forum Can I get a hug?

Started January 10, 2019 by @ElderGod-Carrots

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I don’t want to wait…

Yes I know kiddo. But the alternative is to bring pain upon everyone you love and rob yourself of your future.

I dont care about my future. I’m not going to amount to anything anyway.
And the ones I love don’t care about me…
They gave up on me trying to get better so they’d get over it.

You don't know that.
You still don't know that.
I doubt it.

I don’t doubt it…

weird uncomfortable wheezing in the background because i'm new and dumb

But you don't know it.
If you want we can go at it like a proper argument. You give me facts and I'll work with them.

I don’t want an argument right now…

uHm-
S-Sorry, I'll Leave-

I don’t want an argument right now…

All right. But you will never know how much someone loves you. And they do. You just can't see it.

I know.
And I’d like to keep it that way…

Explain.

Because…
If I don’t know how much someone loves me,
It’ll be easier for me to leave…
I won’t feel as guilty…

But-
You Shouldn't Feel Guilty-

You have a boyfriend right?

You Can't Control How You Feel, And-
And You Shouldn't Apologize For It..

I… I have a girlfriend…
And… she’s the reason I’ve lived this long…

How old are you? (I guess you don't have to be exact if you don't want to.)

15 this year…
Yes, I’m young… I know.
And I’m guessing you’l say the same shit I’ve heard before.
“If you go she’ll be devistated”
“You’re young, you have so much ahead of you”
“You have a future”
I don’t care. My gf will move on to someone else once she’s over me being gone. I don’t care that I’m young.
I don’t want to live anymore.
I don’t want to live with all this shit in my head and making me feel this way…
I can’t…

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BUT YOU DO HAVE A FUTURE

15 this year…
Yes, I’m young… I know.
And I’m guessing you’l say the same shit I’ve heard before.
“If you go she’ll be devistated”
“You’re young, you have so much ahead of you”
“You have a future”
I don’t care. My gf will move on to someone else once she’s over me being gone. I don’t care that I’m young.
I don’t want to live anymore.
I don’t want to live with all this shit in my head and making me feel this way…
I can’t…

You can make it through. I did. Would me telling the story help at all?

Carys.
I want to scream at you for being so stubborn.
You want it to be easier.
You want to trick yourself into thinking that nobody cares so that you can carry out this pointless task. So that you can leave. You are purposefully ignoring the STAGGERING grief that your death would cause, so that you can go through with it.
I'm trying to be calm, and all, but this is pissing me off.
If you die, I die.
You got it?

I don’t know… maybe…?

Carys.
I want to scream at you for being so stubborn.
You want it to be easier.
You want to trick yourself into thinking that nobody cares so that you can carry out this pointless task. So that you can leave. You are purposefully ignoring the STAGGERING grief that your death would cause, so that you can go through with it.
I'm trying to be calm, and all, but this is pissing me off.
If you die, I die.
You got it?

You’re not dying…

Then neither are you.

I don’t know… maybe…?

Is there anything going on in your life that really sucks? Or is it just depression playing with your head?

I could do it when I’m back home…
You guys wouldn’t know if I had or not…

I don’t know… maybe…?

Is there anything going on in your life that really sucks? Or is it just depression playing with your head?

Second option…
Friendship stuff maybe…

Do I need to throw more wholesome memes at you?