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@remarkab.le

There's no hope left for me. My mom just told me she doesn't trust me anymore and that it's such a heavy burden to carry around and I realized she had a point. It's all my fault. I'm too scared to tell her anything. I tried, I almost did, but I couldn't. Cause how do you even tell the people that love you that you need help. You can't, because you don't want to hurt them. Me dying would help. Because..it would..there's not even words to describe how much I hate being alive right now.

Hey! I went through something very similar to this about two years ago. It was with my dad, he told me he didn't trust me and i feel into depression and made some very bad decisions. The thought of killing myself crossed my mind thousands of times. But I couldn't do that to my family. I have a twin sister, a brother, and a mom, as well as my dad, who I was too afraid to talk to. To be honest, I never did talk to them about it, they still don't know. I found myself this one friend who I knew wasn't going to stay in my life. But they were still there for me when I needed them in the beginning, I told them everything. EVERYTHING. And when they finally left my life, it hurt but it didn't hurt that bad. Because someone already knew my thoughts and secrets I found it easier to tell more permanent people in my life like my current male best friend. And you half to understand that people will leave but they leave for a reason. Things happen, and you can't change the past, but you shouldn't give up on your future. During this period of my time, I began to write. Just last year I entered my first competition and got third in the county. I'm not trying to convince you not to be sad, or whatever emotions you are feeling. I am not telling you that it gets immediately better, because I'm still not where I wish I was. But, things have been improving. I'm not asking you to share with me, or any of us, what happened or what you're thinking, but we are here for you. We are some of those temporary friends. We can impact your life and help you as best as we can through the computer. But we can't be there for you all the time and we aren't staying here forever. What I am asking/saying is you shouldn't give up yet. Being alive sucks, but it's better than being dead. You may think that no one will miss you, but they will. Lots of people will. My coping strategies may not work for you, I tried many many many things before I found something that worked. I know it seems like it will be a disappointment to your family if you tell them you need help, but if I'm being honest. It's one of the things I regret the most. Not telling my family. It's too late to tell them now, but it's not too late for you. You don't have to tell them everything either, just what you want. I don't care where you start, what you try, or if you even listen to me (about the strategies, please don't die)–but you should not give up. Not yet.

@remarkab.le

Sorry bout that long thing, but if you are depressed or anything (or Kmart) you should really read it! Took a good few minutes out of my SAT time :)

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I'll do it for you
you can move in with me if they kick you out
you show 'em kmart

@basil_

they wouldn't kick me out..I would just get flooded with attention which would be horrible and just add to the stress of everything else. but'd i'd love to move in with you anyways, switch schools, start over.

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attention fricking sucks I feel u
you could take advantage of it and actually do that though

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

As far as I'm concerned… If you want to recover, it's gonna be a long trip crawling out of hell… But we'll all be here to help you every single stwp of the way… Truthfully I dunno how long our friendship is gonna last, but I do know thwt I'm right behind you, to keep you afloat when you're in danger of sinking. To push you when you're hsving trouble moving forward, to hurl you up when you feel.high, and to cushion you when you fall, with every single fiber of my being. Until we part, you can count on me, to love you, support you, and help, however they flying fuck I can. I've got problems thwt I'm dealing with (but I don't want to stress you out with them), and I'm here to give you advice. For you to cry into, yell into, vent into, rant into, if you need to lay into someone, I volunteer. I want to mske a difference in this crapsack world, and I won't stand to let my friends live here without my help.

@remarkab.le

Attention does suck. That's why (if you're going to) tell someone, I'd start with a friend, or us, then when you realize it's not as big a deal as you think (which is normally the case) you can go to your parents.

@Trix

Woah. Kmart. I can't relate, but listen. If the only thing holding you back is the thought of attention and you can't let your family know you're broken - that's ok. Like Shuri said, work it up. You can even tell your mom what's been going on, it's obvious she means a lot to you. This'll help build her trust back, and you can specifically request for some privacy instead of attention. It'll feel so much better to reach out, the stress will lighten, I can't even begin to describe how much opening up feels. C'mon, you got this.

@Shuri-the-Floof-Doggo

That's right. You've probably got more inner strength than I do KMart, so work up, from us at Notebook.ai to your real friends, to your parents, and all that… We freaking believe in you! Stay wonderful!

@actual-fandom-trash

Kmart, I relate to you and I get what you're saying. My mom has told me that she no longer trusts me and that kinda messed me up. It still does tbh, but you have more than enough courage to open up some. I believe in ya. I've opened up to a few friends and one day, maybe, I'll open up to my parents and get some help, but until then… Kmart you can do thisss

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well
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good morning everyone, I hope everyone is doing good already and will go on to have a glorious day!