I'd just like to express my thoughts on something I noticed yesterday morning:
No one calls me Emily.
When someone in my family wants my attention, they just talk and hope that I'm listening (which of course I always am but that is besides the point)
At work, when someone wants my attention, they look at me, tap my shoulder, or use my last name. They even use my last name when talking about me to other members of staff.
My boyfriend calls me 'Em', but it doesn't really count.
It has gotten to the point that whenever someone asks what my name is, saying 'Emily' doesn't feel right. It sounds so strange saying my name and I don't know if that's good or bad.
I call you Emily sometimes
We rarely talk because 1) your internet is shite, 2) there is a significant time difference, 3) I'm always working, and 4) tbh I think your boyfriend is more important than me ^-^
And notice the 'sometimes'. When we do talk you call me Emily, when we talk on here you call me Lee.
All I'm saying is that my real name is used so infrequently that it sounds weird whenever anyone, including myself, says it
yeah i used to go by my middle name or any nickname i could cause i hate my first name
My friends call me hopscotch and Sebastian's friends call him Cobalt..
It's the third day of school and so far,,,, im not loving it
i have like three friends in all and it feels like as soon as I get a little bit of stability, it gets taken away and I absolutely despise it. i know that's just life but it's still. it took me almost two years to find a new group of friends i was comfortable around and they were okay with me being stupid me but now we've,,, dispersed and just. im lonely again
ravens!!!
now that schools started (and as soon as i get my chromebook) i'll be a ton more active again. notebook was like the only place i could breathe during school so
i have like three friends in all and it feels like as soon as I get a little bit of stability, it gets taken away and I absolutely despise it. i know that's just life but it's still. it took me almost two years to find a new group of friends i was comfortable around and they were okay with me being stupid me but now we've,,, dispersed and just. im lonely again
my life in one paragraph. I have separation anxiety.
:D
oh no, i'm sorry about your friends :(
but i'm happy you'll be on more often! i've missed you <3
aw thanks! I really did miss y'all too!
also i think quite a bit has happened this summer while i still did absolutely nothing really but anyway i gotta tell y'all about it later
So I'm home from work.. That was an interesting shift
Well at first there were too many people so we hand to send some home early to save labour. I ended up staying on an extra two hours, had a break down, wanted to kill myself, then became really nervous and timid for the rest of the night. By 11 there were 9 people including the manager who were left to close. The manager forgot to send me on a break so let me have whatever food I wanted to take home, and he told me he's proud of me, which none of the managers ever say to me
I feel. I stayed overtime almost four hours last week.
Weird emotions. I relate.
I mean technically they could have kept me until Midnight, but since I don't know how to close there wouldn't have been any point. The closers finish at 2am anyways
AFT!!!!!
heya mezzo! i missed y'all a lot~
AFT!!!!!
heya mezzo! i missed y'all a lot~
we missed you too!
also, lee, i'm sorry you had a weird shift, feel better soon darling
aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAh shit shit shit!!! bangs head repeatedly on desk
