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Started February 07, 2018 by @remarkab.le

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I'm glad to hear it

He still hasn't responded to anything I send to him though. Just laying off of that though.

I'm glad it's better, even if it's only a little

Yeah me too. I mean tonight was a break through moment, and I cried and did something that made him freak, and he kept asking questions about what happened to me. I answered them honestly, and he still seemed concerned about me. Later ish I guess we sat down, and some ice broke and he reached for my hand, and we held hands for like less than a minute, but it was enough to let us each know that we are still there for each other. Progress.

The thing that freaked him out is that I'm a church of God person, so we believe that the holy spirit falls on people, and they are moved so deeply that they start speaking in tongues, which is basically a language that no one knows, except for God himself. It happened to me, and I was border line passing out because there was so much God in the room, and he was wide eyed and confused, and he was shaking because it scared him so bad. Later on, I tried to explain the whole concept of the specific denomination of faith that I have…. Soooooooo…… Yeah.

That's a truly fantastic experience! I'm glad for you!

Yeah. It's real weird. I can only explain it as you feel tingly all over, and you feel so happy and full of life, and then when you start speaking in a language that you don't know, and no one else knows, and it comes as second nature, and you only know that it has to be God, because who else could it be? It's amazing and when it's over with, you just can't stop smiling, and you have a different air about you, and it's soothing to be near someone who has experienced God like that… All I can say is that it is the best feeling in the universe… To know that you are loved beyond measure, and that your faults don't matter, is amazing and I can't humanly fathom the entire concept… It's just wonderful.

It sounds absolutely wonderful…

winty that's awesome!!

It is. Oh, things have smoothed over with me and Elias. We actually laughed together, and I did a thing that makes him giggle because he's ticklish… I call it 'Lias abuse, and I just tickle him at the most awkward times. Like we were in line to get lunch, and I did my Winter thing. I got close to him like I was gonna nuzzle? Into his shoulder, and I hit one spot where he is extremely ticklish, and he jerked his hands up, and put them around my hands, and looked me dead in the eyes, and said, "God I hate it when you do that…" And the he smiled, and looked around for counselors, and hugged me, and kissed my cheek. (The people in line with us lost their freaking minds when he did that…) So things are still awkward, but getting better. Elinter is coming around again…

Good to hear! Who knows, maybe you two will grow stronger after that

Maybe. Or I'll just (playfully) slap him and call him a stupid viking, and he'll call me brownie, or annoying Scot… (Or he'll be real sweet and call me starlight.

Noice

Yep. Oh Shuri, what does your username mean???

It means I adopted new peeps on the site

Makes sense. Who are they if you don't mind answering? You don't have to say if you don't want to.

Too many to name

Makes sense

Life is better. Tonight we had church again, and the spirit of God fell, and I was hit with it really hard, and it literally caused me to pass out on the floor. (For our church it's completely normal, so I wasn't alone.) So after it was over, I got up, and it felt as I was drunk. I was giggling uncontrollably, talking nonsense, and Elias was like what is wrong with you? ( but was the caring kind of what is wrong with you) and I told him nothing, and then he was like okay. Then I tried to get up and walk, I stumbled around and he was like hold on starlight, let me help you. And he literally carried my weight, without making it look like he was carrying me. He held my hand and was looking me over, and he was very concerned about me. He kept making sure that I didn't need anything, and he kept people away so I could have my space.

Cool to hear!

Let me tell you, I couldn't walk straight, I couldn't talk right, and I giggled so uncontrollably, that Elias asked what drugs I was on… It was nice. He never let me out of his sight, and he always held my hand, to make sure that I wouldn't fall or stray away. I went from Winter the Alaskan, to Winter the Baymax. It was that bad…

Oof

Yeah….. I went from a freaking bear, to a squish marshmallow.

I'm exhausted, so imma gonna go for the night. Night love you all!

Cute!!
love ya too, winty <3

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We came home today, and I literally realized as we were pulling into the church parking lot, that today was his birthday… I gasped and yelled it at the top of my lungs. He gave me a bear hug, and said you remembered… His brothers and sister were there along with his mom, my mom talked to his mom, his brothers started a war with Elias (it involved them taking my flip flops, and beating each other with my shoes…), his sister talked to me, I took his hat which resulted in a hug where he wouldn't let me go, and then as he was getting into his car, I took his hat again, and he caught the wrong arm, bur he wrapped my arm around myself, and pulled me into his lap. His brothers were like oooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh….. Elias was just like wanna bet I can't get my hat back? I let him have it back bc we can't act like we do bc of his brothers….. His sister is fine with it though. I told her I'd cover for her when she gets a boyfriend. She says agreed. She finds Elias and I rather annoying though, but only on certain days. I think you were right Shuri. Winter and Elias are gonna be stronger because of this. Even if he's a stupid viking, and I'm an annoying Scot….

Do you have to have an account? I'll look if I don't have to make an account…

We came home today, and I literally realized as we were pulling into the church parking lot, that today was his birthday… I gasped and yelled it at the top of my lungs. He gave me a bear hug, and said you remembered… His brothers and sister were there along with his mom, my mom talked to his mom, his brothers started a war with Elias (it involved them taking my flip flops, and beating each other with my shoes…), his sister talked to me, I took his hat which resulted in a hug where he wouldn't let me go, and then as he was getting into his car, I took his hat again, and he caught the wrong arm, bur he wrapped my arm around myself, and pulled me into his lap. His brothers were like oooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh….. Elias was just like wanna bet I can't get my hat back? I let him have it back bc we can't act like we do bc of his brothers….. His sister is fine with it though. I told her I'd cover for her when she gets a boyfriend. She says agreed. She finds Elias and I rather annoying though, but only on certain days. I think you were right Shuri. Winter and Elias are gonna be stronger because of this. Even if he's a stupid viking, and I'm an annoying Scot….

You two really do love each other. Even if you fight, even if you temporarily separate. I can feel it Winter. You and Elias will be stronger than ever. You have a one-in-a-million bond with him. And he, with you! Mutual selflessness, honesty, loyalty, love, and communication, all of those things seem downright adamantine in you two

I guess… We really don't feel like we are any different,than any other couple though… Why are things so different??? I mean we were great friends before, and now our relationship is apparently more different than any of our couple friends… It doesn't feel different…