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@EtherealDreamer

Name/any nicknames: Adrien Scalamandes
Age: 17
Gender/pronouns: male / he/him
Sexuality: he thought he was straight, but currently questioning
Personality: honestly…he's a real soft and sensitive boy, which is frowned upon by some people, so he tries to hid it by seeming selfish, relentless and such. But in reality Adrien is sensitive, kind, and very feminine.
Appearance: mid height 5'9, with a lean and lanky build, his skin is milky and pale, with freckles spread in the main spots that consist of cheek to cheek, his shoulders and his knee's; he has bright aqua green eyes, the color varying from light blue to emerald green. His features are sharp and persistent, his cheekbones high and defined, along with his jawline. He had short (ear length) light blonde, sometimes appearing darker hair, that is fluffy and slightly curls at the ends.
Background info (doesn't have to be a lot, just the basics): Adrien's father, Theodore the second died a couple months ago, leaving his mother; Giselda, and older sister; Ria, in shambles. Though Adrien was never close with his father, because his father never approved of Adrien's feminine and sensitive ways, looking down upon Adrien as a disappointment, so Adrien was less than happy to find his father had left a war for him to figure out what to do with, leaving him to figure out how to defend his kingdom; Sunstasia, from the fellow kingdom; Quellestion. All while feeling alone, lonely and helpless.
Outfits: usually royal white, when in formal attire, though he will wear a regular long sleeved button up shirt, matched with brown pants and dress shoes.
Hobbies/talents: gardening
Weaknesses: he has a fear of failing and disappointing people, which can get to him quite often.
Weapon of choice: a silver sword, the handle encrusted with a golden sun.
Other:

  • Adrien would never admit this but he finds dressing in womens dresses fun and enjoyable
  • he considers his royal guard his friend.

@Becfromthedead group

Name/any nicknames: Sebastian Levick (Bastien, Sebby, but calling them by a nickname is pretty rare. He might take it from a lover, family member, or very close friend.)
Age: 18
Gender/pronouns: He just kind of is. he/they, "mostly a man, I guess"
Sexuality: Bisexual
Personality: Sebastian is the outspoken type. They can be a bit flirty, and they're pretty popular with the ladies. Above all, Sebastian strives to be kind and brave, to do his duty no matter the cost. But sometimes that cost is high and he's an absolute dumbass. He's incredibly impulsive at times, especially when it comes to protecting those he loves. And he loves a lot. They also are incredibly determined and hardworking, aware that they got a rough start to life and are always a step behind everyone else.
Appearance: An absolutely massive lad. 6'3, a little on the thickset side- though most of it is muscle, unkempt black curls, piercing amber eyes, has naturally paler skin but is pretty tanned from spending so much time in the sun, a crooked smile, dimples, body is covered in scars
Background info: Sebastian spent the first ten years or so of his life in poverty. He is the fifth out of eight kids, but out of his seven siblings, only four are still living. The rest were lost to disease or malnutrition. His family was pretty close-knit. Sebastian has practiced swordplay and fighting all their life, and they were taken into the royal family after an incident (which we can maybe decide on later???) in which they acted selflessly to protect some noble children, almost at the cost of their own life. After seeing Sebastian's brash, bold bravery and his skills with a weapon, even at a young age, he was taken in for training. They figured he would be a knight of sorts, or perhaps a general, but eventually, he was chosen as a guard for Adrien. Since the war has started, Sebastian has had to protect the royal family from a lot more assassination attempts than he did before.
Outfits: Almost always wearing something in an earthy green color, usually an undershirt. Formal wear is usually a light green button up, gray pants, and tall boots with a patterned cloak. He frequently wears armor as well, which is of a moderate weight- enough to protect him, but not to stifle his movement. Heavier chestplate, light pauldrons, then some plates protecting his forearms and calves. The armor is a tarnished silver in color and has the kingdom crest engraved on the front. He usually wears a bright cape with his armor.
Hobbies/talents: Excellent fighter, good cook (and makes fantastic tea)
Weaknesses: Relatively uneducated, can't read very well; very little sense of self-preservation
Weapon of choice: Broadsword. They don't have a special weapon; they just kind of grab what they can get. Prefers a halberd or other polearm if on horseback.
Other: Significantly nearsighted. Probably needs glasses or some vision aid. They are working partially to give monetary support to their family. They are on good terms with most of the nobles, but some hate to see a poor kid like them rise up in the ranks and "infiltrate" the nobility.

