@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo
winter, we're here for you always
winter, we're here for you always
I’m so sorry…
I had that same experience once, it’s hard, it really is. But just remember that no matter what happens, I’m here for you. We all are.
I’ll keep you, her, and your whole family in my prayers tonight.
I'm sorry, Winty….
hugs I'm here for you. I'll be praying for you too. <3
Yeah… It was a beautiful funeral. It was just like she was there. It was her style, and it fit. I cried so much, but that's okay. I'll see her again, someday. After the funeral, I was shipped off to church camp, with no break in between. I had no time to get over anything, so I'm sitting here, at midnight feeling real bad. But I'm in a dorm room with 13 other girls and I just can't cry, bc females are heartless monsters. And I can't sneak out and see Elias bc it's a church camp, and there isn't supposed to be PDA bc it's a church camp. So he can't give me a hug, and I feel absolutely miserable. So, I came here. To notebook.
Love, I know how it is. I'm sorry you can't cry it out, or hug Viking boi. Have you showered?
Yeah… Before camp…
Alright. Have you had anything to eat?
I called my mom, and Elias sent a message that was very sentimental to me over text. Made me feel like 1% better. And dang, he's trying his hardest to make me laugh… I hate it when he does that…. (It always works though…)
Would you like some wholesome memes?
Yeah. Elias made me eat. He's being too doting… Or he cares a lot. Probably both if we're honest
Yes hit me with the memes
Memes are good
Love ya winty
Love ya too Shuri. I'm gonna go to bed for the night. I need some form of rest…
See ya tomorrow
At the church camp I'm going to, phones are taken away, and there's no internet out there (and I don't have dataaa). If you're spotted with one you're put in serious trouble and humiliated.
I'm glad you can have your phone to calm down and that the camp isn't as insane as mine. I'm also very sorry for your loss.
Today was freaking terrible… I broke down again, and Elias and I had a massive argument and we aren't talking right now, oh god we were so close to calling it quits… It was terrible. He hasn't answered my texts, or my calls, it was my fault I asked a question about his dad that shouldn't have been asked, and he blew up, and he stopped talking to me, and I'm legit crying, typing this because my day was really bad… AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Is it normal to feel terrible after you yelled at certain people? I feel so bad… I regret everything that I said… God I feel awful… I broke him…
Oh my gods Winty that's awful, I'm so sorry hugs
It's normal, don't worry. And regret is a good thing. It means you're not heartless.
I hope you guys can talk it out and be okay again.
I don't know… We have literally been 2 feet apart, and he looked at me, made his face which is like dissapointment and crushing sadness, and dropped his head, and walked away. I broke him Ravens. I freaking broke him. I took shots at him for his memory, and I took shots at his dead beat dad, and I feel awful… And he's broken
I don't know what to do… I've done everything I know to do, but nothing has worked.
I don't know how to help and I wish I did…
I'm so sorry.
I'll be praying for you two.
Winty we're here for you.
I truly, really hope everything goes better for you. I'll be here to talk to if you want
I'm so frustrated. My world has crashed and burned to ashes before my eyes. And now the only person who comforted me, is broken, and he's not answering when I need him the most….
I'm gonna go for the night/day? I just don't even know anymore… I need time to think…
Shuri's right, we're here for you. I'm here.
Night <3 <3
Alright, Winty, we love you
It's better right now. We spoke, but it was pretty icy… But it was better, and I told him that I was sorry again, and I went and played camp softball, and he watched and held my phone. After I finished playing, he handed me my phone again, and we walked, wordlessly, and then I said thank you, and he looked at me with such a confused look. Then I told him how much it meant to me for watching me play. Granted it wasn't the standard I play too, but still, he watched, and it made me happy. He smiled, and said your welcome and he showed more of his playful side. We still haven't had a Winter and Elias conversation, but We are making progress I guess…
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