wow, I started a rant and then disappeared to do angry research about asexuality and psychology, my findings were suprisingly cheerful but all the research came from just one guy who im secretly hoping is a fellow asexual and he's done a lot of valid psychological research proving or at least supporting the value of using asexuality as a label and of asexuality's existence!!
on another note the last meeting of Haven (my school's GSA) is tonight but its at the same time as when my 'assigned friend group' (we were given a group of people as freshman that we are a part of to help us make friends and know people) anyway its our last meeting of the semester as well and they wanna go out for yougurtland but I wanna go to Haven and its at the same time and IDK what to do you guys please help me!!!!
yep. I also can say I have guitar picks from both Tulsa and Sacramento now (my collection is small since I only just started playing but it'll grow…eventually)
@octane Thats cool! I dont have the coordination to play the guitar lol
I'm sure they'll understand if you want to go to Haven, darling, it's the last one…
HAVEN
is that you excitedly eclaiming the name or is that you telling me to go?
I'm trying my best lol. I sorta suck still because I haven't practiced much but I finally can play the intro to My Smile is Extinct by Kane Strang (it's modified, but it still works)
yep. I also can say I have guitar picks from both Tulsa and Sacramento now (my collection is small since I only just started playing but it'll grow…eventually)
That's also really cool… I used to be able to play guitar… I'm useless at it now…
I'm trying my best lol. I sorta suck still because I haven't practiced much but I finally can play the intro to My Smile is Extinct by Kane Strang (it's modified, but it still works)
heyyyy I listened to that song like ten times today lol
JENSY! I'M GLAD TO SEE YOU!!!
JENSY! I'M GLAD TO SEE YOU!!!
I mean I've been here for like the past half hour but hi lol
Oh… Sorry I'm still kinda… Weird today…
It's all good lol. You okay?
Okay. You can PM me if you ever feel like you need to talk ^.^
I'm sure they'll understand if you want to go to Haven, darling, it's the last one…
yeah but like I dont wanna out myself to them and id have to walk by them to go to Haven and that would be awkward and like…….. IDK maybe im overthinking this whole thing because maybe I dont have to walk past them, I can go the long way, but like, we wont be having any other meetings with the group next semester and I have finals to finish but it would be fun to go to Haven because they are having a food/ game night and I feel like thats a good time to show up because I can explain my hesitance to go and stuff and, and… and …………
I could make excuses forever. I just need to make a choice. I just dont know how.
and me, if you need more than one person to talk to I guess lol
and yes I'm very proud, not only is the modded version lower pitched (I like "dulling things" in my renditions, which means paler/duller colors in art, deeper sounds in music, ect) so now I just need to figure out how to coordinate both singing and playing at the same time
Okay. You can PM me if you ever feel like you need to talk ^.^
It's not that serious… Just a bit crazy… But thanks…
and me, if you need more than one person to talk to I guess lol
and yes I'm very proud, not only is the modded version lower pitched (I like "dulling things" in my renditions, which means paler/duller colors in art, deeper sounds in music, ect) so now I just need to figure out how to coordinate both singing and playing at the same time
sing it with playing just the chord changes first, that's always a really good start
also I'm kinda the opposite, I like bringing a lot of songs up a key
this is what happens to me when I let myself think about things. I need to learn to be more impulsive.
the thing is honestly I dont like ice cream that much, especially when it's cold out and having I ce cream when its cold out is about equal to my discomfort in turnin down the ice cream and going to Haven instead so idk
You know you don't have to out yourself just to go there…
You know you don't have to out yourself just to go there…
i mean I dont want to tell my friends who want me to go to ice cream with them that im going to Haven because im not out to them
Whatever you want to do is fine…
I love trying to convince my mom that wanting to kiss someone doesn't equal not being asexual…uuuugh
She's one of those "don't label yourself" types…and apparently doesn't completely understand the meaning of the term asexual…
I don't get that. It's like… you label yourself as straight, why don't other sexualities get to label themselves? She wouldn't have a thing to say if you said that you were straight… Also that attitude fosters the idea that labels are permanent. But the thing is, sexuality is fluid, and people learn more about themselves as time goes on.
And yeah, I don't think a lot of people get asexuality. It's odd though… If my 7th grade self, who had never heard the term asexual before could understand it (when my friend first told me she was), why is it so hard for some people to wrap their minds around? It just irritates me to no end.
one of my best friends is asexual, and I completely understand not wanting to have sex. though in my friend's case he still wants to kiss people and have relationships and stuff, but not sex, and I don't get now you couldn't understand that. seriously, our society is so sex-centric it's ridiculous
I know? And I tried explaining the whole "hey, sexuality is fluid and I'm still learning about myself. If I find that I'm not actually ace, then I can just do whatever". I don't know if it's stubbornly being ignorant or if she just genuinely doesn't get it. She seems to think it's attention-seeking.
You're all right… Even straightness has a spectrum…
yeah, I mean I have no idea what to call myself since I'm such an oddball in the non-genderconforming/queer spectrums (I guess I'm agender, idk) and I'm into everything but guys (but I think I would date a masculine person? I legit don't know anymore) so I just use the umbrella term of "gay" lol
I like to label things… But it's hard to label sexuality…
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