forum Don't Be Suspicious

Started March 01, 2019 by Deleted user

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Good point. I mentioned the GitHub team because andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) said that he can't develop certain new parts for the website because it's not his code, so I included it in case.

I'm not even angry though? Honestly, If you're going to comment on things I said not in this chat at all, as a debater I must defend myself. It's just in the nature of the game. I'm not upset in the slightest. I'm just pointing out that your evidence doesn't hold. I'm not sure why you have an issue with me in the first place.

I know what it's like to be disabled actually, considering that legally, on paper, I am disabled. Thanks.

Good point. I mentioned the GitHub team because andrew (Our Supreme Lord and Overseer) said that he can't develop certain new parts for the website because it's not his code, so I included it in case.

Understood.

Somebody on this site who I won't name and won't really describe/talk about because I really don't want them to hate me but holy shit I'm still pissed off at them for what they did: skjdSDJFKSJDFKHSG FUCK YOU YOU NEVER APOLOGIZED FOR WHAT YOU DID YOU ASSHOLE

Erm…..Just in case: I'm so sorry for whatever I did to you my sweet Jensen. D:

I'm not even angry though?

The tone of the response and certain words & phrases like "Nice try", indirectly calling me childish, telling me to "back off" etc. made it seem like that way for me.

If you're going to comment on things I said not in this chat at all, as a debater I must defend myself. I'm just pointing out that your evidence doesn't hold.

I'm not annoyed at the defending yourself bit.
Yes, as I said before I realised I was being haughty.

I'm not sure why you have an issue with me in the first place.

I don't? I meant I was being slightly annoyed by stuff I said you were doing. I haven't directly been rude to anyone apart from you so it seemed like I was targeting you. Sorry about that. I was agreeing with having issues with other things like NutElla's Christian Server jokes getting old, people writing tiny etc. but I didn't say anything about it because it'd been said already by other people.

I know what it's like to be disabled actually, considering that legally, on paper, I am disabled. Thanks.

Holy shit, I'm so sorry for assuming your situation and invalidating you. I should've seen your side of the argument first.
I don't know what exactly to say. I hardly interact with other disabled people so I didn't think clearly about not causing offence. I'm sorry for being ableist towards you.

This isn't sarcasm (since it's hard to tell tone online), I genuinely mean it.

Just a quick reminder once more guys:

A chat like this opens a door for everyone to voice their opinions about people they don't like. It shouldn't be taken too personally, because everybody ends up pissing somebody off at some point. But because we are all generally good people it can get bottled up and turned into something much worse and cruel. This gives people a chance to let out their anger/irritation with people, and it gives people the chance to change their behavior.

If a chat like this didn't exist, a lot of people would still be pissing people off. They wouldn't learn anything because they weren't told that they were doing something that was pissing somebody off and/or harming them.

With that being said, a chat like that can easily get out of hand, like it is now. I think we need to somehow remind people that the purpose isn't to start fights. It's supposed to open your eyes to how other people view you, and give you a chance to change your behavior if you want.

It's to be rude not harsh, cruel, or downright unbearable.

People I dislike, no one asked for it but fuck you I don’t care let me be an asshole on my birthday:
Basically anyone who hates Emi is the Bain of my exsistence, you insult my only happiness and reason to live an you are fucking dead to me. You insulted her? Fuck you.
@CW_StarkSpangledBanner: Okay they aren’t a bad person, they’re actually pretty damn nice. Just…. please learn proper English…
@Shuri-is-a-Birb-in-a-Cage!: Now Shuri has changed a lot since I joined notebook, and I think it’s not great. Shuri used to be what I considered to be my best friend on the site, and someone I trusted so much. He helped me during my very depressed states and such, but then he started to act pretty strange… he would constantly PM me about how I was doing, which I can understand but it started to get annoying really. I still talk to him but, I think he’s getting a bit full of himself to be completely honest.
@Fenris the asgardian wolf: Okay person, but very bad at RP’s and ruin the experience of RP’s for me…
@Starlight-Unicorn: Before I go on, I love Starlight, I consider her a good friend and I love RPing with her, but at times she’s a bit rude… not really to me, but I’ve noticed it’s towards others. She’s not the best at RPing, but she’s more of my level… a mediocre level like myself. I consider myself not great at it, but I relate to Starlight in that aspect that we aren’t that great but we have good intentions, Starlight keep following your dreams you amazing human!
Fuck anyone who was ever overly negative to Emi, just no, fuck you, don’t try and defend yourself either, because any attack on Emi is basically an attack on my happiness so fuck off.

