forum What be your fears?

Started December 20, 2019 by @Nie-Huaisang-is-lost-in-the-stars group

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1. Needles.
2. Not really a fear, but sharp objects anywhere on my arm but especially close to my wrists trigger me.
3. being forgotten. Big fear of mine.

Yup- me. That's me.

yall are confessing deep fears and i'm like _{i'm scared of dropping my phone in one of those automatically flushing toilets like what if it flushes while i'm trying to get my phone??}

_{that's a totally valid fear and now that you mention it… what would happen?}

yall are confessing deep fears and i'm like _{i'm scared of dropping my phone in one of those automatically flushing toilets like what if it flushes while i'm trying to get my phone??}

_{that's a totally valid fear and now that you mention it… what would happen?}

_{I DON'T KNOW and that's why it scares me}

Oh okay:

• Spiders
• Being abandoned
• That my friends don't actually like me and just pretend to
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  Rape and sexual assault
• Dying without accomplishing anything meaningful/not leaving my mark on the world
• Being forgotten
• Nursing homes, kind of. I don't hate them or anything, but they make me really uncomfortable and like I need to escape
• Honestly like…myself? That I'll lose control and force everyone away from me and make horrible choices
• Being all on my own

yall are confessing deep fears and i'm like _{i'm scared of dropping my phone in one of those automatically flushing toilets like what if it flushes while i'm trying to get my phone??}

_{that's a totally valid fear and now that you mention it… what would happen?}

_{I DON'T KNOW and that's why it scares me}

_{it would probably either be too big or go bye bye. Maybe clog the toilet. Probably, if it went down}

• That my friends don't actually like me and just pretend to

This is a really big fear of mine too. Because, you know, it happens.

yall are confessing deep fears and i'm like _{i'm scared of dropping my phone in one of those automatically flushing toilets like what if it flushes while i'm trying to get my phone??}

K but that’s super valid and lowkey a fear of mine

• That my friends don't actually like me and just pretend to

This is a really big fear of mine too. Because, you know, it happens.

Sameeeee. Except normally it's over the littlest things like "(name) didn't want a hug from me so they must hate me" or something like that

Dying and having nobody care. It's a little stupid, because I'm dead… but it kind of scares me in general. Just the whole thing…

Welp just remembered another one, fear of constantly breaking my legs. Just the little jumps onto the ground and landing, or when my leg falls asleep and I try walking. I just am constantly terrified… yay..

Dying and having nobody care. It's a little stupid, because I'm dead… but it kind of scares me in general. Just the whole thing…

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Dying and having nobody care. It's a little stupid, because I'm dead… but it kind of scares me in general. Just the whole thing…

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Oof, I don't even know what I was trying to say, but auto correct had other plans…WAIT now I know, as in, if I WAS dead, then it wouldn't matter.

OH. What do you think happens after death?

Well, I mean, _{don't anybody take this the wrong way} I'm a Christian so I believe we either go to Heaven or hell.

Oh. Same.

See, as an atheist, death is scary because I believe that when you die, you just… Die. It's over. Nothing happens. You're just gone.

Yeah, honestly death is just scary in general. If you aren't secretly scared of it, then you must have gone through some deep crap.

Sad to say there was a long period of time during my life where I was far from scared of death.

That’s not good… but if it came up to the point where someone had held a gun to your head, would you really not be scared?

She would be scared. Humans are addicted to life and have a very strong tendency to hold on to it.

But personally, if death was really the end I would probably care less. If nothing mattered.

That’s not good… but if it came up to the point where someone had held a gun to your head, would you really not be scared?

At that time in my life, yeah, not gonna lie lmao.

Dying and having nobody care. It's a little stupid, because I'm dead… but it kind of scares me in general. Just the whole thing…

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That was my first thought, too

See, as an atheist, death is scary because I believe that when you die, you just… Die. It's over. Nothing happens. You're just gone.

