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Started January 17, 2019 by @The-N-U-T-Cracker

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Bob and Clucky, the romance of a lifetime in Ella's house. Is it Blucky, Bocky, Club, Clob, or Cob?

It’s Clob. Definetly Clob.

I stan this no matter what we call it

Yayyy!

When I was little whenever I told my dad there was a spider so he could take it outside he would ask for it's name. He thought it was funny. I did not. Although now i'm more chill and better at making up names on the spot so now when he asks I just "James Tedison the Third, get it out of my room."

alsjdflajksdflkajsdlfkjasdjf cockroaches are disgusting things

Once in study hall I was just sitting on a chromebook minding my own business and a cockroach landed on the keyboard. Out of nowhere. And I was in the middle of the room, too. I think someone threw it at me. Our school also has mice but that's beside the point. Cockroaches are nastyyyy

They are literally evolved to wallow in filth

Darn I can't bask in my sarrows by laying on my couch doing nothing all day.

Update: I've used up half my bottle of bug repellent spraying down each individual pillow and blanket I own along with my mattress and the areas around my bed.
Normally at this point, I'd feel perfectly safe, but this "bug repellent" is actually just a mixture of essential oils and water, there's no proof that it actually does anything, my mom just looked at some Facebook memes and was like "Oh yeah, this person says peppermint and citronella oils repel bugs, I guess that's all the protection you'll need! Who would ever make up lies on the internet?".

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(To be fair, all the repellents that are proven contain awful chemicals that I'm irrationally terrified of and I wouldn't use them anyway, but aaaaaaaaajhgiolajhvgufhsjalkhvfoglgbsmaiieoihfkll I hate bugs)

Ella it will be alright. Just don't think sleep. And by morning you'll still live.

god i've been so happy for the past couple hours but my depression won't let me l i v e
whenever i have any goddamn feelings my brain gets uncomfortablr and shoves me into panic or sadness

My depression just knocks my will to do stuff out and all my energy. But for some reason I am energetic at night

oh the energy at night thing is just being a teenager

Mood, YK, mood.

I was called a vampire queen and darkness queen by a friend when I went to her house a little earlier. It is dark outside I walked into her driveway as soon as I walked into the main part of their driveway all the lights turned off.

Mood, YK, mood.

like i was videoing w julian and he was so gorgeous and i was so happy and then afterwards i got so, um. queasy. it happens sometimes when i'm too happy. i fuckin hate it can i just be normal for once

Mood, YK, mood.

like i was videoing w julian and he was so gorgeous and i was so happy and then afterwards i got so, um. queasy. it happens sometimes when i'm too happy. i fuckin hate it can i just be normal for once

Same.

I’m lying in my bed… Trying… Not… To… Panic…
muffled screams

I have to wake up early and go to church tomorrow, I need sleep

obliviates you into forgetting about the bugs sle e p

I have no idea how or what I am feeling. It may be a anxiety attack, but without all the usual feelings I get. Or I am feeling just isolated, but in a bad way. Like I'd wish to talk to someone, verbally, but I know no one will listen. I am alone. But physically there are people around me. I have no idea how I'm feeling.

Aw, that sucks. You might not be able to talk to me verbally, but we can always talk here if you want to talk about it? Or in the PM…

I don't know. For all I know it could just be nothing.

Well… it’s obviously something, since you are feeling different. But it’s okay if you don’t wanna talk about it, I get that

Sounds like an anxiety attack. They aren’t always crying and hyperventilating. Mood swings, sudden depression, noice and light sensitivity, and that loneliness you are feeling are all forms. Take a rest. Listen to your favorite music in a dim room. Read a book. Something calming and familiar. It will make you feel better for the time being.

Ok so I decided it was my depression hitting me hard. Because it's funny like that, at times I'll feel fine. It will hit me hard or just be there all the time. But I am starting to feel better again, still slightly isolated. But there is a storm outside, it is 9pm and I'm watching criminal minds. So I guess this is as good as I can get to good.

Storms and rain always makes me feel better for some reason. And yeah, stuff hits sometimes, too. It's not a panic attack per say but the damper suddenly… idk, tightened? I call them my 'Meh moments' because everything is just meh and sad and I feel really lonely for almost no reason. I want to be able to tell someone, in person, and for them to just listen and care but I can't bring myself to… tell anyone. It's weird and I realize I just completely changed the topic to myself, but I hope the moment passes and it's good you're feeling better.

yah i just hit a depression episode and i feel like melting into a puddle on the floor

Okokok

So I came here a few months ago to complain about how I think I have depression, and OMG I JUST TOLD MY MOM AND NOW IM NERVOUS, I FEEL LIKE IT WAS A REALLY BAD IDEA HALP

Update: she finally came to me about it and guess what. she said she knew about it but didn't want to say anything because she didn’t know if I knew about it

I honestly feel played.

mine did the same and said it's genetic.

Really? Were you nervous about telling her about it?