Starlight-whatever-the-hell: Please stop being an annoying child and pestering me about responding to roleplays. I warned you that I don't respond that often. I am an extremely busy person. I have too many important things to do, and notebook.ai unfortunately isn't exactly at the top of my priority list. I have children to take care of when I get home. I have to look after myself. I have to at least attempt to do well in school. I have friends in real life that I enjoy talking to. I have responsibilities at school and at home. I hardly ever have time for this website. It's something I do when I want to relax, but you are ruining that for me by constantly trying to revive that RP that I obviously wanted to let die a long time ago. The only reason I responded and agreed to try to revive it was because I was so tired of you bothering me about it. I hoped for so long that you'd give it up, but you didn't. And I tried to get that thing going, but I just don't have the time right now and I'm already in some roleplays that I'm trying to keep alive. I don't want to abandon those for a roleplay that I was never super interested in in the first place. For the love of god, starlight, please leave me alone now.

I'm sorry about that….. really truly I am… I never meant to be annoying or anything….. I'm Sorry….

Just a quick reminder once more guys:

A chat like this opens a door for everyone to voice their opinions about people they don't like. It shouldn't be taken too personally, because everybody ends up pissing somebody off at some point. But because we are all generally good people it can get bottled up and turned into something much worse and cruel. This gives people a chance to let out their anger/irritation with people, and it gives people the chance to change their behavior.

If a chat like this didn't exist, a lot of people would still be pissing people off. They wouldn't learn anything because they weren't told that they were doing something that was pissing somebody off and/or harming them.

With that being said, a chat like that can easily get out of hand, like it is now. I think we need to somehow remind people that the purpose isn't to start fights. It's supposed to open your eyes to how other people view you, and give you a chance to change your behavior if you want.

It's to be rude not harsh, cruel, or downright unbearable.

Apologies if I went a bit to far, I’m just very passionet about the topic at hand…

Somebody on this site who I won't name and won't really describe/talk about because I really don't want them to hate me but holy shit I'm still pissed off at them for what they did: skjdSDJFKSJDFKHSG FUCK YOU YOU NEVER APOLOGIZED FOR WHAT YOU DID YOU ASSHOLE

Erm…..Just in case: I'm so sorry for whatever I did to you my sweet Jensen. D:

No don't worry it wasn't you
if you want me to tell you, I can PM you

Somebody on this site who I won't name and won't really describe/talk about because I really don't want them to hate me but holy shit I'm still pissed off at them for what they did: skjdSDJFKSJDFKHSG FUCK YOU YOU NEVER APOLOGIZED FOR WHAT YOU DID YOU ASSHOLE

Erm…..Just in case: I'm so sorry for whatever I did to you my sweet Jensen. D:

No don't worry it wasn't you
if you want me to tell you, I can PM you

Could you say in our chat?

Kylee– As I said before your messages are coming off extremely harsh. Rein it in. I understand you are getting things off your chest but it doesnt need to be so volatile. I also understand it is your birthday, but this is my chat and if you cannot abide by the rules I have now reemphasized, I will ask you to leave. This goes for everyone. You do not need to be volatile while stating your opinion.

Starlight-whatever-the-hell: Please stop being an annoying child and pestering me about responding to roleplays. I warned you that I don't respond that often. I am an extremely busy person. I have too many important things to do, and notebook.ai unfortunately isn't exactly at the top of my priority list. I have children to take care of when I get home. I have to look after myself. I have to at least attempt to do well in school. I have friends in real life that I enjoy talking to. I have responsibilities at school and at home. I hardly ever have time for this website. It's something I do when I want to relax, but you are ruining that for me by constantly trying to revive that RP that I obviously wanted to let die a long time ago. The only reason I responded and agreed to try to revive it was because I was so tired of you bothering me about it. I hoped for so long that you'd give it up, but you didn't. And I tried to get that thing going, but I just don't have the time right now and I'm already in some roleplays that I'm trying to keep alive. I don't want to abandon those for a roleplay that I was never super interested in in the first place. For the love of god, starlight, please leave me alone now.

I'm sorry about that….. really truly I am… I never meant to be annoying or anything….. I'm Sorry….

