forum Painted Dreams//OPEN!!//One-On-One

Started May 02, 2019 by @StarkSpangledMayflower_Mad_Elder

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He let out a little laugh. It was fake obviously. His throat burned, nothing came out. He looked at the ground and smiled at himself in disbelief.
"heh, so i guess i can't….. hug you?"
He looked up at her gorgeous face.
Why did'nt i relish her more. Shes so incredible….
He thought to himself. Even thinking about it hurt his chest so badly.
He had to hold himself back from hugging her without permission… along with the tears. He was so afriad they would fall down his cheek, he didn't want to show her that he was sad. Although he already failed, He looked in her beautiful eyes and sighed.
"I-Im sorry…."

(Do you really think that Im going to make him hurt even more?!
the answer is yes… yes i will)

She stepped closer and wrapped her arms around him. "I'm sorry," she repeated again, not bothering to hide her own tears.

As if on cue, the clouds rumbled with thunder and flashed with lightning. The rain came down with a vengeance as the howling wind faded into a whisper. Crashing against the apartment window, the weather outside replicated the mood inside the small room. Tears formed and danced as they rolled off her face and onto the bare ground. The welcoming aura of the small, cozy apartment now hostile a d emotions went to war with each other as the young couple controlled their grief as best as they could.

He haunches over and hugs her tightly
"what did i do wrong? Please i can fix it….."
His voice cracks and shakes. Tears suddenly start to stream out of his eyes. He couldn't hold it back any longer.
It hurt to badly. His throat hurt like hes been crying for days. His arms shaking as he hugged her.
"Let me fix it…. please"
His voice cracks once more. His eyes red. His blonde eyelashes were already soaked, along with his cheeks.
He didn't want to let her go. He never wanted to, from the moment he met her….. he told himself not to…. and this is why.
"im so sorry….."
He whispered shakily, his voice so weak. He normally sounded so confident, so sure of himself, not heartbroken, shaking like this.
This wasnt him, this isnt what he does. He shouldnt be crying like this…. over a girl nonetheless.
He couldnt help it. He loved her so much….. but he had to let go.

Robin hated herself for eternity for breaking his heart. "I'm so sorry… I'm so so sorry…" she whispered faintly. "I never wanted to hurt you like this… I'm sorry…"

He lets go of her. He knew he eventually had to but right as he did he instantly regretted it.
His chest hurt so bad, he felt as if a someone had just slowly placed a boulder on his chest. He wanted to push the boulder off but he was to weak. He couldn't breathe, he could speak. All he could do was cry. He looked at the wet ground. thunder crackling, making the ground below him shake. He felt like his eyes were swollen from a bee sting.
His throat stung like one to. He didn't want to be here…. He wanted to vanish…. At least that's what he wanted his emotions to do. He didn't want a boulder on his chest. He didn't want to get stung by the bee. He didn't want to be there, in the middle of a park, where they had they're heart to heart conversation. Right there on the bench next to them. The rain was soaking his clothes. He gave her his umbrella that he brought along.
He thought he was going to share it with her as he held her and they would walk home. He was just an unsuspecting victim of heartbreak.
He felt like his lungs were collapsing and his heart stopped pumping blood. He missed the times where every single time he saw her sweet smile his heart started racing, and every time he saw her face he would find her even prettier than the day before. Ever single time he would talk to her… He would feel like he's falling in love with her, all over again. That was his favorite feeling….
Her.
"I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy. Keep the damn umbrella. "
He said as he postured up and walked away.
He felt like an abandoned puppy in the rain, it's fur getting soaked a it weakly cracks back into its little box.
Yearning for his owner to come back to love him as if he never stopped.
He stopped walking and just sat on the bench and looked up to the sky. He let the rain fall on his already freezing face. He felt as through his tears would freeze on his freckled cheeks. The cold air made his nose hurt whenever he breathes. His legs felt like they were about to give out, he let out a receiving sigh when he sat down. In the same bench where he knew for the first time, that he was so madly in love with her.
Even though his body was freezing, he didn't let out a single shiver. He was already drained.
why couldn't I make her happy… Why
He thought miserably to himself.
"Why"
He manages to let the word slide through his throat. It was like he just stabbed himself with that single word. The rain felt like needles hitting his skin then sinking into it.
don't let me go….

(Hey, Lynn, do you want to do a private rp with Soeng-Jin and Robin? Because I'm depressed with this breakup.)

Same tho. So yes.

Dude I just realized that I posted a oaragraoh if another one if NY characters instead of Seong Jin I bet that was confusing im so sorry. I am playing as seong jin and not the girl. I'm so sorry do you want me to post his paragraph. (btw sorry for any misses or anything it's kind if hard doing this in a phone)

(Hey, Lynn, do you want to do a private rp with Soeng-Jin and Robin? Because I'm depressed with this breakup.)

Same tho. So yes.

(Okay, yay! I can make it later.)

Dude I just realized that I posted a oaragraoh if another one if NY characters instead of Seong Jin I bet that was confusing im so sorry. I am playing as seong jin and not the girl. I'm so sorry do you want me to post his paragraph. (btw sorry for any misses or anything it's kind if hard doing this in a phone)

I think you're good.

Robin watched him go, fighting the urge to run after him. She closed her eyes and let out a soft sob. I'm so sorry… I never wanted to hurt you…

(this is so depressing)

He looks over at her, tears just flowing through his eyes yet with a blank face. It hurt so bad, the tears stung like acid. He wanted to just sit there with her and hold her….
He knew he couldn't though.
The lightning flashed lighting up the whole park for a second. His hair flashed white, his blue eyes looking so sadly… Directly at the girl.
He got up slowly, stepping in the puddle getting his brand new shoes dirty. He didn't care… He had worn one if his nicest outfits for their date… It's ruined, but he doesn't care. He walks away as a car slashed by. Soaking him even more, but.. He didn't care. He looked back on last time at her, then he vanished into the misty darkness and loneliness. He felt as if he had just died, as if that boulder finally killed him. Do you know why they call it a "crush"? Because sooner or later they crush your heart and soul. Leaving you with no will to live, no emotional feeling, feeling that you have no meaning in life. He was the tiny ant that got stepped on for fun by all if the kids. He was the puppy that was kicked and abandoned.
He was that victim of heartbreak….

He wanted to go home now…..

(Prolly just romance of that's cool.)

Before she realized her decision, she began to run after him. She ran faster and faster, but he was gone without a trace. She cried out "Wait!" as loud as she could, but it was hopeless. He was gone. And it was all her fault. She sunk to her knees and cried.

He heard her voice….. but it was probably just is imagination….. He wanted it to be real…. knowing she was probably already gone….
The tears still gushing out of his eyes. He runs back to her…. The rain stinging his eyes, the puddles of water splashes up onto his clothes. He stops in front of her…. his head lowered….. The water dripping off of his hair. He lets out a whimper… Tears still running down his freckled cheeks. He looks into her gorgeous eyes, just like he did the first time he ever kissed her. He couldn't express to the world how much he loved her. He wanted to hold her forever. To love her forever.
"im so sorry…. what did I do…"