forum To Love You, is to Go Through Heartbreak, But I Still Love You Anyways (Closed with Fenrir) (1/1) (MxM)

Started April 13, 2023 by @RhysTheFirebird group

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Jas shook his head, feigning hurt as he sighed "You're both going to kill me, I'm going to die of embarrasment." He smiled at Dustin, his happiness contagious, even at the expense at what little pride Jas had.
He raised his hands int defense. "I didn't make you write the note, but I still wouldn't call that reckless. I think you're brave for writing it. I don't know if I would have done the same, probably would have had a mental breakdown before writing the first word." he laughed softly and glanced down at his back, almost as if to check that the love note was safe and sound.
He arched an eyebrow, even as a light blush spread over his cheeks again. "Oh? and who was it that you so scandously thought about while potentially with someone else, hm?" He teased, figuring if he was going to be teased by Blue and now Dustin, he'd get his little jabs in now while he still could.
Jas nodded slightly "Makes sense. Not to make assumptions but it seems like something that would make you vulnerable very easily. I get why you'd want to choose who you tell carefully." He said softly. giving a half smile, not liking the idea of anyone taking advantage of Dustin much less when he had such a sensitive condition.
He tilted his phone "what, don't like it?" He asked, his smile returning. ANd here I thought we were already at the heart emoji in contacts stage of our relationship." He shook hi head and deleted a few hearts, keeping a purple one at the end and then adding a bunny. "How else are people supposed to know I like you when a message of your unexpectedly pops up on my phone during dinner? Granted I mostly eat with Blue but still, I have to give them some incentive to talk about you."

"Maybe that's the point. The tragic, yet hilarious, story of how a boy died of, le gasp, embarrassment." Dustin made jazz hands at the word 'embarrassment', smirking slightly.

Dustin grumbles, "Yes, it was. It was reckless of me to write the note. I didn't start caring about the outcome until after I left it at your table. I think. . . Anyways, whatever. I still think it was reckless." Dustin smiles at Jas, "Brave and reckless can go hand and hand. Someone can do reckless things because they are brave."

Dustin blushed and looked awau, muttering under his breath, "I think you know very well who I 'so scandalously thought about', Jasper."

Dustin sighs, lightly pushing his thumb over the skin of his wrist, "My professors know, and so douse the nurse. But that's about it, of, my roommate, as well as some of my friend. And now you, I guess." He smiles at Jasper.

Dustin watches, pouting, "It was perfect the way it was." He whines playfully, still pouting at Jas. "And you have a fair point."

(No worries!)
"Somehow I don't take you as someone who would do something so cruel." Jas glanced at Dustin and the tilted his head "maybe. Its a good thing I'm resilient. Do your worst Bunny." He challenged, laughing at Dustin's little performance.

Jas nodded, "yeah you're right. Recklessness and bravery can go hand in hand. In you're case I think it came out to pretty good outcome. Is it normal for you? For you to do spontaneously reckless things? If so, I look forward to more of these surprises." Jas smile, resting his chin on his hand, innocently looking at Dustin as the boy blushed.

"I genuinely don't have a clue, sweetheart. I'm still reeling from the absolute adorableness of the note you so suddenly wrote to me. All rational thought is completely gone for the rest of the day." He winked and arched an eyebrow. "Oh, resorting to using my full name now that you're flustered? I think i like it."

Jas nodded again slightly, glad that people who Dustin trusted, who could actually help Dustin if anything happened to him. He smiled back softly and rolled his eyes playful. "Okay, is this better?" He asked, adding back in red and pink hearts to Dustin's contact.

(I did, lol)

Dustin smirks, “Oh, I can be cruel, just you wait, Jas. I think you’ll find I’m cruel to the ones I care about. It’s my love language. I’ll definitely do my worst. . . If I can figure out what that would be.” He grins, laughing softly. Dustin was a tease, and often teased those he cared about. Most people didn’t know that about him. Often times, he was assumed to be a quiet and gentle in his affection. While yes, he can be, he could also tease, threaten and make fun of people. All in good humor, of course. He never meant to hurt peoples feelings, and when he did, he always felt shitty.