For me it's the opposite…
I am a very devout Catholic, and I thoroughly believe that there is an afterlife.
Honestly, with all the little signs I've seen, it almost seems stupid not to think so

…however, if I'm being completely honest, I really do hope I'm wrong…

the possibility of an afterlife seems absolutely terrifying, and no, i'm not just talking about hell

existing forever anywhere scares me beyond reasoning, even living for more than 10 years already feels like too long, so just the thought of being stuck in one place forever, with nothing changing, nothing to look forward to, nothing to look back on, just existing for all eternity with no end…
it's worse than any hell i could ever imagine

but it's something i'll have to face
i can cry and scream all i want but no matter what, i can't undo my existence
i'll be here forever

i know, i wouldn't feel this way if i was in heaven…
i'd be happy…
i'd want to live forever…
right?

but what about my friends? family? loved ones?
i can't save them all, some people are going to burn no matter how hard i try, so even if i do end up in heaven, the people i care about will still suffer, and it doesn't seem possible to be happy knowing they're in pain-
i know, i know, god's capabilities are far outside what humans consider possible, i'd be happy regardless, but honestly that sounds even worse???
am i just going to forget them?
or will i move on, knowing they're in hell, and not feel a single bit of sorrow?

i'd just be constantly living in a superficial sense of joy forever…
_{and ever…}

_{and ever…}

…and that's absolutely terrifying to me.

i wish it was different
i wish i could simply stop existing, vanish entirely as if I was never born
but nope
i can't
and there's not a thing i can do to change it

See, as an atheist, death is scary because I believe that when you die, you just… Die. It's over. Nothing happens. You're just gone.

For me it's the opposite…
I am a very devout Catholic, and I thoroughly believe that there is an afterlife.
Honestly, with all the little signs I've seen, it almost seems stupid not to think so

…however, if I'm being completely honest, I really do hope I'm wrong…

the possibility of an afterlife seems absolutely terrifying, and no, i'm not just talking about hell

existing forever anywhere scares me beyond reasoning, even living for more than 10 years already feels like too long, so just the thought of being stuck in one place forever, with nothing changing, nothing to look forward to, nothing to look back on, just existing for all eternity with no end…
it's worse than any hell i could ever imagine

but it's something i'll have to face
i can cry and scream all i want but no matter what, i can't undo my existence
i'll be here forever

i know, i wouldn't feel this way if i was in heaven…
i'd be happy…
i'd want to live forever…
right?

but what about my friends? family? loved ones?
i can't save them all, some people are going to burn no matter how hard i try, so even if i do end up in heaven, the people i care about will still suffer, and it doesn't seem possible to be happy knowing they're in pain-
i know, i know, god's capabilities are far outside what humans consider possible, i'd be happy regardless, but honestly that sounds even worse???
am i just going to forget them?
or will i move on, knowing they're in hell, and not feel a single bit of sorrow?

i'd just be constantly living in a superficial sense of joy forever…
_{and ever…}

_{and ever…}

…and that's absolutely terrifying to me.

i wish it was different
i wish i could simply stop existing, vanish entirely as if I was never born
but nope
i can't
and there's not a thing i can do to change it

This ^^^^ is part of why even as a Christian I'm scared of the afterlife.
Also I'm scared that (since I kind of believe in Heaven and Hell) that what if I'm doing this all wrong and I'm going to end up in Hell anyway? Or what if I end up in Heaven but feel like I don't belong there still?

Being accused of a crime that I didn't commit. Because I used to be like, oh that would be fine they'd know I didn't do it, but like… The system isn't perfect and I could very well be locked up for something I didn't do

Also I'm scared that (since I kind of believe in Heaven and Hell) that what if I'm doing this all wrong and I'm going to end up in Hell anyway? Or what if I end up in Heaven but feel like I don't belong there still?

Unlikely. The reasoning behind what you do matters as much as what you do. (In my opinion.) And that second Paarl is even more unlikely.

I'm not scared of death itself, even though I'm not super devout I do believe in an afterlife and stuff, but I'm scared of dying without achieving anything. I just don't want to be useless.

You aren't completely useless. Someone has to like Victor. Besides Henry, I mean

I mean, I like Victor. And Nich even more.