It's okay. I just want you to understand that I can't get online all of the time, and the constant replies and reminders make me feel pressured to respond, and feeling pressured to do something makes me extremely upset. I don't think you're a bad person at all, and I'm glad you apologized. Thank you.

A chat like this opens a door for everyone to voice their opinions about people they don't like. It shouldn't be taken too personally, because everybody ends up pissing somebody off at some point. But because we are all generally good people it can get bottled up and turned into something much worse and cruel. This gives people a chance to let out their anger/irritation with people, and it gives people the chance to change their behavior.

Yep, it's a good idea for this chat especially with all this 'fake positivity'. Just now for instance, you showed me that I've been making false assumptions in certain areas, and I can correct that now.

(Sorry if I seem like I'm being annoyingly apologetic, I wanted to say this)

Starlight-whatever-the-hell: Please stop being an annoying child and pestering me about responding to roleplays. I warned you that I don't respond that often. I am an extremely busy person. I have too many important things to do, and notebook.ai unfortunately isn't exactly at the top of my priority list. I have children to take care of when I get home. I have to look after myself. I have to at least attempt to do well in school. I have friends in real life that I enjoy talking to. I have responsibilities at school and at home. I hardly ever have time for this website. It's something I do when I want to relax, but you are ruining that for me by constantly trying to revive that RP that I obviously wanted to let die a long time ago. The only reason I responded and agreed to try to revive it was because I was so tired of you bothering me about it. I hoped for so long that you'd give it up, but you didn't. And I tried to get that thing going, but I just don't have the time right now and I'm already in some roleplays that I'm trying to keep alive. I don't want to abandon those for a roleplay that I was never super interested in in the first place. For the love of god, starlight, please leave me alone now.

I'm sorry about that….. really truly I am… I never meant to be annoying or anything….. I'm Sorry….

It's okay. I just want you to understand that I can't get online all of the time, and the constant replies and reminders make me feel pressured to respond, and feeling pressured to do something makes me extremely upset. I don't think you're a bad person at all, and I'm glad you apologized. Thank you.

^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ This is what the chat is about.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

Kylee– As I said before your messages are coming off extremely harsh. Rein it in. I understand you are getting things off your chest but it doesnt need to be so volatile. I also understand it is your birthday, but this is my chat and if you cannot abide by the rules I have now reemphasized, I will ask you to leave. This goes for everyone. You do not need to be volatile while stating your opinion.

I respect your statement, and thanks for telling me. I’ll go back and fix my statements if you want me to, and I will leave this after you respond. Thought this chat was just a place to rant at first, so then again I was told to go here from Emi, but a reason I will not share because it might make her upset and no thanks, my birthday is already bad enough, I’m not making the only thing keeping me from killing myself upset on this day that reminds me I’m still young and fresh which means I might get kidnapped or raped. And I feel like most points were really rude, but at least I put some nice things into them without digging into peoples skin making them bleed out emotions.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

I don't want you to die. I'm just giving some feedback that you don't have to listen to.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

This is so far from what Midnight was trying to say. Why would you bring suicide into that?? Nobody here ever told you to kill yourself and nobody (I hope) ever would.
All she's saying is that obsession with anyone or anything is never healthy. In this case, it looks like you rely on her far too much, but I don't know your situation in real life or hers. I don't know much about either of you so I'm not going to say any more about it.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

This is so far from what Midnight was trying to say. Why would you bring suicide into that?? Nobody here ever told you to kill yourself and nobody (I hope) ever would.
All she's saying is that obsession with anyone or anything is never healthy. In this case, it looks like you rely on her far too much, but I don't know your situation in real life or hers. I don't know much about either of you so I'm not going to say any more about it.