Dustin shrugs, “Ehh. . . I don’t know. . . Maybe? Ask my friends. I don’t think I do, but it’s possible.” He leans back, looking at Jasper with a slight smile. Dustin was generally unsure whether he did spontaneous things, that was up to other people to judge. Dustin just did what he wanted. Last night and this morning had been. . . Interesting for Dustin.

Dustin felt his face heat up even more, and he looked away, chewing on his lower lip. “Well, I guess you’ll have to wait a while. It’s not like I’m going to say it outright, no matter how much you tease me. I have a reputation to uphold, you know.” Dustin mutters, crossing his arms, feigning nonchalance, though his cheeks were red. He was clearly embarrassed, both at the endearment and the teasing. He huffs, “Jas. . . Jasper, really?”

Dustin laughs softly, watching Jasper, “I suppose it’ll do for now. . .” He murmurs. He smiles slightly at Jasper.

(glad to hear :) )
"Your love language is teasing? How cute, Bunny. Like I said before, I can be resilient, I look forwards to what you call "teasing."" Jas did air quotes and gave a light laugh. He could endure teasing, for all the teasing and picking on he had done to Dustin, he could handle a bit of his own medicine. Besides, it would give him an opportunity to make dustin even more flustered.

Jas nodded slightly a thoughtful smile appearing on his features. Perhaps Dustin wasn't spontaneous all the time. Jas hadn't known him to be unpredictable until now but he liked the thought of Dustin breaking out of his shell to do something spontaneous for Jas. To say 'fuck it' and suddenly write the letter, and more, to shove past his nerves to give it to Jas. "you surprise me more and more, Dust Bunny." he repleid softly, glancing at Dustin and laughing outloud.

"Oh? so if not my full name, and my shortened name is used just casualy, what adorable nickname will you call me if I fluster you, hm?" he asked, batting his eyelashed and gently nudging Dustin. "Your poor reputation, now dating the college bad boy, whatever shall you do?" He lamented dramatically, his absolute joy only increasing. "Yes, Dusting, really." He confirmed, glancing down at his phone, adding one more heart and then saving the contact. "Good, I'm glad its up to your very high heart emoji standards."

(Hope it was worth the wait)

Dustin huffs a soft laugh and shakes his head, closing his eyes for a long moment, "Well. . . and snuggles. I like touching." He casts a side smile towards Jas. This was true. Dustin was used to and raised to show affection with touches. His parents, who were high school sweethearts, had always spent their free time with each other cuddled together on the couch watching movies and eating popcorn. When Dustin had been born,he was added to that snuggle pile. His father would always ruffle his hair and his mother would shower him with kisses every morning while saying something like 'I love you so much, my baby boy!' It was embarrassing when she did it around his friends.

Meanwhile, his uncles on his dad's side would always play rough. Dustin could remember them rough housing with each other, and when Dustin was old enough, they let him join the fun. But his parents always put a stop to it before he got hurt. Eventually his uncles started to greet him with slaps on the back and playful shoves. He smiled slightly at the fond memories.

He blinks when Jas speaks again and then chuckles, rubbing the back of his neck, "It's nothing. Seriously. What is life without a few thrills anyways?"

Dustin blushes and thinks for a long moment, "My Little Guardian. Or, Guardian for short. I read somewhere the name Jasper means guardian of treasure or bearer of treasure or something." He smiles and then looks away, "Maybe, at some point I was doing a little research about you."

Dustin could feel his cheeks turning red and he covers his face with his hand. He then looks at Jasper's phone and smiles, "Maybe. . ." He grins, "Maybe its not, you'll never know."

