a bath

Fuck it I am crying.

If I could I would comfort you. It's okay to feel what you were feeling. It way be irrational, but it's not your fault.

I feel like it kinda is, but at the same time I KNOW it's not since this happens WAY more often than is really healthy and I probably need an actual therapist, but FUCK if Imma talk to my mother.

I get it, dude.

Not to be rude, but you aren't me, therefore you cannot truly "get it" but I appreciate the sympathy.

i already miss Jay, help

Um…
this isn't me venting, but well, uh, I have a message from Jay. You may or may not know her, but her tag is @Jay-Marae-is-in-an-emotional-maze and uh, I don't want to be the bearer of bad news, but here's the message. -deep breath in preparation to copy paste this-

Hey, I don’t know when you’re going to see this, but I just wanted to let you know that I won’t be on Notebook anymore unfortunately. My mom found out, went through all my messages and a couple of chats including the Rudeness Chat, and saw some swearing and stuff. She yelled at me and told me some random bs about how I don’t know these people and they’re swearing and there could be a predator or some crap, and now I’m banned. Don’t you love it when you’re parents give you no privacy or freedom and go through personal stuff with some personal feelings because you don’t like people looking over your shoulder at your screen so they feel the very rude need to look through your entire laptop, making you trust them even less because you don’t trust them with your feelings anyways? Fun. Anyways, if anyone asks tell them I miss them and I really hope one day I can come back on. Love ya’ll. ~Jay

IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY WE CAN TALK TO HER???

freshly shaved legs + heated blanket = h e a v e n

facts ngl

IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY WE CAN TALK TO HER???

Well… yes but right now I don't exactly feel comfortable with sharing a link to a google document that has my private email on it to just anyone who happens to be viewing this thread…

I'd be okay with PMing several people with the link, though, as long as I know that that link stays specifically between those people.

IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY WE CAN TALK TO HER???

Well… yes but right now I don't exactly feel comfortable with sharing a link to a google document that has my private email on it to just anyone who happens to be viewing this thread…

I'd be okay with PMing several people with the link, though, as long as I know that that link stays specifically between those people.

PM me senpai

KEN VANCE DIED

Well I mean he was like 79..

YES BUT HE'S A HERO

how do you know who Ken Vance is–

YES BUT HE'S A HERO

how do you know who Ken Vance is–

Because I don’t live under a rock

YES BUT HE'S A HERO

how do you know who Ken Vance is–

Because I don’t live under a rock

SEE HE'S A HERO

YES BUT HE'S A HERO

how do you know who Ken Vance is–

Because I don’t live under a rock

SEE HE'S A HERO

No? I just don’t live under a rock and I google random shit like lists of car dealers, known drug dealers.. stuff like that

well i do live under a rock and my google isn't working who is he

well i do live under a rock and my google isn't working who is he

a car salesman

ah.