@Elder-God-Jacks347
She dropped her eyes, staring down at her shoes. "I wish you couldn't read my eyes as well as you do." She mumbled under her breath.
She dropped her eyes, staring down at her shoes. "I wish you couldn't read my eyes as well as you do." She mumbled under her breath.
âBelle,â he reached forward and pushed her chin up , âWhatâs the matter?â
"I'm stressed, okay? A lot of things have been happening recently. Hanna coming back was an unwanted surprise, then the whole thing happened between us, now this is a thing, I'm terrified that I'm going to lose the one person that makes my life bearable because of my stupid decisions and it's justâŚugh."
âDoes everyone else in your life make you miserable? And Ryan wouldnât leave you, heâd die without you. Also I donât want to hear it because you told me you didnât regret what happened between us,â
âOkay, come one,â he wrapped his hoodie around her and walked out the back door. âWe can hang out in Nealâs car. I have the spare so we can go for a drive,â
Lillian nodded and whispered quietly, "I'm sorry you have to leave."
âItâs okay, thereâs nothin. I can do while Belles Iâm there. I can come back,â
"Thank you," Lillian kept glancing around. Her senses were on high alert, survival mode.
âNo problem,â he said getting into the car. âWeâll drive around for a bit,â
Lillian got in on the other side. She let out a small sigh, "Okay."
"Okay, not what I meant. It's not that everyone else makes me miserable, it's just that he makes me happy. Happier than anyone else does. Also, I meant with Jazz. She had no right to invade my thoughts and control my life like that."
He looked over at her with a smile as he started the car, âOkay,â
"Okay, not what I meant. It's not that everyone else makes me miserable, it's just that he makes me happy. Happier than anyone else does. Also, I meant with Jazz. She had no right to invade my thoughts and control my life like that."
âI agree she shouldnât have done it. She had your best interest at heart but still,â
He looked over at her with a smile as he started the car, âOkay,â
Lillian couldn't muster a smile to return, but she had grateful look in eyes.
"She was just trying to protect me but it felt like it was in the worst way possible." Once again, the noose that had been tied around her neck when this whole affair started tightened.
âKilling yourself qualifies as leaving and you promised you wouldnât do that so, no me gusta to that plan,â he smiled, hoping to lighten the air a bit.
He looked over at her with a smile as he started the car, âOkay,â
Lillian couldn't muster a smile to return, but she had grateful look in eyes.
âItâs gonna be okay,â he promised quietly as he pulled out of the parking lot.
Lillian nodded. She knew it would be, she just had to be careful now. Wait it out.
She swallowed hard. She could almost feel the rope around her neck, squeezing her throat. She smiled a little, hoping he wouldn't notice. "Right."
Lillian nodded. She knew it would be, she just had to be careful now. Wait it out.
âDo I have permission to punch your dad if the time comes when I may need to?â
She swallowed hard. She could almost feel the rope around her neck, squeezing her throat. She smiled a little, hoping he wouldn't notice. "Right."
âHey, Iâm here if you need to talk and trust me, you donât want to do that to Ryan.
"âŚYes," Lillian said after some silent thought. Her mom's abuse was obvious, the cause and effect. Her dad's was manipulative. Made Lillian think what he did was okay, and with some hindsight, it really wasn't.
"What? Why not?" Her eyebrows furrowed in slight confusion.
âI wonât let him touch you, Okay,â heâs been friends with Ryan long enough to understand that.
"What? Why not?" Her eyebrows furrowed in slight confusion.
âKilling yourself? Are you kidding?â
âI wonât let him touch you, Okay,â heâs been friends with Ryan long enough to understand that.
"Okay," Lillian was really fucking grateful for Darren right now.
"How do you even know that's what I'm thinking about?" She leaned forward slightly, resting her elbows on her knees and her face in her free hand.
âBecause I told you that killing yourself counted a sleaving and would break our promise and you didnât respond to it with direct words but through emotion,â
âI wonât let him touch you, Okay,â heâs been friends with Ryan long enough to understand that.
"Okay," Lillian was really fucking grateful for Darren right now.
"Did I? I didn't notice. What did it look like?"
âI wonât let him touch you, Okay,â heâs been friends with Ryan long enough to understand that.
"Okay," Lillian was really fucking grateful for Darren right now.
They drove for awhile out in the middle of nowhere. âI like it out here on these roads, thereâs no people,â
"Did I? I didn't notice. What did it look like?"
âSorrow, mostly. You just said things quietly,â
"Yeah," Lillian sighed staring out the window. Her body slowly relaxing itself, "It's really nice."
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