(always worth the wait also awe this is so cute!)
Jas arched an eyebrow, deciding not to immediate blurt out the response that came to mind and instead decided to mull over his reaction. While Jas himself had never been a touchy person, neither liking to touch other people or to be touched by others, he could understand where Dustin was coming from. On the rare occasion he would allow for someone close to him touch him, whether that was a hug or hand holding, he had always found the experience pleasant. He had never really had a partner so most of the interactions came from family and friends. For a hug or something more personal to come from a partner wasn't soemthing he had ever considered as something that would be any sort of struggle for him to work through but it wasn't something he was necessarily apposed to either. He could easily picture them curled up in a chair Dustin in his lap or just the two of them holding hands as they took an evening stroll. it was a warm thought, butterflies and fuzzy feelings swirls within Jas. He glanced up and laughed as Dustin smiled at him, more out f being on the recieving end of the teasing and the sudden flustered-ness and his own ideas than anything else.
"you're not wrong. Life needs a bit of spice in it for it to be worth living." He agreed watching Dustin for a long moment before slowly reaching over and gently taking his hand, intertwining their fingers together.
If it was even possible, Jas blush even more. "Guardian?" He squeaked out, eyes widening even more when Dustin mentioned doing some research. "you have no idea how much I love that, Bun." He admitted, "So does that mean you're my treasure?" He asked with a smirk of his own, rolling his eyes playfully and adding more hearts, this time using any color he could find in the menu. "There, I don't think the character limit will let me add any more."

(Sorry, sorry, sorry-)

Dustin smiles when he feels Jasper take his hand. He took the physical contact as a reassurance, even if that might not be what it really meant. He looks at Jasper for a moment and then down to their hands before looking at Jaspers phone. “I know I’m not wrong. When am I ever wrong?” He chuckles softly, clearly joking. He wasn’t the most confident person in himself, but he was sure he was at least confident enough in himself.

“I mean, I can totally see someone wanting to live a bland life and not have anything exiting happen to them. Letting the exciting things happen usually means opening yourself up for pain.”

Dustin laughs softly, rubbing the back of his neck with his free hand. “It was just something to pass the time. I’m sure everyone does something weird when they’ve been crushing on someone, right?” He stares at Jasper’s phone screen, not wanting to look at his face for the moment.

He lets out a heavy, forlorn sigh, “I supoooosseee it’ll have to be good enough.” He teases.

(No worries!)
For a dreadful moment Jas was worried he had gone too far and overstepped. Dustin had admitted to liking physical contact but not specifically from Jas. Besides this was the first time they had talked in years, what made him think this sort of interaction was ok, even if they were now…dating? was that what this was? Were they official? Jas did have Dustin's number in his phone and was holding his hand and now feeling something towards the boy beside him….more than something but Jas didn't want to say it out loud just yet. He huffed a soft laugh and distractingly rubbed his thumb back and forth along Dustin's hand.
"really? you can? Seems like a pretty sad existence without some excitement and happiness in your life." He mused, his smirk growing. "I'm lucky then that you came into my life, no matter how rocky at first." He decided, gently squeezing their linked hands together.
Jas arched an eyebrow and leaned in close when Dustin shied away. "just to pass the time? Is that right?" Jas was loving this far too much, loving his effect on Dustin way too much. THe way the other blushed and grew increasingly flustered would be something Jas adored from here on out. Eventually he eased away far enough to give Dustin space to breath but still kept stroking his hand as a silent reminder that he was still there.
"I'll find a way to give you more hearts, don't worry, Bunny. This isn't all." He reassured with a wink, already devising a plan for their date and future dates.

Dustin smiles at the movement of Jas’ thumb on the back of his hand, enjoying the sensation. “Me? Oh, no, I could never live a plain life. I have to have something exciting happening. Whether it’s a huge party or someone dying. . . Though I don’t think the latter is very exciting. But I think you know what I mean. A better word would be *interesting. But someone dying isn’t always interesting, like if it’s your grandmother.” Dustin was rambling and he guessed he should probably shut the hel up before he said something offensive. He closed his mouth with a soft snapping sound, a sheepish look on his face.

Dustin smiles slightly, squeezing Jas’ hand back. “Yeah. . . Though. . . Maybe less so for me.” He jokes softly, flashing a quick grin.

Dustin’s face, if possible, went even more red, and his stuttering came out in full force, “W-Well. . . M-maybe it was-was a little mor-more than just to pass-pass the t-time. . .”

Dustin laughs softly, smiling at Jas through his red face.