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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Hey, can you guys please just yell at me for a moment?
Thank you

Ella I will not yell at you unless there is very very valid reason, which I highly doubt there is. What's up?

I kind of need to get a grip regarding something and yelling at myself isn’t working

Regarding what, unless you'd rather not say?

Regarding what, unless you'd rather not say?

yeah, you don't have to tell us but we are here if you want to talk to us <3

SO. Connor. CJ. CJ and them have been dating for like oh, a few months? Over the summer, into last school year and into this school year. I went to summer school with Connor. He was constantly hitting on me, though he gave CJ a promise ring right? Right. Anyways. He caused me and my boyfriend to nearly break up 3 times. And so then let's fast forward. CJ fucked Connors best friend right? She thought he was getting bored of her, and reassured her he wasn't, things went silent. Then a few days later they break up and it turns out, he was cheating anyways. Also I'm crying right now because of one of my closest friends.

Well… Uhhh…
_{I have a problem that I really can’t talk about, been dealing with it for years now, and the weight of it only really hit me a few months ago… To most people, it wouldn’t be considered a big deal, but I’m worried if I’m unable to stop, things might get worse and develop into a much, much bigger problem which I, personally, would rather avoid. I’ve tried everything I can to force myself to give up this issue, from taking baby steps and giving myself all sorts of positive messages/motivation/advice, to tears, distractions, and inflicting minor pain upon myself… I can’t really give much more detail than that but I’m thinking maybe if other people yell at me instead of me yelling at myself then maybe things might be more effective…???}

_{I really don’t know}

_{I’m tired}

_{Please don’t judge me too harshly}

_{Note: with my extremely vague wording it probably sounds way worse than it really is, I swear I’m not doing anything illegal or life-threatening, don’t worry}

Well… Uhhh…
_{I have a problem that I really can’t talk about, been dealing with it for years now, and the weight of it only really hit me a few months ago… To most people, it wouldn’t be considered a big deal, but I’m worried if I’m unable to stop, things might get worse and develop into a much, much bigger problem which I, personally, would rather avoid. I’ve tried everything I can to force myself to give up this issue, from taking baby steps and giving myself all sorts of positive messages/motivation/advice, to tears, distractions, and inflicting minor pain upon myself… I can’t really give much more detail than that but I’m thinking maybe if other people yell at me instead of me yelling at myself then maybe things might be more effective…???}

_{I really don’t know}

_{I’m tired}

_{Please don’t judge me too harshly}

_{Note: with my extremely vague wording it probably sounds way worse than it really is, I swear I’m not doing anything illegal or life-threatening, don’t worry}

hey i can't yell at you, only remind you that you're amazing and wonderful and deserve the world, pm's are always open if you need anyone

SO. Connor. CJ. CJ and them have been dating for like oh, a few months? Over the summer, into last school year and into this school year. I went to summer school with Connor. He was constantly hitting on me, though he gave CJ a promise ring right? Right. Anyways. He caused me and my boyfriend to nearly break up 3 times. And so then let's fast forward. CJ fucked Connors best friend right? She thought he was getting bored of her, and reassured her he wasn't, things went silent. Then a few days later they break up and it turns out, he was cheating anyways. Also I'm crying right now because of one of my closest friends.

oh sweetie, it's okay, you can get through this <3

I went to grab the phone which he stole to give to back my other friend he stole from me, not knowing that it was on the floor and not between his legs. All I saw was the fact that he put a phone between his legs. So then Jakob punches me in the stomach, and in the arm, and in the ribs, and now I'm curled up in a corner crying.

Well… Uhhh…
_{I have a problem that I really can’t talk about, been dealing with it for years now, and the weight of it only really hit me a few months ago… To most people, it wouldn’t be considered a big deal, but I’m worried if I’m unable to stop, things might get worse and develop into a much, much bigger problem which I, personally, would rather avoid. I’ve tried everything I can to force myself to give up this issue, from taking baby steps and giving myself all sorts of positive messages/motivation/advice, to tears, distractions, and inflicting minor pain upon myself… I can’t really give much more detail than that but I’m thinking maybe if other people yell at me instead of me yelling at myself then maybe things might be more effective…???}

_{I really don’t know}

_{I’m tired}

_{Please don’t judge me too harshly}

_{Note: with my extremely vague wording it probably sounds way worse than it really is, I swear I’m not doing anything illegal or life-threatening, don’t worry}

oh darling, i'm not going to yell at you because you are so sweet and amazing and gorgeous <3
pm's are open hun.

Ella honey, whatever it is I don't think yelling is the right approach. I'd say talk through it but I totally get it if you'd rather pm or not at all, I'm definitely not going to make you talk if you don't want to. Don't treat yourself too harshly though, we've all got stuff and most of the courage goes into acknowledging it.

I went to grab the phone which he stole to give to back my other friend he stole from me, not knowing that it was on the floor and not between his legs. All I saw was the fact that he put a phone between his legs. So then Jakob punches me in the stomach, and in the arm, and in the ribs, and now I'm curled up in a corner crying.

ev omg are you okay?!
thats not okay, they shouldnt be doing that.
pm's are wide open if you want to talk hun <3

It's fine…he whispered sorry to me when walking by. But now I'm starving myself instead of eating because the fucking lunch lady wouldn't let me get food to eat in class. Stupid administrators. I'm also now in constant mental breakdown mode. Just another day of personal hell.

oh no darl, thats fucking horrible.. im so sorry

It's whatever. Pretty used to it. Life has been treating me suspiciously good up until oh a little while ago, so definitely expected things to go to shit.

Ella honey. Shame and guilt are the WORST motivators you could ever possibly use. I've seen people shame and guilt themselves into a hole and it's not pretty.
Come to my PM for a little privacy. We can talk there if you want my beautiful angel

Also Evs that's some tea.
I'm sure you'll get through it though.
I bewwieve in u

Dad i got punched in the stomach today over a stupid phone and didn't eat so I need some hugs.

Oh and last night I only ate icecream for dinner as an award for doing a whole entire essay in under an hour and not bsing it

Dad i got punched in the stomach today over a stupid phone and didn't eat so I need some hugs.

Who do I need to destroy son?
hugs tight

Here, I'll just pm you the story

And I'll reply to our RP

I'm gonna start waking up earlier so I can see more of this while It's still happening lol… Ev, that's assault. I can't give you a lot of advice because if it had happened to me, my first reflex would've been to fight back. I'm glad you didn't do that, though… I was brought up by a military parent and therefore have been taught a bit differently than most people lol. But seriously. Assault. Not okay.

Don't worry, I'm kicking his ass after school. Or well, at least giving him the best yelling at I can.

Don't hit him… I speak from experience when I say that. Then you've technically assaulted him too. But you can and should yell. Tip: Dial 911 on your phone like you're going to call it, but don't press call, and show him that… That should freak him out. You actually could tell the police if you wanted to. That's assault, like I keep saying lol

I don't have a phone. I have a shitty school computer.

Okay! Then threaten to call when you get home. But be careful not to make him too angry if it's possible he'd hurt you again.

DoNt CaLl 911 If ItS nOt An EmErGeNcY uSe ThE nOn EmErGeNcY nUmBeR if you're going to do the 911 scare thing make sure you don't accidentally call

This is the first time he's ever hurt me, other than way too tight hugs so I don't think it'll be too big of an issue. But gotta nip it at the bud ya know?

DoNt CaLl 911 If ItS nOt An EmErGeNcY uSe ThE nOn EmErGeNcY nUmBeR if you're going to do the 911 scare thing make sure you don't accidentally call

^^^^^^^