forum one on one?

Started June 04, 2019 by @Fenrir

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"in that case, yes it was dangerous. But I won't let you get hurt again. It's ok to let your guard down around me. I nor anyone else is going to hurt you."

Nathaniel was trembling for a few seconds, biting his lip as tears pooled in his blue eyes. He buried his face in V's shoulder, sobbing quietly. "I-I just want them to know I'm worth s-something even though I can't fly! I'm… I-I'm not useless! I'm n-not…"

"oh my darling…" He said softly "you're worth more than you think. And you're not useless. They made a mistake kicking you out, they'll see that soon."

Nathaniel held tightly to V. "I-I just want them to be proud of me…" He whispered, his voice breaking.

"they are my love. They are." He kissed his head softly and rubbed his back gently

"No… n-no they're not…" Nathaniel tried and failed to control his breathing. I knew I shouldn't have let my guard down… I've got years of fucking bitterness.

"how do you know, hm?" He asked patiently, lightly stroking his wings

"My parents were never fucking proud of me! N-Not when I was making weapons or trying my best to do anything, and especially not when I crippled myself. I'm… I-I'm nothing to them… n-nothing…" Nathaniel gripped the fabric of V's shirt, trembling violently and still sobbing.

V sighed and glared skywards "I hope you're happy." He growled softly. He glanced down a Nathaniel and stroked his hair, not knowing what to say or do

Nathaniel pulled himself closer to V, wrapping his legs around the other's waist again as he cried. "And Lloyd… oh god… it was all my f-fault…"

(hhaaaiiiii and ya)
V held him tight against his chest "nothing is you're fault love. You didn't choose to get hurt or to get kicked out. And the decisions you did make were to better yourself. Those who truely care about you would and will see that." He said " like me!"

"B-But Lloyd, he… he died trying to save me…" Nathaniel whispered, gripping the fabric of V's shirt tightly. "It's my fault he d-died…"
(Lloyd was his older brother btw)

V shook his head again "no, it's not. You shouldn't blame yourself for his death. He chose to risk his life to save yours. He does knowing you were able to live." He said, stroking his back soothingly

(Lol)
"I-I should have helped him… I was just completely frozen in terror. I was only about eight, and I wasn't ready to be out there yet…"

"you would have only been putting yourself in more danger." V reasoned "tell me more about Lloyde, what was he like?"

"He was… h-he was really smart, and he pretended like things were always just business to him, but h-he was really protective of me because I was so young… He was only about fifteen when he d-died…"

V nodded, listening to what Nathaniel told him, saddened that the young man he described died so young. " I'm sorry,"

"M-My parents always liked him better than me, and they were perfectly happy to blame me for his d-death…" Nathaniel hiccuped, shaking. "They… t-they don't love me anymore…"

"they do, they're just having a hard time coping. They lost both their sons." He said, stroking his hair "none of this is you're fault. Just give it time."

Nathaniel hugged V tightly, hiding his tear streaked face. He didn't really believe V, but he didn't know what else to say. His parents definitely didn't seem to care about him anymore.

(thats knew)
V sighed, knowing his words would bring no comfort. "Oh beautiful creature, what am I going to do with you." he muttered, nuzzling his hair and kissing his head

(Oh I haven't introduced you to part two, electric boogaloo memes lol)
"I wanna cuddle…" Nathaniel said quietly, his voice a bit muffled. He wrapped his legs around V's waist again.

(I'm on a whole new level of confused)
He blushed slightly "then we will cuddle." he said glancing down at him and brushing aside hair

(It's a meme XD)
"I'm sorry I'm being so whiny… m-my life's probably not even that bad compared to most people." Nathaniel winced a bit as he disturbed his injuries again.

"It's ok, I don't mind. Gives me a chance to know you on a level I otherwise wouldn't have known of." he said gently

Nathaniel evaluated the position he was sitting in on V, feeling rather small. "Yeah, I guess… you probably could've asked and I'd have told you without breaking down, though…"