The family:

Faye: Younger sister, 11. Baby, must protect at all costs. Probably too mature for her age because of the family's position, and the fact she already has to do some amount of work. She's very sweet and loves to help others.

Matthieu: younger brother, deceased, would be 13, died at 2

Lavenza: Younger sister, 16. She's one of the closest to Sebastian. Very soft and quiet individual, mom friend. Emotional support sibling. She loves animals, and has also worked very hard on academics like writing and politics, the best she can with the little she has.

Sebastian: 18

Nicolas: older brother, deceased, would be 19. Sebastian was very close to him and never fully accepted his death around 17 years old.

Gatrie: older brother, 21 (twin to Risette). Aside from Lavenza, is the closest to Sebastian. He's very reserved and stoic, and he hides a lot of pain. A very heavily traumatized individual and hides a lot of his problems. He's probably the hardest worker, and will run himself ragged trying to get a job done. He was pretty carefree in his younger years, but he's changed a lot. Sebastian barely considers him the same person he was previously. He seems weirdly keen on getting away from the family, but it's more likely because being with the family dredges up the worst of his trauma.

Risette: older sister, deceased, would be 21 (twin to Gatrie). Died at 8.

Noel: oldest brother, 25. Tired dad energy. He's a good caretaker both by nature and by necessity. Very clever, knows how to get the most out of just about anything. Loves his family, but he worries that he's going to be trapped caring for others forever and will never live for himself.

@Becfromthedead group

Ooh, awesome! I'm excited too! It's been a while since I've written something like this (I say, completely ignoring my bodyguard/princess duo in one of my stories).
Anyway, I can get started. Perhaps they're in a war meeting or something?

@Becfromthedead group

Sebastian listened to one of the generals standing in front of the group drone on, squinting to look at the map on the wall. He didn't exactly have a head for strategy like this. He was more of a "point me where, and I'll take care of it" kind of guy. Good at listening to orders and taking them seriously.
Their gaze wandered over to Adrien. They wondered what was going through the other guy's head. He had never been too keen on this war, even before he was fighting it. Sebastian knew that much.
It was even scarier considering they were both expected to be on the battlefield. Sebastian had trained for that most of their life, but the added task of protecting another person was stressful. If Adrien died out there, or was gravely wounded, Sebastian didn't know what they'd do.
The general kept going, eventually talking about seizing a bridge that lead into enemy territory. Sebastian's interest was piqued.
"If I may, my leige," he started, "I think capturing the bridge is a good move. Easy access for us right?"
"And one of their supply lines would be cut off," the general added.
"Yes, and that."

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien shook his head and stood up, his eyes blurry and unfocused.
"I think we should avoid detection, lay low, protect ourselves…unless we are specifically targeted." He said quietly, standing up and using his index finger to point to the barrier around the kingdom, leading into the forest that divided Sunstasia and Quellestion.

"I think we should put protective barriers of some kind, I was thinking groups of guards, though i'm not quite sure how many" Adrien said, running his left hand through his hand, which was just as fluffy this morning when he was getting ready for this war meeting.

@Becfromthedead group

"That," Sebastian agreed, "Is also a good option. I know you want this thing over with. It's just the question of whether we sit on the defensive and hope we can reconcile things with them before losing too many, or whether we should be bold and just end it."
He couldn't see exactly where Adrien was pointing, but he trusted the other’s judgement enough.
"We should have plenty of knights to set up those guard posts. Now, where will you and I stay? Here?"

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien gave a unsure shrug, along with a small; exhausted, sigh. He rubbed the back of his neck with his hand and looked at his feet.

"I need to stay in the castle, until I learn how to uhm-… fight…" he coughed quietly, his cheeks and tips of his ears red. He cleared his throat loudly, and rested his hands in front of him.

"Very well!" he said loudly and awkwardly "if that's all, I'd like to get some rest" he said in a monotone, while staring around the room, avoiding the others eye contact. He watched as they all exchanged confused glances, and got up, leaving the room quickly.