That is what I was trying to say. Nothing against you at all.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

This is so far from what Midnight was trying to say. Why would you bring suicide into that?? Nobody here ever told you to kill yourself and nobody (I hope) ever would.
All she's saying is that obsession with anyone or anything is never healthy. In this case, it looks like you rely on her far too much, but I don't know your situation in real life or hers. I don't know much about either of you so I'm not going to say any more about it.

yeah and I am again taking things to far. I really think I need to find another use in life, all I do is hope Emi isn’t upset, and I can hardly sleep when I know her parents were being shitty for the hundredth time in a row. And I agree with everything you state, I really should back away from her, but my life makes it seem like she’s the only thing important for me, maybe it’s just my separation anxiety afraid of Emi getting harmed or something, but that’s all I can say really. I should see my therapist and doctor soon so my depression will be taking a toll from I hope working anti depressants. I won’t go into detail because I don’t want anyone getting scared or something like that.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

This is so far from what Midnight was trying to say. Why would you bring suicide into that?? Nobody here ever told you to kill yourself and nobody (I hope) ever would.
All she's saying is that obsession with anyone or anything is never healthy. In this case, it looks like you rely on her far too much, but I don't know your situation in real life or hers. I don't know much about either of you so I'm not going to say any more about it.

yeah and I am again taking things to far. I really think I need to find another use in life, all I do is hope Emi isn’t upset, and I can hardly sleep when I know her parents were being shitty for the hundredth time in a row. And I agree with everything you state, I really should back away from her, but my life makes it seem like she’s the only thing important for me, maybe it’s just my separation anxiety afraid of Emi getting harmed or something, but that’s all I can say really. I should see my therapist and doctor soon so my depression will be taking a toll from I hope working anti depressants. I won’t go into detail because I don’t want anyone getting scared or something like that.

It's fine. I hope things get better for you.

I think Kylee is a good person, I'm not mad at her or anything, but I would like to point something out. I get it when you love someone, but Kylee, you seem really… obsessed with Emi which can be unhealthy or even annoying. I promise I don't have anything against you Kylee.

I agree with this, but I can’t do anything about it or ignore her since it’s keeping me from killing myself so if you want me to die then I’ll try it I guess.

This is so far from what Midnight was trying to say. Why would you bring suicide into that?? Nobody here ever told you to kill yourself and nobody (I hope) ever would.
All she's saying is that obsession with anyone or anything is never healthy. In this case, it looks like you rely on her far too much, but I don't know your situation in real life or hers. I don't know much about either of you so I'm not going to say any more about it.

yeah and I am again taking things to far. I really think I need to find another use in life, all I do is hope Emi isn’t upset, and I can hardly sleep when I know her parents were being shitty for the hundredth time in a row. And I agree with everything you state, I really should back away from her, but my life makes it seem like she’s the only thing important for me, maybe it’s just my separation anxiety afraid of Emi getting harmed or something, but that’s all I can say really. I should see my therapist and doctor soon so my depression will be taking a toll from I hope working anti depressants. I won’t go into detail because I don’t want anyone getting scared or something like that.

It's fine. I hope things get better for you.

I’m glad my mom finally noticed the signs of me being depressed, she was just so bombarded by depression she couldn’t really tell that something like that was happening to her ‘most normal’ she says this, yet I’m weirder then the others child could be suffering.

I hope things get better for you as well Kylee. We all need to find that inner balance and confidence.
But I must say that I do not approve of your suicide talk. It concerns me greatly, I do think you need to speak to an adult immediately for having these thoughts. A school nurse or official should be able to assist you, if not make your way to a station of authority (police/fire/er) and there they are required to assist you.
No one wants you to die. Implying that is what we want is not nice nor true and you know it. Saying so is talking this subject overboard. Please refrain from using triggering talk and please take my advice.

I hate to tell you this. I would like to point out that antidepressant pills aren't going to make everything better. They can help, but don't get your hopes up too high Kylee.

Very true. Antidepressants don't cure your depression. Usually is somebody is extremely depressed, it takes friends, supportive family, therapy, and doing the things you love to overcome it.

MidnightWarrior13's right, regardless of whether or not one takes medication mental health therapy should always involve treatments that don't involve it (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy etc.).

Also you don't have to wait to go to the doctor if you're experiencing a surge in your suicidal thoughts.

• https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org - You can call this US number anytime, 24/7
• https://itunes.apple.com/us/app/calm-harm-manages-self-harm/id961611581?mt=8. - iPhone app (Don't know if it's on Android as well) that helps you manage the urge to self harm

I have friends who care, a great family, and I even have a therapists for said problems and it’s helping some what if anyone cares and trying to laugh my problems off makes it seem like I’m okay, I don’t like to make people worry.

I have friends who care, a great family, and I even have a therapists for said problems and it’s helping some what if anyone cares and trying to laugh my problems off makes it seem like I’m okay, I don’t like to make people worry.

Good. Stay close too good friends and family and hope for the best.