forum The Miracle family!!
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@ember-chan-will-never-forget-you

but i've had so many traumatic incidents with bloodwork so i am terrified of it
not even of needles
just of bloodwork
i love the taste of blood
i love how it looks
just not the fact that people are taking it from me

@Cloudy_is_trying_her_best

I need to vent a little…sorry guys…

So I had a hockey tournament this weekend(we got second place) as well as Band Festival(four 1s and one 2, we're going to states), and I've been getting six hours of sleep for the last four days. It might seem like not much to complain about since I know a lot of people have insomnia or always pull all-nighters or something, but as someone who generally gets 8-9 hours every night, it's a nightmare. Plus, this morning I woke up and had EXTREMELY suicidal thoughts, which has happened a total of two times to me total. My mom was yelling at me repeatedly to, I quote, "quit whining" and "stop being such a bitch" every time I would say something remotely relating to those(apparently, "I would like you to leave me alone" is bitchy). Keep in mind, I am NOT a morning person and I will admit I can be a bit whiny when I first wake up, but not to the extent that she was making it out to be. And she KNOWS I get upset when she does this, yet she either doesn't care or wants me to be thinking these things. The suicidal thoughts kept happening, and on the bus I literally had to stop myself from grabbing at my throat. When I got to school, one of my other friends had had trouble with their mom as well, so I already felt bad when I had to tell them about it because I didn't want to make it all about me, and then they said that "everybody feels like that at some point in time." I don't think they meant it to come across the way I thought they did, but it still hurt and I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want to upset them any more. I'm thinking about trying to talk to a counselor about it, but I'm not sure…

@ember-chan-will-never-forget-you

I think talking to your guidance counselor would help
it helps me a lot to have someone there who won't judge me for what i tell her about. I have the same problem and get panic attacks when i walk down the halls for no reason. I think something's wrong with me so i think if i can die then no one will have to deal with me, but that's not true. Talking really helps, even if I really don't want to.
(also, congrats on second place!)

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

Morning guys!

Oh, goodness Cloudy, I understand, is there any way you could reach out, speak to a professional of some sort? It's probably the best course of action if you're having those thoughts and being bombarded by abusive comments.