When they were all finally gone, and it was just Sebastian left, Adrien let himself fall inot a chair, his back straightened and exhaled shakily, his eyes closed.

@Becfromthedead group

"Milord…" Sebastian sighed, his gaze falling over the young royal, "Are you alright? If I may, you look damn exhausted."
His brow furrowed a bit.
"I can teach you to fight better when we have the time, but that's definitely not the only thing bothering you, is it?"
He rested his hands on the table and leaned in a little closer to Adrien.

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien sat up slowly, the sleeves of his coat a bit to long, and sliding over his hands,he pushed them back up reluctantly.

"If I many be truthful Sebastian…I despise this, I despise war, I despise the fact that my father left me this kingdom, and the thing I despise the most is myself." He said with a sharp intake of breath,
"when I was a little boy I always assumed I'd be…I- don't quite know-…fitting, masculine, able to fight, and coldhearted like my father…the fact that I turned out opposite disappointed me greatly, im no good at this."

He said with an exasperated sigh, his chin angled downward slightly, his elbow rested on the table, his head in his palm.

"And please Sebastian…don't call me that" he said quietly, his voice semi hoarse. His eyes a slight shade of blue in the room's yellow tinted light.

@Becfromthedead group

Sebastian cleared his throat a bit.
"Right… Adrien," he said softly.
No one else was here now. He didn't have to keep up the professionalism any longer.
"No one wants to inherit a war. Trust me. And your lack of… coldheartedness, as you put it, is going to make you a good leader in times of peace.
If I may be so bold, this war only came to be because of selfishness and hunger for power. And if that's what it is to be masculine, I would want no part in it."
They gave a crooked smile.
"You were dealt a bad hand, is all. It says nothing about your capability. Besides, while we ride this war out, you have all your generals who are seasoned in planning out wars. And most of all, you have me."

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien gave a small nod, his mouth drawn into a tight line, and he stood up slowly, his chair scraping the hard floor as it pushed backwards. He stretched then extended his arms, his coat making a weird sound, as he sat his arms back down.

He offered a hand to Sebastian, his fingers outstretched towards the other boy
"if I may Sebastian…I think I would like to go back to my quarters, would you accompany me?"

he said, raising his hand to his mouth to stifle a small yawn and his face rested back into its usual frown, something it had done a lot these past few months.

"I think I need some fun, would you be able to provide that for me Sebastian?" he asked with a quirk of his blonde eyebrow,
"relinquish your duties for now, and please just be my friend" he said, pleadingly, his voice filled with sadness and a craving for a friend.

@Becfromthedead group

Sebastian's gentle smile remained as Adrien asked this of him.
"Of course. You know I'm always glad to."
He took Adrien's hand and stood up.
"We'll make it through this, your highn- I mean, Adrien. One of these days this war is going to be done with, and you can do what you were really meant to do."
He laughed softly.
"My apologies. Seems being so straight-laced around those generals has me using formalities, even when they're not necessary."

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien shook his head and said "I really don't care about the generals honestly, though they are great…they're rather judgeful" he said with a playful smirk.

He then strided along Sebastian, down the corridors of the castle, until he reached the large wooden door, of his own personal quarters, when he pushed the door open, which took a lot of force from him, due to his extreme lack of upper body strength, he walked inside, and sat on the red velvet couch that was placed in front of his light, delicately carved wooden bedframe.

"Sebastian, may I be truthful with you again?" he asked softly, his head pounding, he watched as Sebastian sat next to him, their knee's slightly touching, he looked into Sebastian's eyes, Adrien's own eyes once again, pleading for approval

@Becfromthedead group

"They are," Sebastian agreed, shaking his head, "I would know that better than anyone. Some of them don't want me here. Makes me hate war meetings even more, since I don't really have the mind for all that stuff anyhow."
He sat down on the couch, a couple of feet from Adrien.
"Yes, of course. What's on your mind?"

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien furrowed his eyebrows in thought, trying to think of a way to put what he was about to say, in a completely honest tone.

"When I was younger, about seven years old, the day we met, I remember it distinctly…" he said as his eyes glazed over with the memory of their meeting.

