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Started February 07, 2018 by @remarkab.le

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Me too. Jensen, me too.

I had to dial a number last night that I never thought I would bring myself to dial.

A lot has happened since I was gone…

I'm sorry

Nah you're good, what number?

You alright @Jensen-rs ?

Jensen it's ok, we all love and care about you

(this sounded less creepy in my head)

tell us what's wrong

Is everything alright?

Yeah, it's a bit more okay now. I skipped two classes which isn't good but the vice principal asked me what was wrong and when I told her she called my therapist and we had a long talk. I made a promise that I would hang on to life until at least friday, when I'll be able to have an appointment with her. And if I can't and I end up wanting to hurt myself, I made a promise to call her first.

jensen… i'm sorry, i don't know what to say or do other than try and cheer you up… can't promise anything, but you are loved, don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

think of your self as a sword and every bad event that has happened, think of them as whetstones, they have shaped you into the person you are now. right now you are the sharpest you can ever be, push back with everything you have and show them that you aren't weak but that you have the strength of a titan.

Jensen, I want you to know that staying alive is the best thing you can do. I have been bullied for a large portion of my life, because of who I was, and because I wasn't who other people wanted me to be. I asked why this ever would happen to me because I had never hurt anyone. I understand where you are. I chose to stick around, and it may have been the best decision I had ever made. I found purpose, and a person who could love me for me. My best friend from Wisconsin. He would got to the ends of the world just to help me. I can't help you as much because I live extremely far away, but I can help you by giving you support.

yes we all love you sosososososoosososososoososososososososoosososo much

I'm so sorry, Jensen. If you ever need to talk to anyone you can message me.

Thank you guys. I really appreciate it. I'm going through a lot right now but I'm hanging on.

I might be hanging on to a thread that's attached to an airplane going full speed through the clouds, but I'm hanging on

If there were a like button, I would have pressed it for that comment

Jensen, I know firsthand how much life can suck sometimes. All I have to say is that if you fight through the bad times, you’ll be okay. Maybe you’ll be battered and bruised (metaphorically), but you won’t be broken. Whatever is making you feel this way, you need to keep on living and push forwards. Then, I know you can overcome this and be happy. Times are tough, but so are you.

What kind of tea do you like?

Alright I’m back. I like just regular unsweetened tea. Sometimes I’ll drink black tea too.

On a more serious note, you aren’t alone Jensen. We all care about you and would hate ourselves even more if we let you die. Please stay alive! Find something you love and stick to it! I believe that running saved my life! I’m really sorry that I’m not good with feelings or if this sounded desperate or weird or even creepy.

We are a family here on the ignore page, but we will never ignore you and will always be here for ya!! @Jensen-rs

@MidnightWarrior13 You run??

I'm really worried for Jensen, you guys. I've cried twice and have been impulsively checking this site for updates.

@Jensen-rs hang in there, buddy. Things may suck now but trust me, there is light at the end of the tunnel! I'm living proof! Please, please be strong for us. We all know you can, and if you don't want to hang on, we'll hold you tightly, because we love you very much and never want anything bad to ever happen to you. If emotions were physical, I would guard you with sword and shield and defend you with my life. Please Jensen, just one last time… be brave.

yo i'm okay

we are just worried, like remarkab.le said we're all one big family on here

Yes I run. Distance. And if it weren’t for a competitive running club I wouldn’t be here. Martial arts helps a lot too. Most of my death wishes were before I started it about a year ago, but now martial arts solidifies the fact that I can’t die now. There must be something to keep you alive Jensen.

I learned how to fence and sword fight to get through it. Now, I am looking to maybe one day go to the Olympics. I doubt it, but I could. I proved everyone wrong, and now, people realize that without me, their academics would not be somewhat possible without me. I win competitions for money, for my school, so they can keep teaching people, and getting new things. If I felt unsafe, or troubled, and I refused to fight for that school anymore, that school would fall of the map.

This thread got inspirational real soon

Yeah, and proud that it is inspirational.

That's real cool

I learned how to fence and sword fight to get through it. Now, I am looking to maybe one day go to the Olympics. I doubt it, but I could. I proved everyone wrong, and now, people realize that without me, their academics would not be somewhat possible without me. I win competitions for money, for my school, so they can keep teaching people, and getting new things. If I felt unsafe, or troubled, and I refused to fight for that school anymore, that school would fall of the map.

That’s awesome Winter! I’m sure you could make it to the the Olympics!

It would be kind of cool, but I also don't want to. 3 years away from my family doesn't sound like my idea of fun, plus 14 hour workouts? I don't really know.