"My father had uhm-…" he rubbed the back of his neck, his hair bouncing and he did.

"He had caught me trying on my mothers old dresses from when she was a child, just small enough for me… and he confronted me in the courtyard, while my mother and sister were visiting my grandparents" he said softly, his eyes now casted downwards.

"And you- you… saved my life, my father was an abusive and violent man Sebastian, always so against my ways, and that day, as he hit me for about the second time, you appeared…screaming and flailing your small arms" he said with a slight smile "and you saved me… I was scared I was going to die… but you yelled for him to let me go, and leave me alone… and you've been my best friend ever since"

he said, his smile now stretched from ear to ear as he continued his thorough, yet vaguely important speech.

"All those nights, I snuck you into my quarters, and we stayed up all night, pretending we ruled our own kingdoms, and you taught me a bit on how to better my stances" he said giving a soft giggle.

"I wanted to say thank you Sebastian…thank you for saving me that day, making my life just that bit more tolerable, thank you for everything." He said quietly, his eyes now on Sebastians.

@Becfromthedead group

Sebastian felt warmth spread into his cheeks.
"As many times as my brashness has gotten me into trouble, I couldn't be more glad it would at least come to protect you. It's just the kind of person I am. You don't have to thank me."
He stretched his neck a little.
"And I know it probably feels weird recieving thanks for this, but if I weren't here with you, if you hadn't allowed me into your life, my family would be starving. I'm not only in it for the money. That's not the type of person I am. But it does help. It's kept any more of my siblings from dying.
So thank you for giving me a place. I'm just lucky to have found such a good friend along the way. You've always made me very happy to be around. Even though I'm your inferior in rank- and by a lot, at that- you've never made me feel that way."

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien grimaced at the last bit, shaking his head violently.

"Oh I would never do that Sebastian, you're my friend, not a unequal… I would never treat you as my sister did, when we were growing up, oh how im glad she has moved away to marry" he said with a small smile

"sometimes I do wish though that my family could have been more like yours, so open and honest… and quite physical, my parents never touched me, showed me physical affection, which has made me crave it quite harshly these days." He said quietly, his eyebrows raised.

He gave Sebastian a small smile.

@Becfromthedead group

"It… had its cons, but yes, I'm very grateful to have come from such a loving family," Sebastian agreed, "It's really all we had, you know."
Sebastian opened his arms, inviting Adrien in to cuddle. He wasn't the best at being reassuring, perhaps (that isn't to say that he didn't try like hell), but he was very physically affectionate, even with just friends. It was a little offputting to some, even.

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien gave a soft, loving smile before scooting closer, and leaning into the arms of the other boy.
He rested his head in the middle of Sebastian's chest and exhaled audibly, his entire body feeling like it was on fire. Was this what affection felt like? He wrapped his arms around Sebastian's neck and rested them on his shoulders.

"I always found myself wondering…we used to be so close when we were little, what events occured to relinquish that? I find myself barely having the time of day to know you anymore." Adrien said softly and quietly.

He felt the heat spreading to his ears, and nuzzled his head into Sebastian's chest more.

@Becfromthedead group

Sebastian placed a gentle hand on top of other's head.
"Oh, I didn't know you felt that way," they replied, "I'm sorry…"
Sebastian mulled over it a minute.
"Since the war started, my duty has become that much harder. Stopping more assassinations than you know, putting in extra training, all while trying to keep up relationships in this castle so no one wants me dead… That's really only the beginning. I may not have noticed as much, but it does eat up time and energy. I know these times haven't been easy on you either."

@EtherealDreamer

Adrien gave a slight sigh and pulled away slowly, his face back to being stern.

"I guess I should get some rest" he said standing up and unbuttoning his coat, sliding it off and placing it on the back of the couch. She straightened it and stood up straight, looking at Sebastian

"perhaps you could…spend your resting time in here, with me…like we used to do when we were younger." He suggested, his tone hopeful and full of anticipation. He then unbuttoned the white dress shirt he had on and slipped it off, this time less organized and precise, he threw this shirt on the ground. Revealing a yellow colored tank top, that showed off his slim shoulders and defined collarbone.